Dargonfly Inn
I can't take it. I don't want to help her. I don't want her to be with Luke. Diner Luke, Coffee Luke, My Luke. My Luke?
"Lorelai" Rachel's voice pulls me away from my thoughts
"Are you okay?" Rachel is looking at me with an amused look on her face
"Oh uh yea I'm fine" I get up to dusting off my pants
"We should head back"
"Yeah I'll call when the pictures are ready"
Sure enough she did call leaving a message on my machine asking me to meet her at looks place. Well their place now. Their place? No not yet. There's still time I can still fix this.
Luke's Apartment
I slowly approach the door to his apartment and knock bracing myself for what I might see. Rachel opens the door with a smile on her face. Of course why wouldn't she be smiling she has him. Her presence in his life is made all to clear by her pictures hanging everywhere. She seems so at home here. I can't help but be a little jealous by the way she is so at home here and I've never even been invited in. Rachel's voice pulls me from my thoughts
"I can't seem to find the pictures I think they might be in the bathroom"
"I don't even want to know why" I smirk as she walks off
The door opens and there he is in all his glory baseball cap, flannel shirt, tight jeans. All I can think is YUM. I need to say something. So I say the first thing that comes to mind.
"You don't knock?"
"Lorelai what are you doing here?" Oh God what is she doing here and so close to my bed. Lorelai on my bed hmm now that sounds like a good ideal. No I can't think like that. She's my friend and would probably kick my ass if she knew what I was thinking. Hmm Lorelai kicking my ass I could make that work.
I can't help but smile at his shocked expression.
"Rachel invited me over to see the pictures she took of the Dragonfly inn"
"Oh okay I just need to put something in the safe"
"Oh Ok" Luke leaned over to open the safe. Lorelai couldn't stop herself from sneaking a peak at him. She couldn't seem to pull her eyes away from his body. Her eyes traveled up his body taking in every part of his gorgeous body. Oh God what am I doing?
"Lorelai?" Luke calling her name pulled her from her thoughts
"Huh?" She dropped her eyes to the ground
"Are you okay?" he reached out to touch her chin tilting her head up to meet his eyes.
"Yeah I'm fine" she tried to look away but he wouldn't let her
"Come on you can talk to me" Please tell me. Oh God was she checking me out?
"I'm okay really" she whispered his face a few inches from hers. When had he moved in? He's so close. God he smells good.
Luke started to close the small amount of space that was left his lips were just a breath away from hers. "Are you sure?" his breathe tickled across her lips sending a shiver down her spine.
"Hey Lorelai I think I found the pictures" Rachel called from the bathroom. Luke and Loreali jumped at the sound of her voice. They pulled away from each other. The spell was broken. Luke got up and went to the door turning to look at Loreali one last time.
Lorelai was still looking at the door when Rachel came in.
"Here's the pictures I hope you like them" Rachel said as she handed the pictures to Lorelai. Lorelai looked up and smiled taking the pictures.
"Can I ask you a favor?" Rachel asked not aware of what almost happened just minutes ago.
"Sure" Lorelai answered not really paying attention
"You and Luke are close right?"
"Yeah" Oh God please! She can't ask me about this right now.
"Okay well I was wondering if umm it came up if you could put in a good word for me, Ah you know if it comes up" Rachel shifted her weight slightly a little uncomfortable.
"Sure if it comes up" I have to get out of here. I can't help her keep Luke. Keep him? That's right she has him not me.
"Thanks"
"No problem I really should get going" I have to get out of here. I need to find Luke.
"Ok well thanks for coming by. And thanks for you know helping with Luke"
"That's okay" Lorelai heads out the door in search of coffee, Luke's coffee
She finds Luke in the stock room. She watches him stock the shelves for a few minutes.
"Hey"
"Oh hey" their eyes meet and she cant help but smile he returns the smile before he goes back to the stack of boxes in front of him
"Fascinating stock room"
"Yea its great" Luke said sarcasm evident in his voice
"What are you doing?" He asked after watching for a few minutes
"You don't like me hanging out with Rachel do you?"
"I don't mind you just shouldn't get to attached to her she has a way of leaving without saying anything"
"Do you really think she's going to leave?"
"I don't know why are you pushing her on me"
"I'm not I just want you to be happy"
"How do you know she's going to make me happy?"
"Well you have wanted her for awhile now right?"
"Yeah"
"Well why not be with her then? Unless there's something else holding you back?"
"Like what?"
"I don't know maybe someone else?"
"Like who?"
"Ok so there is someone else?" she smiles up at him with a twinkle in her. He knew he was going to pay for letting it slip.
"Lorelai" he says her name with a slight warning to it
"Come on you can tell me I wont say a word my lips are sealed" moving her fingers across her lips with a pretend zipper
"I can't"
"If you have to be in here help me stock"
"Mmph" Lorelai mumbled her lips still pressed together
"Lorelai stop it"
She pulls open the imaginary zipper to speak
"I told you my lips were sealed"
"Are you going to tell me who this other person is?"
"No"
"Oh goody I get to guess Lets see hmm" she thinks it over for a few seconds a small smile playing across her lips
"Ok I know who it is" she says as seriously as she can
Luke shifts slightly from one foot to the other looking down at his feet Oh God she can't know can she?
Lorelei's voice brings him back from his thoughts
"Come on don't you wanna know who I think it is?"
