.: This songfic uses Kavana's Will You Wait For Me and is in Yuna's POV :.
.: Very nice and sad song... love that song even til now. :.
.: genre may be wrong, pls dont rely on it.. for both chapz. :.
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I stand at the edge of the dock of Luca facing the vast cerulean sea. I start whistling, then I look around carefully. I whistle some more.
"Yuna, it's time"
I nodded. I gave one last look around, then I followed Lulu.
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I need to talk with you again...
Why did you go away...?
All our time together
just feels like yesterday...
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--flashback--
We had just arrived in Luca.
"I hope we don't get separated." I told him.
"Yuna!" you called me.
You whistled with your fingers.
"What was that?" I wondered.
"In Zanarkand, we do this to cheer on blitzball players."
You whistled again.
"You try it, too! Put your fingers in your mouth like this."
"Like...this?"
"Uh-uh, not like that. Like this." you showed me. "Then, you just blow."
I tried it, but no whistle was made. Only air came out.
"It's not working."
"Practice!"
"Okay."
I tried once more, but I still couldn't do it. I could see you smiling at me.
"Hey, use that if we get separated. Then, I'll come running, okay?" you promised. "Well, guess we should just stick together, then, till you can do it." he chuckled.
"Yes, sir!"
--end flashback--
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I never thought I'd see
a single day without you...
The things we take for granted,
we can sometimes lose...
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--flashback--
Sir Auron had asked to become my guardian here at Luca where we met him. We were getting ready to leave but I felt like showing you something. I have been practicing! like you said...
"Hey! Come with me!" I called you, and you followed. "Hey, watch!"
I was finally able to blow a whistle with my fingers.
"Hey, you got pretty good." you seemed impressed but I could tell something was bothering you.
"You sound sad." I said.
"Yeah, maybe." I felt bad for you.
I hadn't let my smile disappear. "Wanna scream?
"I really don't think that's gonna help this time."
"What can I say to you?" I thought. I couldn't think of a way to make you feel better.
"You know what?" I started. "It's embarrassing to say this myself... But summoners and their guardians are kind of like Spira's ray of light. A lot of people in Spira depend on us. I learned to practice smiling when I'm sad, you know? I know it's hard." I hope that inspired you.
"Yeah... I understand. I think."
"Right, now let's see what you can do!"
"Huh?" you wondered curiously.
"Come on!"
You tried to smile, but upon doing so, you feel uncomfortable.
"This is weird!"
"Next, try laughing out loud!"
"What?"
"Come on, show me!"
You started laughing out loud. It kinda scared me at first. You sounded like a madman.
"You probably shouldn't laugh anymore."
Then, we both laughed out loud, but not real laughs at first. After a while, we started laughing... Really laughing.
"Too funny!"
"It was your idea!"
I felt glad that you didn't seem that much upset anymore.
"Um...thank you. I want my journey to be full of laughter."
"Okay."
I remembered what you told me back in the docks when I still didn't know how to whistle.
"If we should get separated, just whistle. I'll come running. I promise."
You smiled at me. There was something different in it. At that moment, I seemed to feel... a spark.
"Well, let's go."
--end flashback--
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And if I promise not to feel this pain,
will I see you again,
will I see you again...?
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I was still preparing something to say in my speech in front of the people.
Now it's time to face all the people of Spira.
I just hope...
They listen to what I have to say. And...
Take time to reflect on it.
What they have, they musn't take it for granted.
And always remember... To not forget.....
I was really nervous before coming out in front of everyone. But...
I know you're here with me...
Tidus...
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Coz time will pass me by...
Maybe I'll never learn to smile,
but i know I'll make it through,
if you wait for me...
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"Everyone...everyone has lost something precious. Everyone here has lost homes, dreams, and friends. Everybody... Now, Sin is finally dead."
People applauded.
"Now, Spira is ours again. Working together... Now we can make new homes for ourselves, and new dreams. Although I know the journey will be hard, we have lots of time. Together, we will rebuild Spira. The road is ahead of us, so let's start out today."
Once again, people rejoiced. I smiled at my guardians. Wakka, Lulu, Rikku, and Kimahri seemed happy. I now looked back to my audience and prepared for what I was going to say next. My eyes started to fill up with tears.
"Just, one more thing... The people and the friends that we have lost, or the dreams that have faded..."
I tried my best to hide it in front of the people by giving them a sweet smile.
"Never forget them."
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And all the tears I cry,
no matter how I try,
will never bring you home to me...
Won't you wait for me...in heaven...?
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Uncle Cid dropped us of in Besaid with his airship. I felt like cooling off. I ran to the water and lied floating.
Do you still remember how we first met?
And all of our adventures since...
It all seems like such a dream nowadays...
You were a piece of a star that fell from the sky.
Whenever I want to return to those days long gone, I close my eyes and whisper your name into the evening sky...
Tidus...Tidus...
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Do you remember how it was
when we never seemed to care...?
The days went by so quickly
coz I thought you'd always be there...
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--flashback--
I was in the spring in the Macalania Woods. I asked for my guardians for me to be alone for a while. But you came looking for me. You already knew. I had to think of something to say.
"I always thought that this would be easier somehow. I thought that everyone would help me...with all my friends together beside me. I've been trying so hard."
You waded in the water right beside me.
"Maybe you're trying too hard... They told me everything."
"Everything?" I was right. You already knew. I didn't know what to say. I felt like I made a mistake. I should have told you. "Well, so then...you know."
