I don't know where we stand. I feel like I am the passenger on your ride of life. Do you not understand that I have hopes dreams and plans of my own? I'm a princess damn it! I know that this isnt healthy but I'm willing to stay if you just give me a sign. I know that you won't be ready for a commitment anytime soon so I have to put my life on hold. In the grand scheme of things how is this fair? Your lazy, unmotivated, and seeking a mediocre life! At the very least I have been nothing but supportive for you to achieve more, dream bigger, and be with someone who is average. However when it comes to my plans I put them on the back burner so I can be there for our potential future. I'm not saying we need to get married anytime soon but an insight for us would be nice. I'm depressed and I know that. I'm not in a healthy place and I don't know how much more of this yo-yo of a relationship I can take. Empty love this not what I'm looking for companionate love is not acceptable consummative love is what I'm willing to settle for but right now emptiness is all I feel. I hope you can realize where I'm coming from and see that I am trying. I love you but things have to change. The wind carried me here, but I have yet to take root in the land of fire.
