Disclamer: I don't own Harry Potter
Summary: Ginny's thoughts and feelings after Harry tells her they cannot be together. Takes place September after HBP.
As I remember the day Harry Potter walk out of my life I loved him so very much and now we can never be together. He was the one person who could make me laugh, make me cry and kiss me until all my tears are gone. I don't even know who Harry Potter is anymore. Wait, yes I do know who he is, he is the one who I fell in love with last year and he took me for a talespin. He made me so happy, yet he mixed me up so much.
This year I have been more quiet then usuail. Yeah, sure I go to classes, I eat in the Great Hall, blah blah blah. It's all the same old routine to me. Nothing new. I don't even want to go to the Halloween Ball now. And sure there is this new guy Adam who is in my year and who likes me but he's not the same as Harry. And Harry? Oh he is thrilled, thrilled that I am not with him anymore. He is so much happier. I glimps his face now and again and I wonder, what did I do worng? Why did it have to end like this? Does he even know I still care about him? That I would do anything, anything for him? I wish I could tell him I am sorry, sorry for mixing him up and getting in the way of his happiniss. Because I know he is only happy when he is fighting Voldemort, the person who killed his parents and so many others he loved.
Oh and my friend Emily came up to me today and said "Hey Gin, your ex boyfriend was flirting with me, Is that Okay". It took all my curage to tell her it was fine, that I was going to be very happy for him whatever happens. But I thought what he loved was being with me, I thought he loved me, I thought he wanted to be with me forver. I have to keep playing this game, I have to keep denying how I feel, when the person I am really fooling is myself. The thing about it is, I am going to have hope. Maybe someday, Harry will look my way, maybe eventually we will become friends again and maybe , just maybe our hearts will fit together as one⦠Again.
