A/N: This muse crossed my mind while I too was pondering about the decisions I have made in my life. I know it is so drama but oh well. Sorry in advance for the grammatical errors. I'm not the best kid when it comes to English grammar. It is kinda hard especially when it's not your first language but I tried my best. So here ya go…
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters.
Booth's alarm clock went off at seven in the morning but he had been awake an hour before. He was just there staring at the ceiling, thousand of things running through his mind. Yes, thousand of random things but all of these were starred by this particular anthropologist and partner of his.
Before, when these thoughts would invade his mind, he would just brush it away. He would try to divert his attention by taking a really cold shower, watching a football game on tv or by trying to focus on a case. But lately, these remedies weren't working no more.
Looking back, it all started when his brother, Jared Booth, came into the picture and when he saw that his partner was attracted to him. It was a bit odd since Brennan wasn't really the type who would have a crush on someone, because she would label it as a childish behavior which wouldn't be appropriate because she was very much a fully-grown woman so he didn't pay attention with it at first, thinking that his Bones was just having a mild crush with his brother. But in eight months' time, the mild crush seemed to develop into a more serious relationship. He noticed this when she would no longer accept his invitation for lunch at the diner or for a quick snack of pie and coffee after wrapping up a case. She would always be in a hurry to leave when they were together, as if she was running away from him. They didn't really talk about their lives outside work anymore. They had become just mere acquaintances.
He knew he had to at least do something before she'd slip away from him for good. He knew he had to tell her what he'd been hiding for so long. He knew too that what he was going to do assured no guarantees. By doing this, there was a possibility of getting his heart broken and breaching his relationship with his brother. But she deserved to know and Booth believed that he too deserved the truth. So he sat up, sent a quick prayer to God for courage, and proceeded to freshen up before going the Jeffersonian.
He gave the guards of the Jeffersonian Building whom he had known over the years a nod before swiping his card. He breathed deeply before walking inside the building with a bouquet of yellow daisies in hand, his heart pounding harder with each passing second. The emotions inside him were a mixture of everything, from nervousness to apprehension to hope. He glanced at his wrist watch which said 10 A.M., he thought he was just in time.
He was just going to go directly inside Brennan's office when a hand stopped him.
"Booth…wait…" Angela said.
Booth was a little annoyed with Angela's interruption. He wanted to do it as fast and as soon as possible. "What's up Ange?"
"I think you're brother just proposed…" Angela replied softly. She may not have said it, but she knew that Booth felt something for her best friend. Truth was, she had been rooting for the two partners but if her best friend would be happy with Jared, then so be it.
With Angela's words, Booth's whole world crumbled. His whole plan and his speech were left forgotten. As selfish as it may have sounded, he was literally praying silently that Brennan would refuse. But when he looked up and saw through the transparent window the sight in front of him, he knew, he was too late. Brennan was hugging Jared, her face buried on his neck. From the way it looked, it seemed that Jared was able to convince the rational scientist that marriage wasn't just some archaic tradition. He tried to give the faintest smile that he could muster, but he was bleeding inside.
Angela, who was also watching the happy couple smiled but when she turned to look at Booth, and saw the hurt plastered all over his face, she felt bad for him too.
He knew he could be as stubborn as a rock but he also knew where his boundaries were. Brennan was finally happy and he had no right to ruin that. He had to let go. Booth turned to face Angela, "I'm happy for them." He muttered softly before turning and walking away.
If only Booth stayed a minute longer…
A/N: This story formed when I thought that if only I too stayed a little longer and allowed myself to be loved rather than running away. LOL. So tell me what you guys think. I'm thinking of adding another chapter but I'm still not sure, depends on what you guys want. I might decide to just leave it here.
