AN: Hey you guys! This is my first story so I'm a little nervous. I know it's probably not the best but I hope yall like it anyways!!! Don't forget to let me know what you think!!! Constructive criticism is always appreciated!!! Flames will be used to roast marshmellows!!!
But You Don't Know
I pushed you away so you wouldn't discover my secret
You know me so well you would've found out
No one can know what's going on
I pulled Troy close so I wouldn't be alone
He is oblivious so he would never know
He doesn't know me like you do
But being with me was hurting him too much
So I pushed and I pushed knowing he would eventually leave
My life is messed up enough, his life doesn't need to be to
So now I'm alone with my fears and my tears
But not for long
Fulton will be here soon to play his "games" with me
He told me if anyone found out he would kill them
The only thought that gets me through the pain is that you're safe
Because you don't know
You don't know about him hitting me over and over...About the bruises
You don't know about the names he calls me while doing unspeakable things to me
You don't know the pain I felt when he took from me what you can only have once
What I planned on giving my husband, despite rumors that might say otherwise
And I'm glad you don't know because that keeps you safe
He'll leave YOU alone
That makes everything worth it
You've protected me my whole life big brother and now it's my turn
What hurts the most is that I had to hurt you to protect you
I just hope you will take me back after the summer is over
When I can get away from "Him"
Because more than anything I miss you
I miss my best friend, my protector, my twin, my other half
My big brother(even if it IS only by 3 minutes)
But for now I'm alone because it keeps you safe
Fulton is here now so I have to go...He's angry
I hope you have fun with your new friends
And I pray there is still a place for me in your heart after this summer
I love you Ry, and you'll never know how much
AN: Thanks for taking the time to read!!! Don't forget to review and let me know what you think!!! Katie
