I know you loved me and I know I loved you. The love we had was all I've ever wanted and you came into my life at just the right time. I didn't know it then because I was scared then and didn't think I was ready but you made me feel so comfortable that I let it happen. And honestly you made me feel so loved just one week in. We had the best relationship, we'd see each other every day at school and we'd go somewhere together almost every day. We were so close and I was just as close with your friends as you were. I was drowning in my own year and you introduced me to so many people so I felt like I had so many more friends and I appreciated that. We were best friends we would share everything with each other and I knew the struggles you were facing so I swore I would help you and be patient with you because all I wanted was your happiness. I made sure I never got angry at you or yelled or did anything like that unnecessarily because I never wanted to lose you and I swore to myself I'd change how I was in this relationship. You noticed and I loved that, you noticed all the little things and you'd remember everything I'd say but most importantly you noticed how good I was to you and you appreciated it. You were my love and I could've never asked you to change for me because even though we both had flaws we loved each other anyway.
But that day when everything got to much for you and you started to think you were bringing me down was the day my life lost its purpose. I know you did what you had to do and we were on a break and I understood why but still I wasn't happy about it. During that time i was so upset and sometimes seeing you at school all alone I'd just want to come up to you like before but I knew I couldn't. Then you completely ended it and it hurt me so much more. I was so depressed and worried about my health after that and you were good to me but you weren't good to me for long. I know you think you were doing things right but it only hurt me more. You still do it but I forgive when you don't answer me and I don't know why but I can't talk to you about my feelings anymore and it's so hard that your not there. I dropped from your top priority. You didn't love me anymore and that killed. When you started liking this other girl for about a week I couldn't handle myself but I acted like I didn't care and somehow I got over you. I actually got over you and I think to myself all the time if you came back I would say no because the person you've become is not the person I fell in love with. But sometimes I think about it and of course if I had the chance I would take you back because maybe it's me that brings out that happy, caring side of you. The truth is you've hurt me so fricken much that once I felt I didn't even have a heart anymore or like it didn't even work anymore. And when we were together you adored me and thought I was the best person out there and you never ever wanted to lose me and you made me feel worthy of something and that's what I want. When I think about the perfect relationship, ours is what I think of. But I could never have that with anyone else only you. I cannot cry over you one more time. I love you with all my heart and I always will. But the day I lost my boyfriend was the day I lost my best friend too and my favourite person in this world and losing both of those things at the same time I swear is enough to kill a person mentally. I want my best friend back and I want you back because I'm not done loving you yet and I bet if you put some thought into it you would know we're not finished.
I miss you and I believe we were never meant to end because we were right and no one is as compatible and accepting and loving as we were to each other.
Please come back to me, I love you x
