Fear Of Reality

Me second story! a slight sandcest is involved! sorry but i liked them back then!

My feelings for Gaara are very strong. I want to let him know that i care for him. Iwant to hold him and protect him from any danger. But I am afraid. I'm afraid that he'll be uncomfortable. I'm afraid he wont feel the same.

I want to comfort Gaara in any time of need. I want to be the one he comes to. I want to be the one he relys on. But I am afraid. I'm afraid he'll find someone eles to run to. I'm afraid he'll have no use for me.

I think the world should know that I actuly care for him. I want whats best for him. I want to fight off all the worst. But i am afraid. I'm afraid he wont allow it. I'm afraid of me being the cause to his pain. Gaara is my brother physicaly. He is my lover spiritualy.

I want him to know that I'm both for him. I want to show people what i feel for him. But I am afraid. I'm afraid to tell him the truth, in fear of rejection. I'm afraid I'll hurt him horribly and he'll never trust me again.

And with that I'll keep my distance. That way no one will know. No one will know that watching him be hurt kills me everyday. If i did try to do somthing , that'll bring out all my fears. So I'll remain silent. I will keep my fear of reality to myeslf.