Meredith's thoughts
Just trying to feel better. He was all I really cared for… and I threw it all away.
I met him just a little over three months ago. We met at a party and instantly connected. It was deep chemistry I never felt before. I knew in my heart that this was a keeper and it was only just the beginning…
He wasn't exactly the best looking guy, crude as it sound. I didn't care though. Panda eyes he used to say that he had, for he wore glasses. Whenever he laughed, my heart filled with blissfulness where no words can explain. He had perfect teeth and a smile which would light you up.
sigh I just wanted a guy. I had no-one in a sense I felt loneliness. Sometimes you can have all the friends in the world yet still your heart feels empty. I feel like crying now, but the tears won't come out. He was such an amazing guy. He made me laugh during random times, he cared so much for me he messaged me every single day, he told me the three words any girl would love to hear and he was a gentleman. Someone that would do anything for me yet I was not quite satisfied. I would often question myself. How can I feel so happy yet dissatisfied at the same time.. is this true love?
