Disclaimer: I don't own xxxHolic. I wish I did. If I did, Watanuki would've confessed his undying love to Doumeki LONG ago. I don't own Into the Ocean by Blue October or Skeptics and True Believers by The Academy Is… either. Kickass songs. Go listen to them.

I know, I know, I should be working on Forbidden Lies, but that one's kinda at a roadblock. Like, a "what now?" kind-of-like-a-thing. Yeah. So, until I get some ideas, you guys might have to wait a while. Yeah. But! I present to you this ficcy to please you! So, yeah.

Sorry if the characters are a bit OOC, but if you don't like that, don't leave me a review that flames me about it. I have also changed the characters a bit so they fit my story. Thank you, please R&R.


I want to swim away but don't know how. Sometimes, it feels just like I'm falling into the ocean. Let the waves up take me down. Let the hurricane set in motion. Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down. Let the rain come down.


The friends don't eat lunch together anymore. Now, it is only Himawari and Watanuki, sitting on the stairs, eating their lunches in silence. Doumeki doesn't come eat with them anymore. Watanuki always avoids him whenever it's possible, because he doesn't want to see how Doumeki looks at him. Because maybe, if he hadn't told him, they'd still be friends.

Watanuki touched his eye, an old reminder of the sacrifices Doumeki used to make for him.

"I should've treasured this eye, more than I did. I shouldn't have told him. That way we could've stayed friends. It could've been him, Himawari, and me together, sharing a bento and a laugh." He lowered his head into his hands, and wondered, 'Why did I tell him? If I didn't, maybe, even now, we'd still be friends.'


It's as cold as cold as cold can be.


The bell rang, and Himawari got up, giving Watanuki a small smile and saying thanks politely. Now, it was him, alone again. He wrapped up the bento and put it back in his bag. Slowly, he got up and walked back to class, with a tiny, sorrowful smile, thinking that if he hadn't said anything, maybe it'd be Doumeki and him walking back to class together again.


Into the ocean, in the dark.


Class had ended and Watanuki was walking home. Alone. People walking past him on the street might've wondered why he suddenly let out a small, quiet chuckle as he walked by. After all, he had only been thinking of the times when he and Doumeki would walk back home arguing about childish things along the way. 'That stupid, insufferable, idiotic, idiot.' Watanuki thought, letting out another quiet, hurt laugh. "That idiot, idiot, idiot!" he thought, tears slowly starting to wash his face. Damn, he was crying again. And even after he had promised himself he'd get forget him. That, he'd forget about that insufferable prick and move on. That he'd get over this.

He had reached Yuuko's house, and walked through the front gate. Maru and Moro met him at the front door and smiled.

He smiled back, gently, and asked, "Has Yuuko out today? Where did she go?"

Maru and Moro responded, "Master's gone out to grant a wish! She wants you to meet her at the park at 4, she says she's got something to tell you!"

"Hmm, is that so? Well, I'll just do some cleaning before I meet her then." he said, walking into the invisible house, and disappearing into the hallway. Maru and Moro shared a worried glance as they closed the front door.


At The Park


"Watanuki!" his boss screamed, propelling herself towards him with a power that could only mean she was drunk.

"Yuuko, are you drunk again? It's only 4 in the afternoon! You shouldn't drink so much! It's really bad for your liver! Jeez." Watanuki complained, a hand on his hip, rebuking his drunken boss.

His boss only swung aimlessly on the swing, giggling to herself, completely ignoring the boy housewife.

"Fine, fine, fine, whatever. Anyway, what did you call me for, Yuuko?" he asked, changing the subject.

Yuuko's seemingly oblivious expression immediately grew serious. She hopped off the swing, sat down on a nearby stone duck, and motioned for Watanuki to sit on the stone bunny opposite her.

Watanuki took a seat and wondered what could've possibly made a usually drunk and happy Yuuko serious like this.

"Watanuki, this might come as a surprise for you, but I must tell you this now. Because any later than now, bad things will happen. Bad things I cannot prevent. If you know, then maybe you might stand a chance against it. Watanuki, you are going to die."


Watanuki sat frozen, in his position. "…What? I'm going to die."

Before Watanuki could explode though, Yuuko stopped him. "Watanuki, you have been cursed at birth to die when you turn nineteen. The only way to stop the curse is to get someone that you have fallen in love with, to love you back. To love you more than anything. To sacrifice all they have for you. If you don't get that person to fall in love with you by your birthday next month, then you will die. I'm sorry, Watanuki, but this is something you must do on your own, I cannot help you. I can only say this: you have already found that person." Yuuko stood up and said, "I'll leave you here to think about what you are going to do. When you are ready, come back to the shop. There's dinner to make!" Yuuko's fake happiness tried to hide the real worry she had for him. Watanuki had not moved since she had told him that he would die. Slowly, Yuuko turned around, leaving the boy to think.

The park grew silent as hours past. Still, Watanuki did not move or shift. He just sat there, unmoving, still and silent. Hours later, Watanuki suddenly got up and walked off in the direction of Yuuko's home. A few minutes later, he opened her door and walked inside. Immediately he prepared her food and set it on the table. Without a word, he gathered his things, and went home.


Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you, because I wouldn't believe you if you said the same thing to me…


As Watanuki walked home, his heart was set with a resolution. 'I'll try to be Doumeki's friend, and if, by the end of this month, he still feels nothing towards me, then that's it. I'll be happy that I even got to be with him even though it'll only be a month. I'm happy. I could go back to where we lasted, just like I imagined.'


Haha, cliché curse ne? I just love the couple of DouWata! They're so cute together! XxxHolic should just turn into a gay manga. That would be FRICKIN FANTASTIC. Review?