Kate never thought she would be doing this again.
Last year when Castle was missing the only way she could fall asleep was wearing one of his shirts. Having Rick's scent around her made it feel like he was there.
Embarrassed by how needy it seemed Kate never let Castle know.
She made excuses to herself; it was only because she didn't know if he was ever coming back.
Yeah right. If that were true, she wouldn't have stuffed the grey button-down into her bag tonight.
It hurts more than it did last time, because now he's not here due to a choice she made. The tears that fall are her own doing.
Not having the energy to continue chastising herself, Kate quickly changes into her source of comfort. Crawling into the cold bed and wrapping her arms around the pillow, she pretends Rick is behind her. Being the big spoon, as he likes to call it.
As the familiar scent lulls her to sleep, Kate's last thought is this needs to be over soon.
Across town, holding the shirt Kate left behind, Castle smiles. This will be over soon.