"No"
"Come on" she says pushing out her bottom lip in a mock pout knowing she will get her way
"Fine tell me"
"Miss Patty" at his groan she continues through her list
"Babbat"
"Oh I know Kirk you know he would be lost without you"
"Lorelai" he says with a look of annoyance
"You know I can keep this up all day it would be faster for you to just tell me"
"I cant not now" he says not meeting her eyes
"Ok then you asked for it Sookie, Taylor, Rory" she preceded to list off everyone in the town in one long drawn out breath she finally stopped to catch her breath. She looked over at him to gauge his reaction but there wasn't one he was staring at the box in front of him almost in a trance
"Well maybe there isn't anyone else and you're just scared"
She was afraid she had gone too far hesitantly she tried to get his attention
"Luke?" he didn't answer he didn't even move
"Come on I'm sorry" still no reaction
She slowly took a step closer to him he didn't seem to notice
So she took another step closer and another until she was right next to him.
His hand was lying on the box in front of him so she reached for it he jerked away from her. Running right into the shelf behind him he had no place to go he was trapped. He couldn't look at her. Why did she have to do this I'm suppose to be with Rachel. Rachel not Lorelai. Rachel is my girlfriend not Lorelai she lives with me. But you know you want Lorelai not Rachel oh God now I'm hearing voices. But he new it was true he wanted her more than he had ever wanted anyone before.
"Luke?" he was pulled from his thoughts by her voice. She was so close to him. Her sent was overpowering him. He took a deep breath closing his eyes trying to memorize her sent. She smelled of coffee and lilacs and something else he couldn't identify.
Oh God he hates me! He is even doing the deep breathing and count to ten thing I taught him to help him deal with Kirk. He's probably trying to figure out were he can dispose of my body. I always knew he would snap at some point. But I didn't think I would be the one to make him snap. Well okay I did but I didn't think it would be so soon.
"Lorelai?" she slowly opened her eyes to see his bright blue ones staring back at her. When did I close them? She expected to see anger in his eyes but instead she saw worry and something else she couldn't quite identify.
"Yea" she said looking away from him
"You left someone off of your list" a soft smile playing across his lips.
Lorelai looked up still not meeting his eyes. Gasping slightly at his close proximity to her his face was only inches from hers. When had he moved closer?
"Who?" was all she could get out
"You" was all he said before he closed the distance between them. Barely touching his lips to hers in a silent question. She puts her arms around his neck pulling him down to her in a crushing kiss. They both put everything they had into the kiss. All of the emotions they had held at bay for so long. Luke pulled her body in closer to his crushing her body to him. When the need for air won they pulled slightly apart. Lorelai slid her hands down to rest on his chest. Her forehead rested against his not wanting to break contact yet. They tried to slow their ragged breathing. Neither one of them noticed the person standing in the doorway watching them.
Luke slowly pulled back placing his hand under Lorelai's chin lifting her face to look into her eyes. She tried to move her head away looking anywhere but at him.
"Lorelai look at me" she lifted her eyes to meet his. It was as if she could see to his very soul. It was almost as if she was looking at him for the first time.
"What was that?" Lorelai asked trying to understand what just happened. What am I doing? I kissed oh God what have I done.
"It's always been you. I always find myself comparing the woman in my life to you and they never measure up" Luke's voice pulled her from her thoughts. Tears began to pool in her eyes.
She tried to pull away from him. Not wanting him to see her cry. But he stopped her tightening his hold around her. "I'm not going to let you go until you say something"
She fought him at first but soon realized she wouldn't be able to get away from him.
The tears started to fall and all he could do was hold her until they stopped. Not really sure what he had done wrong. Why did I have to do anything? Why couldn't I just keep quite? Why did I have to ruin everything? I can't lose her.
"Luke?" Lorelai whispered her breath tickling across his neck
"Yeah" Luke pulled back slightly to look into her eyes wiping away the last remains of tears
"I uhh I think I need to go" she tried to ignore the hurt she saw in his eyes I can't deal with this right now I need to go. I can't be with Luke he's with Rachel.
"Is that what you want?" Luke asked not able to look her in the eye
"Yes" Lorelai said pulling away from him. Luke let her go he watched as she left the stock room. He didn't move until he heard the bell above the door. She's gone. Just great you really screwed up this time. Luke moved out into the diner preparing for the dinner rush. He didn't notice Kirk at first. But as he turned around from making a fresh pot of coffee he noticed Kirk standing at the counter just looking at him.
"What do you want?" Kirk just looked at him
"Kirk" Luke tried to get his attention
"How do you do it?"
"What?"
"How do you get two girls? When I can't even get one"
"Kirk what the hell are you talking about?" He didn't see us did he?
"You have Rachel but then I saw you kiss Lorelai, you have two girls I don't have any"
"Kirk get out" I can't believe he saw us. I need to talk to Lorelai
"So what's going on with you and Lorelai?" Kirk asked ignoring Luke
"Get out Kirk" Luke said again trying to control his temper
Meanwhile
Lorelai got into her jeep and sped the whole way home. She ran into the house looking for Rory at first then she realized she was still at school. She went into the kitchen and grabbed a pint of ice cream out of the freezer. She went into the living room and curled up on the couch. Her mind was reeling with everything that had happened. Luke kissed me. We kissed but what does it all mean. He's with Rachel she's living with him.
The tears started to fall again she didn't even try to stop them. Lorelai curled up on the couch and cried herself to sleep. Thoughts of Luke and their kiss filled her dreams.
