Lena's POV
My name is Lena Matthews and I live in a house near to Dan and Phil's apartment. Everyone loves them because of their youtube videos and because they're hot! Okay, they're hilarious and insanely hot but honestly, I'm just not that into them, I mean I fan girl over things like Jack and Finn Harries, the Hunger Games etc. I'm a normal girl but I don't know why I don't like Dan and Phil in that way...
I met them when I was moving it, it was quite a shock. I was getting my stuff from the moving van (mostly arty stuff and clothes since my parents wouldn't let me take any furniture) and they just walked by.
"Dan? Phil?" They turned towards me and waved.
"Hi, are you moving into Miss Tuckleberry's old house?" Phil asked.
"Don't get me wrong I love the old girl but she was a bit weird." I was lost for words.
"Hey? Are you going to introduce yourself because we have to go meet some friends in a minute?" Phil said
"Phil, she's clearly shocked to see us." Dan said.
"I'm Lena Matthews, it's amazing to meet you, I'm a huge fan!" I blushed.
"Well, that's cool, maybe we'll come by sometime, but we really must go. See you around." And just like that my life had changed.
We became really good friends after that but I didn't tell my other friends back in London about me being friends with them, they'd go crazy and want to meet them. They came round one day when I was painting, I don't like telling people that I like art, I just tell people what they want to hear, I guess I care about what people think of me quite a lot. Anyway, they came round.
"Hey Lena, cool painting," Dan said and walked over to it.
"Yeah, how long did it take you?" Phil asked.
"I started it at about 6:30 this morning." I replied, blushing quite a lot.
"It's 3 in the afternoon, someone has too much time on their hands," I laughed nervously at Phil's joke. I was painting a scene I remembered from my childhood, it was of 3 children (me, my brother and my sister) on a beach playing in the ocean with our parents sitting on the sand, waving to us.
"It's really good Lena, where did you learn to paint like this?" Dan asked over a cup of tea.
"Well, my Mum was always painting when I was a child, so I guess I kinda picked it up from her," I said sipping my tea.
"I wish my Mum could paint, but then that might change her personality and I do love my Mum," Phil said.
"Awww, you're such a Mummy's boy Phil," I said and laughed.
Then it came to my 20th birthday, I invited some of my old friends and of course Dan and Phil. They came and my friends started screaming and asking for photos and crowding around them, they pushed me out of the way. I stood there watching them, I thought I would be able to handle not being apart of this but I was wrong, I felt tears in my eyes. I guess I hated being left out on my birthday, I wiped my eyes, trying to look happy but it didn't work.
"What's wrong Lena?" Dan asked, he walked up to me and wiped away my tears gently. "Hey, don't cry, it's your birthday and I don't want to see you cry. Not now, not ever." I looked up at him and what I felt for him then I had never felt before in my life. I felt love. I managed to smile, and I hugged Dan and whispered "Thank you," He hugged me back and said "Your welcome." We stopped and stared into each other's eyes for what seemed like forever.
"Hey Dan, cake!" Phil said and Dan shook his head and went to get some cake. I didn't feel like a stupid fan crushing over a celebrity who I could never have, I felt like I actually stood a chance with Dan.
I went over to Dan and Phil's apartment and Phil opened the door.
"Hi Lena, why are you here?" Phil asked.
"I want to speak to Dan," I said nervously, I was biting my lip and I couldn't keep eye contact.
"Okay...umm...do you want to sit down while I wake him?" I nodded, Phil let me in and I sat down on their sofa. Phil went into Dan's room and they both came out a while later, I stood up.
"Hi Dan," I said, he was wearing normal clothes but it was clear he hadn't showered yet. "Do you want to get a shower before we talk?"
"Yeah..." Dan went to get a shower and I sat straight back down and put my head into my hands. What was I doing? No way would he ever say yes to me, I'm just another girl...another stupid girl...
Dan came back in and sat next to me.
"Hi," He said.
"Hi," I said back, there was an awkward silence for a while and then Dan asked if I wanted tea, I nodded because I couldn't seem to find the words to even say 'yes'. Dan handed me a mug and I took a sip.
"So...what do you want to talk about?" Dan asked. I looked into the mug, I didn't know how to say it, I didn't want to be rejected by him and then face a number of awkward encounters.
"Finn and Jack, I want to meet them," I said and then mentally face palmed but I did really want to meet them anyway...
"Okay, I'll phone them and see if they want to come," He smiled and my heart did a somersault and butterflies fluttered in my stomach, I felt myself going very hot and felt like words were just going to fall out of my mouth.
"Can I use your bathroom?" I said and mentally face palmed myself again.
"Sure, it's just through here."
"Thanks," I went in, locked the door and looked at myself in the mirror. What's wrong with you? I thought Just say it, it's the way it is. If you can't do it now you'll never be able to do it, go on Lena, be like your Mum. I gasped, I didn't think about my Mum, she kicked me out of the house because my sister wanted to move back in. She always preferred her over me...
I sighed and walked back to Dan, he was on the phone to Jack and Finn.
"Yeah, so can you?" He asked, he smiled. "Cool, thanks so much." He put down the phone. "They said that they can come by on Saturday, is that alright?" He asked, I nodded and then the pressure was too much I felt the words just tumbling out of my mouth.
"I love you Dan!" I said, we just stared at each other. "I'm sorry," I said crying, I ran out, back to my house and just lay on my bed. "He's never going to love me, never. Why would anyone love me? I'm stupid, so stupid."
