Pain ripped its way through my chest once more. Agony, pure agony. Since she died, well died again, i just can't cope. My brother Edward was also lost as was his wife, Bella and my sister Rosalie. The only ones left are me, Jasper, Emmett, My mother and father Carlisle and Esme and Renesmee but they left. They couldn't bear the pain.

My talent was always controlling emotions, but when she died, i just could not controll it. She was my life. The only one who can bear to be near me now is my brother Emmett and that is only because he feels exactly the same way. I send out a vibe of heart wrenching screaming and burning, its all i can feel since i watched her die that way. My darling Alice, they worked around you, didnt they? Working on your weaknesses of looking out for everyone else. You didnt think to check to see if the Volturi would come for you.

That was always their plan. Calm and comfort us, see how strong my lovesd powers were and then use them. Those Sick Bastards. They have ruined everything. She died infront of us, in our home! Obviously Rosalie and Bella reacted to their sister but i was paralysed. I hate myself every day for the fact that i did nothing! But how could I? I could feel all her pain, and mine at the same time. It took weeks wfor me to be able to blink. I couldn't shut my eyes. I thank any God that will listen for the fact that I do not sleep, how could i have handled the nightmares as well as the day visions.

The Volturi wanted to show they had power over us and all vampires by killing Renesmee. We told Carlisle and Esme to leave, Arrow would never hurt him. Take the child and run for dear life. My father shed bloody tears as he tore the last 2 women in our lives away from us but he had to, the guilt he felt landed on top of my pile of emotions and has stayed with me ever since that night 1 year ago tonight.

But now things must change, Emmett says we cannot go on this way, not only is it not human of us it's just not right. How could i give up everything we worked for as a family and as a couple?

Emmett not only gives off misery now, but vengence!

I know now what he wants and why he wants me at my best... How can i say no to a brother who needs me?...

And so this is where my life begins... Jasper and Emmett Cullen are long gone...

I dont even know what we are now, who we are.

But they took everything from us...

Now its our turn!