"Yeah. I'm sorry." you apologized. "It's just you know...all those things I said. Like 'Let's go get Sin!' Or about Zanarkand... I didn't know what would happen to you, Yuna. I guess...I hope it didn't make you sad. Forgive me." you sounded so serious and sincere. I felt moved... "but it's not your fault" I thought.
"I wasn't sad. I was happy." ... was I?
You then lied, floating in the water. You sighed heavily.
"Yuna. Just don't do it." you tried to convince me.
"The pilgrimage?"
You now stood up in the water. "Yeah. That's right. Forget all about Sin, about being a summoner. Forget all that. You know, live a normal life. Come on now, Yuna, what do you say?"
I didn't even give it a thought. I've thought about it many times. "Maybe I will. Wouldn't everyone be surprised?" But...
"Yeah. Except Rikku. She'd be with you. Lulu and Wakka wouldn't hold out long."
"Kimahri would say yes, too, I know. But Sir Auron..."
"I'll make him understand, Yuna. It's the least I can do for you."
"No, I should tell him. He deserves it."
I was now lying on the water.
"What'll I do if I give up my pilgrimage?" It was a question, I have been trying to answer for so long.
"Hey! Zanarkand! Let's go to Zanarkand! Not the one in Spira, the one I'm from." You cheerfully suggested. "Yeah, we can all fly there. Everyone can go! Then we'll have a big party at my place!"
"And then we could see blitzball! Your Zanarkand Abes would play! We could all watch you play, in the stadium all lit up at night. I'd cheer and cheer till I couldn't cheer anymore!" I added.
"Right on!"
"Well, what about after the game?"
"We'd go out and have fun!"
"In the middle of the night?"
"No problem! Zanarkand never sleeps! Let's go to the sea, before the sunrise. The city lights go out one by one. The star fade... It's kinda rose-colored, right? First in the sea, then it spreads to the sky, then to the whole city. It gets brighter and brighter, till everything glows. It's really...pretty." you then said more seriously. "I know you'd like it."
"I'd like to see it, someday."
"Well you can, Yuna. We can both go!"
Tears starts coming out of my eyes. You noticed.
"Yu...?"
"I can't. I just can't! I can't go!"
I started crying softly. I couldn't control it anymore.
"Yuna." You approach me and hold me in your arms. You pulled me close to you. I was expecting to get a simple but comforting embrace from you. I never really expected that you would... kiss me... We dove down the water together, holding each other. I couldn't think of anything else to make me feel better. When we emerged from the water, I was no longer crying. We got out and sat on the dry ground.
"I'll continue. I must. If I give up now... I could do anything I wanted to, and yet... Even if I was with you, I could never forget." There was nothing you can do. My mind is set. I'm going to finish this pilgrimage.
You knew that you couldn't change my mind anymore. "I'll go with you. I'm your guardian." you thought that maybe if you couldn't do anything about it, you would just have to come with me. "Unless I'm...fired?"
I smiled. Fired, he says...? "Stay with me until the end. Please." I would love that.
"Not until the end... Always."
"Always, then." I gave him another smile.
"Maybe you should head back to camp first."
"Roger!"
I watched you leave but before you could get back to where the others are...
"Wait. I'll go with you." I gently grabbed your hand.
We walked together, holding hands.
-end flashback--
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And it's hard to let you go,
though I know that I must try...
I feel like I've been cheated
coz we never said goodbye...
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--flashback--
We came to Bevelle, seeking for answers from Maester Mika. We ended up in the Chamber of the Fayth, where the little hooded Fayth was.
"When it is all over...we will wake, and our dream will end. Our dream will vanish." he said.
"Yeah. You've been dreaming a long time, haven't you?" you told him.
"I'm sorry." he told you.
"I'm grateful." you said. I didn't understand what you meant.
The Fayth disappeared.
"About what?" I asked you.
"Oh, nothing." I pretended to feel hurt. "Hey, don't make that face! Come on! We're going to beat Sin! Let's see some cheer, okay?"
"You're hiding something." I said.
"I'm not!" he insisted.
"Really?"
Then you just left, without a word.
"You're a bad liar, you know?"
--next flashback--
We have defeated Sin and Yu Yevon. Words couldn't express how happy I felt. The Eternal Calm. Spira would finally be in peace. You and I--- I saw you... fading... "No..."
"Yuna, I have to go."
"No." I shook my head. I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want you to leave!
"I'm sorry I couldn't show you Zanarkand. Goodbye!" you walked away towards the edge of the deck.
"Hey!" Wakka called out to you.
"We're gonna see you again...?" Rikku asked you.
I felt my eyes stinging. I was about to cry. I ran after you, arms wide open, to stop you from leaving.
"Yuna!" Kimahri called me.
You turned around, wanting to give me one last embrace. But... I just went through your body. I fell on the ground. Tears slowly flowed from my eyes. Then I stood up. You were right behind me but I couldn't look at you. I just had to tell you...
"I love you."
You looked at me and embraced me from behind although I couldn't feel you. But I knew. You walked past me and jump off the airship while I stood there no longer able to control my tears.
--end flashback--
"...I love you."
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Coz I miss you so,
and I need to know...
...will you wait for me...?
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.: sniff... the song makes me sad... :.
.: i wonder how many flames ill receive for this fic... i hope the Rikku one will be nice, but i doubt... pessimistic... aint i? ;p :.
