Have you ever wanted to die so badly in your life that you've tried everything but it never fails that you always end up living?
No I didn't think so, which means you won't understand my dilemma but maybe I can help you understand by telling you my story and starting from the beginning.
Hi my name is Raven and I'm sixteen years old, I have dark raven hair and grey galaxy eyes I'm not very tall for my age but I suppose it runs in the family or it did until my parents died.
I sat in the insane asylum play area since it was an insane asylum for children since I had done something to get stuck in here.
No one understands me here even though it's an insane asylum it's like they judge me even though I'm not even crazy I've been telling the truth the whole time that my twin brother Nightmare is inside of me and occasionally takes over my body but they don't understand since they think he's just an imaginary friend I use to cope with my parents death and even worse they think I use him as an accuse for when I do bad things like for example my parents death.
Staring at the other crazy children playing with toys and board games the nurses let them play with made me remember when I was younger and then it brought me back to all those horrible memories.
(Flashback)
I was six years old sitting outside my old house with my parents and my twin brother Nightmare.
"Sweet heart stay here dad and I have to go get something okay?"
My mother smiled at us.
"Sure mommy."
I smiled and Nightmare nodded.
My mom and dad left us and went inside the house leaving us to the warm country air.
"Sis lets go over there!"
My brother Nightmare smiled and his big green galaxy eyes beamed then he grabbed my hand.
We ran close to the field that our parents had strictly told us never to go near but yet something called us the suddenly we saw a lady standing in the fields.
"Wait we can't go there."
I told Nightmare.
"But there's a lady there."
Nightmare said pointing.
I saw the lady she kept gesturing for us she waved and called our names.
"I'm scared."
I said clenching tighter onto Nightmare.
"Come here children I have candy!"
She waved.
"I like candy."
Nightmare said.
"I do too."
I thought about it.
We were to short to walk into the fields so we had to push weeds and hay to get closer to her.
She had strange long blue hair and she wore a strange outfit I'd never forget it was like something out of a fantasy movie.
"Raven, Nightmare!"
My mom and dad called.
"Mom?"
I turned around and then the lady snatched us up into her arms.
"Raven, Nightmare!"
Our parents called and ran after us.
We tried to escape her grasp but it was so tight then I my eye sight started to fill with tears.
Nightmare screamed and kicked his legs trying to break free but she held us tight.
"Let us go!"
I said and she covered my mouth then I bit her and she dropped me hard onto to ground.
"You little rat!"
She yelled and dropped my brother also.
"Mommy, daddy!"
I yelled and grabbed my brother's hand and took off running towards them.
I ran as fast as my six year old legs could take me.
I ran and saw my mom and dad running this was in hope and we got behind them seeking shelter but the lady was right in front of them now because somehow she caught up.
"I suppose I have to murder since you've seen so much."
The lady said.
"Stay back!"
My father jumped in front but all I remember is her holding up her hand and sending him flying to the left and onto the ground.
"Daddy!"
We cried as we held onto our mother's leg.
"I'll be taking your children now."
The lady said then waved her hand and our mother flew in the same direction.
"Mommy, daddy!"
I cried and tried to run to them but the lady caught us.
"Shh I promise you'll forget about this soon."
She said.
She put something in our mouths that tasted like candy and we passed out, I saw my brother's face for the last time that moment.
When I woke up I was lying on a table and I panicked looking for my brother, I looked around and I appeared to be in a doctor's office.
"Help!"
I yelled then I realized I was strapped down.
I screamed and I heard someone rush into the room.
"You're awake."
The same lady said.
"Where am I!?"
I screamed and struggled to getout of the straps.
"May I test something?"
She asked.
She untied the straps that held me down and I quickly got off the table and ran to the door but it was locked but I kept hitting it.
"Would you like some candy?"
She asked and held a chocolate bar.
"No!"
I cried and hit the door.
"Here."
She said handing me a needle.
"What's this for?"
I asked as I held the small needle in my hands.
"Go on poke yourself. "
She said.
"No that will hurt!"
I said.
"I promise it won't."
She said.
I pricked my finger and screamed at the blood that poured out because it wasn't red it was black and she was right it didn't hurt at all and it quickly healed.
"W-wheres my brother!?"
I screamed.
"Maybe you should wait and find out."
She smiled.
"W-what?"
I was confused.
I ran to the corner and panicked.
"Raven...Raven... "
I heard my brother's voice.
"Nightmare!?"
I yelled looking around.
"Help!"
I heard him scream very loud then I could hear his thoughts and his emotions scared and overwhelmed me.
I clenched my head in pain at all the thoughts and tapping sounds rushing through my head.
"Let him take control."
The lady said.
I screamed in pain as my head pounded, my mind then went blank and I let go then I couldn't see anymore or hear the noises and screaming were all gone then for a minute I was fine then I opened my eyes and looked down at my hands except they weren't my hands they were black blades sharp and thick and covered in blood.
I looked over at the corner and the lady was dead and the walls were covered in blood and so were my used to be hands.
I didn't understand I screamed and cried but nothing happened no one came in.
I ran for the door and sliced right through it with my hands then I made my escape and ran down the halls until I found a window and jumped out.
Nothing hurt anymore I felt no pain only friction when I would get cut by the glass as I jumped out the window and ran.
