Chapter 1
Gojyo's Point Of View
A/N: I am just rambling. Blah. I am not feeling good.
I almost think at times, I like you almost too much.
I don't know why that is. I just can't get enough of you being around me.
You've got me saying these crazy, foreign words that I would have never said to anybody else. Unless it was whispered meaninglessly into some girl's ear. Most of them took it seriously. I never took it seriously.
That was then, this is now.
I could say it to you...almost.
But I think I want to save those words, until I am totally sure that I am ready to spend the rest of my life with you, Hakkai.
See? It's those damn weird words again.
I have been getting weird feelings in my stomach lately. A fluttering feeling everytime you kiss me or touch me or hug me or say something.
We haven't said those three words yet. We almost did.
But you're not ready.
And I'm not ready either.
And that's okay. We don't need to say it now.
But eventually, I want to say it to you and mean it.
And then you'll say it back.
And then we'll kiss, sealing the deal. That's how I want it to go.
But like I said, we're not ready for that yet.
" Gojyo, you're daydreaming." Hakkai waved his hand in front of my face. I blinked and looked around. He was leaning his head on my shoulder in the backseat of the jeep. Sanzo and Goku were in the front. They were tired, so we stopped for a rest. Those two were knocked out in seconds.
" I was, wasn't I?" I grinned, putting my arm over his shoulder and pulling him closer to me. He blushed around his cheeks and I smiled. " What? Me touching you gets you going?"
" N-No." He lifted his head off my shoulder and shook his head.
" Heh. I'm just teasing you." I said softly, coaxing him to get closer. He inched closer to me and wrapped his arms around my shoulders, climbing onto my lap.
" How's that for closer?" Hakkai grinned.
I looked at him and blinked, " You could get closer." I grinned, pulling his hips closer to me. He smiled at me and pressed our foreheads together. The force stung a bit, but I didn't care. I nudged his face up, and leaned in. Our lips met slowly. This was our first kiss in almost a week, having almost no privacy. So moments like this were special to us both.
Hakkai's kiss was always soft and delicate, and very slow too. We never really kissed fast, we liked slowing things down and savoring each other. It wasn't often we had moments like this.
" Sorry." Hakkai whispered against my lips.
" For what?" I asked, a bit confused.
" I don't know." He shrugged. " I always feel like there is something I should be sorry for."
" There isn't anything, anything that I can think of." I said.
" Gojyo, I"
" Hakkai, are you sure you want to say those words?" I asked quietly. " You know me, once you say it, it's forever."
Hakkai paused, " How long is forever?"
" I don't know." I shrugged with a laugh. " I guess I'll go with almost a forever."
" You want to wait then? Until we know how we feel, for sure?"
" Yeah. I'm gonna need a while to know if I want to spend every waking moment with you." I chuckled, squeezing his waist.
" I can't believe I almost said it." Hakkai said, digging his head into my shoulder.
" It's not a big deal babe, I would have said it back." I smiled.
" But would you have meant it?"
" I almost would have meant it. Almost."
A/N: Wow, my first fanfiction in a week. Gahhh, I think it sucks, but just lie and give me a good review so I can get back on my happy track of writing.
