"Yukina," Hiei said, his voice barely a whisper. "I'm the brother that
you've been looking for. The one you asked me to find. I never told you.
Why? Because I made a promise. in return for my Jagan eye, the only thing
that would help me to find you, I promised never to reveal myself as your
brother. it was a stupid promise that I never should have made, but I kept
it. why? I told myself many things. I didn't want to taint you, I was
trying to reform, be someone you could be proud of, and be an honest
person. Lies. the truth is... I was afraid. I feared you would reject me. I
couldn't bear it if you did. You're the only family left. So gentle and
pure, and I am the Forbidden Child. The one who probably made your life
hell while you were at Koorome. I desperately wanted-needed- your
acceptance. If you rejected me, there would be nothing to live for. And
there was no reason for you to accept me any way, so I remained silent. a
shadow, always watching over you but never saying a word. It hurt me, too.
Watching, never able to tell you how I felt. Why do you think I was so
cruel to Kuwabara? It was because I was jealous. He, with his friends, a
sister he could hold, and a loving family, could do all the things that I
could not. For I could never hold you, tell you how much you mean to me. I
never told you. For that I am very sorry." He knelt down, placed his tear
gem on his sister's grave and walked away.
