26th July
8.17am
So this morning I awoke in the arms of a tall, dark, handsome man, I'm not really sure how we got here. Well I am, too much wine and not enough self control. It's not that I didn't want him, I mean, last night was aaaaaaaaamazing. It was everything I imagined it to be, back in the arms of my gorgeous Mr. Strachan.
Note to self, don't fucking fuck it up this time. Good luck.
"Morning beautiful" Sam stirred. I responded to this with a small, playful kiss, next thing I knew, he'd pinned me down and I think he was trying to touch my tonsils with his tongue. I won't bore you with what happens next. It was even better than last night, until now, I didn't think that was possible.
"Did you get that holiday Beachamp?" Sam yelled at me while i was dressing.
"Yes" I returned "my baby girl is back, I wouldn't not get one"
"What about your baby boy?"
"About that Sam, I love you, I've always loved you, but I don't want to rush, I don't want to upset Gracie, or your mother, or you" he grabbed me. He put his arms around me. Tonsil tennis. Again. I felt like we were a pair of bleeding teenagers.
"You haven't really told me your long term plan anyway Strachan. What's your game plan? For all I know, you could make me fall madly in love with you and then you piss off on a one way flight back to America"
"I'm not going back Connie, there was always this gaping hole in my life, you, and Grace, she misses you, she needs her mother, a lot, I've applied for a few jobs, one in St James, one here, my third option is to retrain in emergency, just like my girl, you've inspired me to change, but I'll see how I get on"
I can't help but think this sounds too good to be true. My boy and my girl back with me, in England, one little happy family. I'd love another baby, but that's, that's asking a little too much I think. Just now anyway.
"What do you want for us though Sam?"
"Us? I want to be us. A normal, functioning family, here with you, if you'll have us"
I didn't say anything I went in for the kill, I pulled him close, loosened his shirt, he knew what was coming, he let me take control.
"I take it that's a yes Beachamp?"
"Yes, now let's go, my baby girl will be waiting"
The drive there was erm, quiet. I was dreading seeing Audrey. Audrey. Why couldn't he have had a nicer mother? I wondered what she would say to me. She hated me. Hated me.
10.15pm
Just home from a wonderful day. Audrey was rather pleasant to me. Wonder what she'll have to say when Sam and I are officially 'dating'. Gracie is tucked up in her bed. Sam would currently be telling Audrey the good news. Good luck. Baby girl took it well. She gave me a big hug and reiterated how she could be a 'normal kid' now. She spilled heart out, told me how she hated the US and couldn't wait to get back to school here. We still have a few weeks to decide the logistics of this. Sam and I would try and be there for her most of the time, and we'd take at least one day off a week together. That was the rule. I'm sticking to it. Ooh a text from Sam:
'Hello baby, mother took that surprisingly well, she's happy for us, supposedly, anyway, I'm on my way over, get the kettle on, and your clothes off,xxxxxxxxxxxxxx'
'One of them has already been executed, guess which C xxxxxxxxxxxx'
8th August
Apologies for lack of updates, I had a hectic day yesterday, morning shift at the hospital, followed by a lovely afternoon with my boy and my girl. I've missed them. I've never had this. Sam has officially been offered a position at Holby, senior registrar. I'm so happy. He starts today. He even gets his own office. I'll need to take a trip up there one day.
*ping*
1 unread email:
From: Sam Strachan
To: Connie Beachamp
Subject: working hours this week
Good morning Queen B,
I have for you, my hours this week:
Tuesday: 1530-0130
Wednesday: 1330-2330
Thursday: 10:00-1800
Friday: 19:00-0400
Saturday: Off
Sunday: Off
Let me know what you think?
Sam
Dr Sam Strachan
Senior Cardiothoracic Registrar
Holby City Hospital
From: Connie Beachamp
To: Sam Strachan
Subject: Re: working hours this week
Morning Sam,
I've changed mine a little now so we can be with Grace:
Tuesday: 0700-1700
Wednesday: 19:00-0400
Thursday: off
Friday: 0800-17:00
Saturday: 1000-2000
Sunday: Off
See you later
Connie
Mrs. Connie Beachamp
Lead Consultant in Emergency Medicine
Holby City Hospital
I really hope this works. It needs to.
Charlie came to see me. It was fab to have a catch up with my closest friend in the ED. I fessed up about Sam, told him everything. Well not everything. I omitted the sex, Charlie doesn't need nor want to know about that. He's vary happy for me. His son Louis is doing well and I'm happy for him. We are both happy for each other. No one else in the ED knows about my new found beau, I'll strut Sam through one day, and watch Robyn's mouth fall open.
8pm
Sam and I finish in an hour, an hour. We pick baby girl up from Audrey by 9.30 and it's hometime. I've got some paperwork to do, but I feel like being naughty, really naughty.
I stuck my head out my office door, I picked up a pile of papers for authenticity. After all, I had to look professional, if I found out about anyone else up to this it's straight to disciplinary.
Note to self, put an end to the double standards. Tommorow. Plus, his desk needs to be Christened.
"And where are you off too?" It was Charlie. He didn't have to ask,he knew exactly where I was going.
"Just erm off to Darwin with these files, won't be long, cover for me"
He gave me that look. I reached my boys office, I knocked.
"Come in?" His shy voice answered.
I entered, and locked the door behind me. He already had the blinds closed so that saved me a job.
"Connie, what can I do for you"
"Me" I replied "in here, right now" I put the files down (which incidentally were for him) I loosened off his tie. He knew what was coming. He slowly unbuttoned my blouse. I wanted to rip his shirt off, but I contained myself.
"You know what I love about you Connie? You've come all the way up here for me, I just never know when to expect you."
He pushed me onto the desk, it wasn't the most comfortable situation I've ever been in, but oh my, it was worth it. I gave him a kiss and told him I'd see him in the car park soon.
"I love you Connie"
"I love you too,Sam"
He told me he loved me. I was in awe. I love him too. I can't believe I've missed all these years.
