Love and Lust
By Kirakira
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Heero jerked awake, hearing the sound of knocking on his bedroom door. He wasn't in the mood to see anyone at that time; for one thing, he was trying to take a much-needed nap. But nowadays, taking naps was getting pretty difficult. Groaning to sound of the knocking once again, Heero got out of bed and quickly put on some light blue jeans and buttoned up his white shirt that seemed to be a little too big for him (not that he cared. The knocking came again, this time a little louder.
"I'm coming!" He yelled before opening the door to stare into the eyes of a brown-haired, blue-eyed imp standing before him. "What is it?"
"I woke you up," the little girl replied. Heero leaned against the doorframe.
"And you did this because...?"
"Because you told me to wake you up at 12:30. It's 12:30-oh and Uncle Quatre's here!" she giggled before rushing down the stairs. After a while, Heero could hear Quatre's familiar laughter and the giggles of his two girls. Sighing he left his room and proceeded down the steps, eventually seeing Quatre's slim figure sitting down on the couch while two girls were sitting on the floor in front of them. Laughing heartily, Quatre looked up and gave Heero a simple smile.
"I know I didn't tell you I was coming or anything...but I heading in this direction so I decided to stop by."
"That's fine. You're always welcome, Quatre," Heero replied, sitting down on the couch across from him. One of the girls went to sit next to him. Quatre smiled.
"Akira, you love being near your daddy, huh?"
"Yep! I love my daddy!" Akira giggled as Heero wrapped an arm around her.
"Well I love you too, sweetie," he replied kissing her on the top of her head. The other girl gave Heero a pouty look.
"What about me??"
"You I love you both equally, Akari. Nothing's gonna change that."
"Oh...K!" With that Akari went to sit on Quatre' lap. "Uncle Quatre, how long have you and daddy been friends?"
"Umm..." Quatre thought for a minute before answering. "About nine or ten years...why?"
"That means you know who my other daddy is...right?"
Quatre glanced at Heero quickly before smiling at the little girl. "Maybe..."
"Uh, why don't you girls go outside and play, huh?" Heero spoke out, letting go of Akira. They both agreed before rushing out of the house in laughter and giggles. Quatre could only smile at them and sigh.
"They're adorable, Heero...very adorable."
"Yeah..." Sighing, Heero stood up. "You want something to drink-coffee maybe?"
"Yeah sure." Standing up as well, Quatre followed Heero to the kitchen. "Um...I came here to tell you something...but I never really had the guts to say it until now.."
"What is it?" Heero asked, getting two cups. Quatre sat down at the table, twiddling his fingers.
"Well...I was supposed to tell you this a week ago...but I uh..." he looked at Heero and sighed. "Duo's back." The sound of dishes clattering ceased, and Heero remained perfectly still. Not knowing what else to do, Quatre continued. "A week ago, Duo called, saying that he was coming back...he's been here for two days now and the first thing he asked when he got here was 'Where's Heero?' Heheh...funny, huh? I told him you moved out-but don't worry! I didn't tell him where you were. He keeps asking me, but I'm not gonna tell him anything if you don't want me to."
"Does..." Heero's voice was very soft, almost vulnerable. "Does he know about..."
"No. I didn't tell him about Akari or Akira. He doesn't know anything. But Heero..." Quatre stood up to stand by Heero's side. "I don't know how long I can lie to him. He's gonna find out sooner or later..."
"Better later than sooner, then..."
"Well...I was thinking that maybe you could go see him...or just talk to him on the phone."
"No."
"But Heero, Duo constantly asks about you. I-I don't know how long I can keep this up..." Quatre placed a hand on Heero's shoulder. "If you could just talk to him, let him hear your voice, then maybe-"
"I said NO!" Heero screamed, slamming a cup on the counter, breaking it. Quatre was startled by that and backed away. He knew that Heero was still as strong as he always has been, and didn't want to find out how strong. After a few minutes of silence, Heero let out a deep breath and started picking up the pieces of the cup. "I'm sorry for overreacting...I didn't mean to do that."
"It's alright..." Quatre replied, shrugging. "I expected it from you anyway...I mean in your position..."
"Why now?" Heero asked after putting the pieces in the trash. "He just takes off and leaves and now, after 7 years he decides to come back!?"
"I don't know what he's thinking, Heero...maybe he felt bad after what he did and decided to see if he can fix things."
