Preface

Sometimes learning to let go of something makes you a stronger person. If this really is true I must be the weakest person on the face of the Earth. I knew what he was trying to do, I know what kind of monster he has become, I wouldn't let him win.

He wasn't about to steal away my last chance of being happy, he wasn't going to take away the very meaning of my existence. I wouldn't let him; he would have to kill me first.

My heart was racing under my chest as I felt them all moving in, cornering us.

This was it…


Bella's Point of View


"Bella, are you sure you want to do this…" Rene said, for about the hundredth time today.

I sighed, avoiding eye contact with her. "I'm positive, spending time with Charlie wouldn't be so bad, he's a lot like me," I shrugged, willing my voice to sound convincing.

"But… you know what happened last time you were there…"

My entire body cringed as I was reminded of the horrific images that had been haunting me for the past two months. I closed my eyes tightly, trying to force my inner fears away.

"I'll make sure to stay far away from La Push," I said, slowly letting my eyes land on hers. Her expression didn't hide the guilt, and the worry that danced across her features.

"Bella, promise me that if anything like that happens again you call me, I'll come and get you right away," She said looking at me seriously. "I can't believe I'm even letting you go there again,"

"It's going to be ok, Charlie is chief of police; the safest place in Forks is with him,"

Rene sighed now, appearing to tear up, "I love you Bella, be safe, please,"

"I love you to mom; I'll call you when I land,"

I knew this was going to be hard for her; in fact this would be hard for the both of us. But I knew this would be what would make my mother's life much easier. She already raised me, and now she has found the man she would like to be with forever. I want to give her back the time she had given me.

As I boarded the plane I felt my inner doubts bubbling back to the surface, bringing back my main fears to the focus of my thoughts.

Two months earlier, I had set out to Forks Washington, just to spend the weekend with Charlie for his birthday. As always trouble had followed obediently behind me, ready to pounce on me the moment I let my guard down. I had been driving past La Push, and the truck Charlie had gotten me, had gotten a flat tire.

Shivers rolled down my spine as I recalled the darkness in the sky that night, the cold chill, the quiet waves of the nearby beach. I was scared, but I was feeling confident that I would manage changing the tire myself.

Although, minutes had ticked by sluggishly, and the lights of a motorcycle blazed through the night sky; the loud rumble of the motor making me jump. I watched, feeling uneasiness hitting the bottom of my stomach like a ton of bricks.

His voice had been deep, yet I could tell he had to have been around my own age. He stood with a slender figure, and muscles that easily took me by surprise.

I felt tears stinging in my eyes as I recalled the images of this scene, my heart clenching in my chest, trying to make myself forget, trying to ease the pain, but nothing could stop it, I could remember everything.

"Need some help?" His tone had been cocky, almost spoken as if he considered this a joke.

I set my jaw as I slowly moved more towards the inside of my truck. "No, just a flat tire," Even though I knew I needed help, I didn't get a very good feeling with this boy. I didn't trust him.

If only I had known that night, how right I was.

At first, I thought he had been still standing in front of the truck, his motorcycle still running, but suddenly I felt a pair of strong arms come around me, trapping me against my truck.

I let out a scream, "Let me go,"

These were the last words that I managed to get out before everything had gone black. I didn't know when I had awakened, but when I did, I was in the hospital in Arizona, Charlie and Rene both were hovering over my bed, tears in both of their eyes.

That's when I finally knew what had happened, a local boy, from La Push had raped me, and after the three weeks of being in and out of consciousness, the doctors found out that I was pregnant. Not only did this boy steal my innocence, he had also changed my life forever, he has given me a responsibility, and a new reason to live.

So here I am, two months pregnant, on my way back to the very place that had ruined my life forever. I knew it would a harsh thing to say, and there was no doubt in the world that I would love and care for this baby, but this wasn't exactly my plan.

This time, I wouldn't be as naïve to go around to places I was unfamiliar with, not without Charlie at least. I just hoped that Forks didn't know too much about this incident, I wanted to start fresh there…

All I knew was they never caught the boy that had attacked me, and I had to live every day in a fear of just that. But it was too late to change my mind now.

Slowly I glanced out the window, closing my eyes for a brief moment.

Just calm down, and don't be a coward. Everything will work out… at least I hope so.


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~Az