A/N HI AGAIN!
I'm not too fond of this little one-shot, but we could all use some more St. Berry.
SO HERE YA GOES.
If you want me to continue with it (as in Rachel, Jesse, and Finn drama) Than I will. Comment please!
"Why did you do it, Jesse?"
Those six words caught Jesse St. James off guard. When he agreed to talk to Rachel Berry this afternoon, he just expected her to rant about why he was a back-stabbing, rude person. But these words, filled with genuine hurt and sadness, surprised him.
Why did he egg her and break her heart? He knew he loved her then, and that he still loves her now.
Jesse took a deep breath and looked into her warm, brown eyes. The eyes that he knew so well, that he could easily read. But today, her eyes said nothing except heartbreak.
He prepared an explanation in his head, but as soon as he opened his mouth to speak, no words came out.
This didn't make any sense. He couldn't be nervous. Jesse St. James does not get nervous, especially over a girl. A girl that used to make him feel so comfortable, a girl who made him forget everything.
"I thought so." A tear formed in the corner of her eye. "You really hurt me, Jesse. I hope you realize that." She spun on her heel and turned to walk away. Jesse had to hand it to her, the girl always knew how to make an exit.
"Rachel…" He grabbed her arm, trying to regain his thoughts before he lost her again, and this time maybe forever. He wouldn't let that happen again. "I made a mistake."
"You're just saying that. I know who you are… overly competitive Jesse St. James. You'll do anything to win. Even if it meant hurting me."
He watched sadly as the tear fell down her cheek. She was right. He did sacrifice their relationship for Vocal Adrenaline to win Regionals. Even though they ended up winning first place, he still felt empty inside.
"You're absolutely right." Jesse didn't like to admit that he was wrong, but he felt as if it was time.
"I am?" She asked innocently as she wiped the tear away.
He nodded, taking her hand tentatively. She didn't pull back. "I was wrong. I don't know how badly I hurt you, but I do know I hurt myself. We really had something. Something special."
Rachel looked down at their intertwined hands, feeling guilty. "Its nice to hear you admit it. But… I'm with Finn…"
"So?" He smirked.
"Jesse! Relationships are a big deal, and I particularly like being with Finn. He's sweet and… cares about me. If you can't respect that, than I have no purpose in being here." She withdrew her hand and crossed her arms.
Jesse chuckled softly. Rachel hadn't changed at all. "I respect that, but I didn't come back from winning Nationals for nothing, Rachel."
She nodded. "Not everybody has your bad-boy attitude, you know."
"I figured that. Not many people have my charm, either."
Rachel couldn't help but giggle. Jesse had a point. He was charming. And he wasn't afraid to admit it, either. It was one of the many things she liked about him. "No. They most certainly do not."
Jesse lowered his voice. "I still love you, Rachel Berry. I always will."
"I-I-I…" Rachel looked down at her hands, wringing them together nervously.
She wasn't the kind of girl who would cheat, but she definitely still had feelings for Jesse. Why else would she be here right now with a boy who could potentially hurt her? Who has hurt her before in the past? She couldn't do that to her herself again. No, she wouldn't do that to herself again. Or to Finn! She had been trying to build up their relationship all year, and she couldn't just destroy it for Jesse.
But the nagging feeling in the pit of her stomach told her otherwise.
"…And I just wanted to say that I apologize for everything." Jesse has been talking, but Rachel was too wrapped up in her thoughts to listen.
"I think… I think I still have feelings for you, too. I don't want to rush into things. Finn means something to me, too. I would never want to hurt him…"
As Rachel trailed off, Jesse leaned down and kissed her.
And she kissed him back.
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A/N Wow... That was shorter than I expected. I'll try to make it longer soon.
ANYWAYS...
I hope you liked it!
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