If you guys don't know already, I threaten to kill BaconCupcakes (Can't remember her new name). Here's why and I understand if you don't believe me or whatever but this is 100% true.
So I found out a couple of months ago that I am bipolar, and my memory isn't that great so I don't remember a single detail about threatening Bacon. So after a month or so, I went to my then friend, Weaving Endless Dreams/Heart Dreamsareinfinity and told her. My parents are the type that expect me to be perfect in everything I do, or they want me to do. So when we found out I am bipolar, they freaked out because I was no longer, perfect. In a way, it made a lot sense for my behavior, sometimes being an angel other times, the devil. I just thought that was how I was, but it turns out it was more then that.
I am really sorry, Bacon. I honestly don't remember wanting to kill you, but I really am sorry that I did. I take full responsibility and I know what it's like to think about killing yourself and being depressed. I hope you don't move from this site, I really do enjoy your writing and stories. It was totally unacceptable for me to act that way and I've hopefully learned my lesson. From now on, when I feel mad I will try not to talk to anyone just in case I hurt their feelings.
Not many people know about my issue and I would appreciate it if no one really talks about it, this is the first time I am opening up like this and I hope that Bacon forgives me. I am trying to think of a punishment for myself, but I don't know what to do. Bacon, I know this apology isn't enough for what I did for you. I completely understand if you hate me forever and you have every right to point your finger at me (I don't know what it means, it just sounded right).
Fanfictioners,
I am really sorry about the drama I caused and I didn't mean for it to go this way. I deserve every bad thing that comes my way and I will take it with pride because I hope that you know the reason why I said that, and that hopefully, Bacon forgives me. I understand where everyone is coming from, the few PMs I got from two people that I would like to thank, Dreaming of Glamour and Gravity5. They made me realize what I had done, that I needed to apologize, and that I needed to take responibility. Also, for Weaving Endless Dreams/Heart Dreamsareinfinity for not judging me about my bipolarness and being the first person I told and understood.
So I know this probably doesn't make up for what I did, but I'm hoping its enough for at least some hope, that Bacon will stay. I just wish that I could take it all back and not be bipolar because then this wouldn't have happened and Bacon wouldn't have gotten depressed and sad and want to leave.
I am really sorry and I do hope that we can friends. I am sincerely sorry, and if you don't believe me, that's fine. But this is true, it's 100% me, and everyone has their own opinion and they all believe in something different. Bacon, stay. Don't do it for me, or anyone else, but you. If this is truly what you want to do, then do it. Do what makes you happy, and free. I know that's really cliche and everyone says that, but in the end, it's worth fighting for what you care about because chances are you won't get another moment to do so.
