There are only a few times when I ever feel loved
One is when someone pays just a little attention to me.
So they acknowledge my existence so they can just give me hint that I am not completely invisible, even if it is attention for doing something bad.
When someone remembered my Birthday.
To be glad I was born.
When someone cares
But no one ever does…
They really despised me… For as long as I can remember it has been
MONSTER
DEMON
DISGUSTING
WORTHLESS
FILTH
I never really got anyone to love me. No mother No father No sister or brother. It's always been just me.
I had my first seizure when I was 3. Old man hokage was really freaked out because I just fell to the floor my body twisting and turning and not doing what I want. I was scared but no one was there to hold me. Old man called for help and it arrived
After my seizure was over.
They took me to the hospital and from there put me on meds.
I was 6 when I had another seizure it happened almost too rapidly. No one was there no one told anyone and I wasn't about to give them anything else to make fun of me for.
When it happened I was in my apartment. No one was there and I fell down and my body thrashing and flailing under me. I was supposed to be on meds but being an orphan you don't get much money and I couldn't pay for the extremely high price that my prescription meds cost so I could not get them and had to live without them.
I never felt more alone than after that.
Before I just got seizures but when I turned 8 I started getting migraines. I couldn't pay for pain medication so when I got one I would sit in my apartment but when Iruka-sensei found out when I wasn't in school he would come and visit me and bring aspirin so I could have the pain relieved then he would take me back to his house so that someone could watch over me while I was in pain.
But after I joined team 7 and I wasn't in Iruka-sensei's class anymore it was hard for him to see when I was in pain. If he would come over to ask if I wanted ramen and he saw me he would take care of me because that is just what he does.
But I know Iruka-sensei won't be there all the time. I know that it will eventually happen again,
I Will get another seizure and I just hope that someone will take care of me and I am not on my own.
