Jasmine's POV
Its Monday morning and I am really dreading getting out of bed. I cant just keep putting on a fake smile o my face acting like everything's ok when it isn't. Then my phone buzzes with a text from Lindy pulling me out of my thoughts
Lindy: Heyy do you want to come stay the night tonight
Me: Yeah sure
Lindy: Ok see ya at school gtg ttyl
Me: Ok ttyl
I get ready for school, putting my makeup, curling my hair and putting on my "Jasmine" necklace then posting my OOTD (outfit of the day) on snapchat wearing a maroon over sized sweater with some black ripped up skinny jeans and brown combat boot heels with a black beanie. I grab my backpack, wallet and key and head out the door going to the dreaded prison called school.
When I get to school Lindy greets me at my locker
"Hey jaz what's been up with you lately" Lindy greets
"I don't know what you mean" I lie
"You haven't been yourself lately and I'm worried"
"It's nothing I promise, I'm ok" I lie and put a fake smile on my face as I walk into class
I walk into my class and put my backpack around my chair and ask to go to the bathroom. I rush to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror watching the year run down my face. I can't keep this secret from Lindy anymore, she's my best friend. I have to tell her. And with that I go back to class and wait for the lunch.
*At Lunch*
"Hey Linds can I talk to you, alone"
"Yeah sure" Lindy says getting up walking out of the lunch room "What's up love"
"Um remember this morning when you asked me if I was ok"
"Yeah of course" Lindy say worried
"Well I'm not, I've been keeping something from you and its been bugging me not telling you and…"
"You like Logan" Lindy cuts me off
"What how'd you know, am I that obvious"
"Jaz I've now you since kindergarten, I know when you like a guy and I see how you look at Logan when he goes out with other girls"
My eyes starts to water and I just cant stay strong anymore and I break down in tears.
"I just d-don't get it, I try and try and try to get over him and I c-cant stop thinking about him and I cant g-get it out of my mind that I'm not g-good enough for him" I choke out
"Well if he can't see how beautiful you are inside and out then he is beyond and idiot" Lindy says bringing me into a hug
"Thanks Linds" I say wiping my face "Thank God I wore waterproof mascara today" I laugh
After that we walk back into the lunchroom and sit down
"Oh my God Jaz are you okay" Logan, Garret, and Delia
"I'm okay"
And with that everything goes back to normal and we are talking and laughing like usual.
After school I get home from school I pack my bags for Lindy's and head to her house. When I get to her house I go down to the basement and Logan is playing the drums and doesn't even notice me until I trip and land in his lap
"Oh hey Jaz" Logan says surprised
"Hey Logan" I say getting up "Sorry about that" I turn hiding my blushing heading up stairs
The rest of the night goes on normal, Lindy and I have a girls night painting each others nails, watching Netflix, and of course boy talk. We finally go to sleep around 1:00 AM but I can't sleep so I go downstairs to get a glass of water
"What are you doing up so late" Logan asks me literally scaring me almost half to death
"Logan!" you nearly gave me a heart attack
"Sorry, I couldn't sleep"
"Yeah me too"
"So, what was wrong with at lunch today"
" Oh nothing just some drama" I say noticing that he's not buying it "Boy drama"
"What happened" he asked looing mad and worried
"It's stupid" he doesn't look convinced so I tell him "I feel like I'm not good enough for this guy I like, I've had a crush on him since sophomore year and I can't get him out of my head and I just feel like he doesn't even notice me anymore. I mean maybe its fate telling me that I'm or pretty enough, or smart enough…..
"Stop" Logan says harshly but I keep rambling
"…. I wish I could just crawl in a hole and die, it would probably be for the best anyways…" then I am cut off by Logan grabbing my face crashing his lips into mine
"Now would you stop" Logan says still holding my face "If this guy is human he is stupid to not realize that you are beautiful, smart, funny, and some much more and if he doesn't realize that then he's is the biggest idiot on the earth" and with that I can't help myself as I crash my lips into his but what surprises me he kisses back. The kiss starts to get heated and within seconds we get up and I wrap my legs around his waist and he takes me upstairs to his room. He closes and locks the door then lays me down on the bed getting on top of me. We start ripping each others clothes off until we are both just in our underwear.
"Are you sure you want to do this" I nod my head and that's all he needed as he takes as he kisses me one more time before we make love. I cant believe we are actually doing this and then he darts off of me, me not noticing what happened until afterwards.
"Oh my God, I can't believe I just did that, why didn't you stop me, no this isn't your fault"
"Logan its both of our faults…"
"Please tell me your on birth control or something" I nod trying to hold back my tears
"Good, you know we can't tell anyone about this, I think it would be best if we didn't hang out as much"
"Oh… Ok then" I choke out before I grab my clothes and run to Lindy's room getting dressed and getting back I bed silently crying myself to sleep