"Well he can't!" Heero retorted. "What-he thought it was wrong of him to just fuck me and then leave me the day after!? So he decides to come back and try and make things right!? NOW OF ALL TIMES!?!"
"Better late then never, right?" Quatre watched as Heero's angry expression soften. Then Heero turned away.
"It doesn't matter. I've moved on...I don't need him back in my life anymore..."
"Ok..." Sighing Quatre sat back down. "So have you figured out who the father is?" Heero shook his head.
"I've narrowed it down to two...heh...one doesn't even know where I'm at and the other visits me every chance he gets..."
"Hmm..." Quatre smiled a little. "Zechs' that annoying?"
"Yeah..." Heero looked at Quatre, a smile on his face. "The girls don't like him at all. He's always telling them to do stuff and they never do it..." Heero chuckled. "I expected that much outta them...but how'll they react if Zechs IS their father..."
"They'd be pretty shocked..."
"Yeah...definitely." Heero sighed. "I dunno..."
"Are you..." Quatre cleared his throat. "Are you gonna get paternity tests?" Heero just shrugged.
"Zechs is more than willing to do that...but..."
"But what?'
"I'm kinda afraid...that...Zechs might be the father...and if he is...I dunno how I'd react..."
"That's understandable...but if he's not the father then..."
"Then that means..." Heero didn't finish, knowing that Quatre knew the answer. Instead he continued with something else. "You know I still remember that day. I mean, the day before that I was a virgin: never been touch by anybody. That day Zechs told me a whole lotta bullshit that I cannot believe I fell for. I still remember feeling dirty afterward...disgusted with myself. Then that night...I opened myself up to Duo...one thing led to another and well...yeah..."
"Heero..." Quatre walked up to him. "It's not your fault, you know. I mean, Zechs practically tricked you and Duo took advantage of you because you were vulnerable at the time. So...it wasn't your fault." With that, Quatre wrapped his arms around Heero, hugging him tightly. Heero hugged him in return, resting his head on Quatre's shoulder. Quatre was right...mostly. However, Heero didn't feel that Duo took advantage of him. Duo, actually, was very patient, gentle, and loving. So...how could that be taking advantage of him? Heero didn't quite understand, but he felt he shouldn't try to. That was just the way life worked.
TBC
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By Kirakira
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Heero jerked awake, hearing the sound of knocking on his bedroom door. He wasn't in the mood to see anyone at that time; for one thing, he was trying to take a much-needed nap. But nowadays, taking naps was getting pretty difficult. Groaning to sound of the knocking once again, Heero got out of bed and quickly put on some light blue jeans and buttoned up his white shirt that seemed to be a little too big for him (not that he cared. The knocking came again, this time a little louder.
"I'm coming!" He yelled before opening the door to stare into the eyes of a brown-haired, blue-eyed imp standing before him. "What is it?"
"I woke you up," the little girl replied. Heero leaned against the doorframe.
"And you did this because...?"
"Because you told me to wake you up at 12:30. It's 12:30-oh and Uncle Quatre's here!" she giggled before rushing down the stairs. After a while, Heero could hear Quatre's familiar laughter and the giggles of his two girls. Sighing he left his room and proceeded down the steps, eventually seeing Quatre's slim figure sitting down on the couch while two girls were sitting on the floor in front of them. Laughing heartily, Quatre looked up and gave Heero a simple smile.
"I know I didn't tell you I was coming or anything...but I heading in this direction so I decided to stop by."
"That's fine. You're always welcome, Quatre," Heero replied, sitting down on the couch across from him. One of the girls went to sit next to him. Quatre smiled.
"Akira, you love being near your daddy, huh?"
"Yep! I love my daddy!" Akira giggled as Heero wrapped an arm around her.
"Well I love you too, sweetie," he replied kissing her on the top of her head. The other girl gave Heero a pouty look.
"What about me??"
"You I love you both equally, Akari. Nothing's gonna change that."
"Oh...K!" With that Akari went to sit on Quatre' lap. "Uncle Quatre, how long have you and daddy been friends?"
"Umm..." Quatre thought for a minute before answering. "About nine or ten years...why?"
"That means you know who my other daddy is...right?"
Quatre glanced at Heero quickly before smiling at the little girl. "Maybe..."
"Uh, why don't you girls go outside and play, huh?" Heero spoke out, letting go of Akira. They both agreed before rushing out of the house in laughter and giggles. Quatre could only smile at them and sigh.
