AN: Hey you guys! This is my first story so I'm a little nervous. I know it's probably not the best but I hope yall like it anyways!!! Don't forget to let me know what you think!!! Constructive criticism is always appreciated!!! Flames will be used to roast marshmellows!!!


But You Don't Know

I pushed you away so you wouldn't discover my secret

You know me so well you would've found out

No one can know what's going on

I pulled Troy close so I wouldn't be alone

He is oblivious so he would never know

He doesn't know me like you do

But being with me was hurting him too much

So I pushed and I pushed knowing he would eventually leave

My life is messed up enough, his life doesn't need to be to

So now I'm alone with my fears and my tears

But not for long

Fulton will be here soon to play his "games" with me

He told me if anyone found out he would kill them

The only thought that gets me through the pain is that you're safe

Because you don't know

You don't know about him hitting me over and over...About the bruises

You don't know about the names he calls me while doing unspeakable things to me

You don't know the pain I felt when he took from me what you can only have once

What I planned on giving my husband, despite rumors that might say otherwise

And I'm glad you don't know because that keeps you safe

He'll leave YOU alone

That makes everything worth it

You've protected me my whole life big brother and now it's my turn

What hurts the most is that I had to hurt you to protect you

I just hope you will take me back after the summer is over

When I can get away from "Him"

Because more than anything I miss you

I miss my best friend, my protector, my twin, my other half

My big brother(even if it IS only by 3 minutes)

But for now I'm alone because it keeps you safe

Fulton is here now so I have to go...He's angry

I hope you have fun with your new friends

And I pray there is still a place for me in your heart after this summer

I love you Ry, and you'll never know how much


AN: Thanks for taking the time to read!!! Don't forget to review and let me know what you think!!! Katie