"They're adorable, Heero...very adorable."
"Yeah..." Sighing, Heero stood up. "You want something to drink-coffee maybe?"
"Yeah sure." Standing up as well, Quatre followed Heero to the kitchen. "Um...I came here to tell you something...but I never really had the guts to say it until now.."
"What is it?" Heero asked, getting two cups. Quatre sat down at the table, twiddling his fingers.
"Well...I was supposed to tell you this a week ago...but I uh..." he looked at Heero and sighed. "Duo's back." The sound of dishes clattering ceased, and Heero remained perfectly still. Not knowing what else to do, Quatre continued. "A week ago, Duo called, saying that he was coming back...he's been here for two days now and the first thing he asked when he got here was 'Where's Heero?' Heheh...funny, huh? I told him you moved out-but don't worry! I didn't tell him where you were. He keeps asking me, but I'm not gonna tell him anything if you don't want me to."
"Does..." Heero's voice was very soft, almost vulnerable. "Does he know about..."
"No. I didn't tell him about Akari or Akira. He doesn't know anything. But Heero..." Quatre stood up to stand by Heero's side. "I don't know how long I can lie to him. He's gonna find out sooner or later..."
"Better later than sooner, then..."
"Well...I was thinking that maybe you could go see him...or just talk to him on the phone."
"No."
"But Heero, Duo constantly asks about you. I-I don't know how long I can keep this up..." Quatre placed a hand on Heero's shoulder. "If you could just talk to him, let him hear your voice, then maybe-"
"I said NO!" Heero screamed, slamming a cup on the counter, breaking it. Quatre was startled by that and backed away. He knew that Heero was still as strong as he always has been, and didn't want to find out how strong. After a few minutes of silence, Heero let out a deep breath and started picking up the pieces of the cup. "I'm sorry for overreacting...I didn't mean to do that."
"It's alright..." Quatre replied, shrugging. "I expected it from you anyway...I mean in your position..."
"Why now?" Heero asked after putting the pieces in the trash. "He just takes off and leaves and now, after 7 years he decides to come back!?"
"I don't know what he's thinking, Heero...maybe he felt bad after what he did and decided to see if he can fix things."
"Well he can't!" Heero retorted. "What-he thought it was wrong of him to just fuck me and then leave me the day after!? So he decides to come back and try and make things right!? NOW OF ALL TIMES!?!"
"Better late then never, right?" Quatre watched as Heero's angry expression soften. Then Heero turned away.
"It doesn't matter. I've moved on...I don't need him back in my life anymore..."
"Ok..." Sighing Quatre sat back down. "So have you figured out who the father is?" Heero shook his head.
"I've narrowed it down to two...heh...one doesn't even know where I'm at and the other visits me every chance he gets..."
"Hmm..." Quatre smiled a little. "Zechs' that annoying?"
"Yeah..." Heero looked at Quatre, a smile on his face. "The girls don't like him at all. He's always telling them to do stuff and they never do it..." Heero chuckled. "I expected that much outta them...but how'll they react if Zechs IS their father..."
"They'd be pretty shocked..."
"Yeah...definitely." Heero sighed. "I dunno..."
"Are you..." Quatre cleared his throat. "Are you gonna get paternity tests?" Heero just shrugged.
"Zechs is more than willing to do that...but..."
"But what?'
"I'm kinda afraid...that...Zechs might be the father...and if he is...I dunno how I'd react..."
"That's understandable...but if he's not the father then..."
"Then that means..." Heero didn't finish, knowing that Quatre knew the answer. Instead he continued with something else. "You know I still remember that day. I mean, the day before that I was a virgin: never been touch by anybody. That day Zechs told me a whole lotta bullshit that I cannot believe I fell for. I still remember feeling dirty afterward...disgusted with myself. Then that night...I opened myself up to Duo...one thing led to another and well...yeah..."
"Heero..." Quatre walked up to him. "It's not your fault, you know. I mean, Zechs practically tricked you and Duo took advantage of you because you were vulnerable at the time. So...it wasn't your fault." With that, Quatre wrapped his arms around Heero, hugging him tightly. Heero hugged him in return, resting his head on Quatre's shoulder. Quatre was right...mostly. However, Heero didn't feel that Duo took advantage of him. Duo, actually, was very patient, gentle, and loving. So...how could that be taking advantage of him? Heero didn't quite understand, but he felt he shouldn't try to. That was just the way life worked.
TBC
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