It was a normal day for everyone. The sweet light of the sun, the noise of walking people outside and the beeping of Misakis Alarm. But the only one, who didn't hear the daily sound of life, was Misaki himself. Still cuddling himself into his blanket, snoring lightly and peacefully, couldn't hear the footsteps which are approaching him, couldn't feel the hand on his shoulder, slowly shaking him, couldn't listen to the deep voice, he heard everyday nonstop.
"Misaki! Wake up or you'll be late.", Said Usami Akihiko, Misakis "Lover" since 4 years. But he got no respond from his small lover. What he didn't knew, is that Misaki was stuck in a dream full of multiply meanings.
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Misaki…
Misaki…
mIsAKi… wAKE Up!
Misakis eyes shot wide open, surprised to hear another voice in his dreams. "Misaki? Are you alright?" asked Usagi in a sweet, caring tone. "Huh? Uh... yeah yeah! I'm fine! Just a little nightmare! ," He answered before he rushed to the bathroom, trying to prepare himself quickly. Of course, Usagi was still worried, but he shrugged it off for now.
"I'll be going now!" screamed Misaki trough the apartment, to wake Kaoruko and Mizuki up. After that, he went to work, leaving the three cousins back, letting them argue as much as they want.
His work was completely normal. Nothing special happened, nothing was about to happen. But still, one question ran through his mind:
Why was Ijuuin-senseis voice in my dream?
Up until now, no one realized it. What a maniac was inside this breaking mask of his.
Everyone is crazy. He is just special.
He isn't crazy for revenge, fame or more easy getable things.
He is crazy for love.
For acceptance.
For someone he isn't able to get.
He would be the only one who could fill his heart.
His lonely, hurting black hole what he describes as his heart.
Oh poor Ijuuin-sensei… he deserves a happy end.
And he will get it.
With his own, warm but also cold, merciless hands.
Misaki wasn't the only one who woke up with a strange dream. Ijuuin-seinsei, still only in his boxers, stretched his muscles a bit and went to his kitchen.
His home was a mess. The final rejection of Misaki made him snap. He fled to his apartment immediately, hiding the want of crushing Usami-sensei's bones and burning them. And this was just the beginning of his never ending fantasy of tortures, which he called his sweet good night dreams. "This useless trash of an author doesn't deserve Misaki at all… ", he mumbles to himself with a dark, despising voice while getting ready.
He knew what kind of person Akihiko was: A childish money thrower.
He can't cook,
He can't clean,
And he can't save money at all.
All he can do is write novels and fuck/rape poor Takahashi-kun.
He isn't suitable for Misaki at all. Only Kyo is. And still, Usami gets choosen. Why?! Was there a point where he was lagging? Had he something what was dislikeable in Misakis eyes? Probably his timing – yeah. Just his timing. He would have gotten Misaki if he would have been faster than Usami was. He actually was faster. He knew Misakis existence since 10 years – when Misaki was 12 and he was 19 (He looks younger than Usagi-san so I make him 3 years younger!)
He closed his eyes, trying to remember their real first meeting.
On a rainy night, Hanzo Kyo ran away from home, trying to flee from his parents, who wanted to drag him into one of their fights. They always did that. They never really spend time with each other. They just fight - Every single day.
While he ran, he slipped down the wet street, crashing down onto the road. But he felt no pain. He never did. The fights made him numb, made him aware that his parents soon will split up.
Slowly, he heard small tipsy footsteps approach him. They were very light, like the one of a cat. When he looked up, he couldn't believe what was in front of his puffy, red eyes.
In front of him was a little boy with chocolate hair, grass green eyes with a tint of emerald, a small pale body and pinkish cheeks, raising some like cookies looking candy to him, asking with his eyes "Are you alright?"
Hanzo looks at him with shocked, but also pleading eyes while raising himself a bit and accepting the candy. Shortly he nibbles a bit on it, realizing that it was extremely tasty, before biting a bit away. Maybe it was just the taste of having someone worry for him, what made the candy so delicious.
"Misaki!" screamed a guy in their direction. He had dark blue eyes and brown hair. "Nii-chan!", Said the little angel happy to the new coming person. 'Nii-chan? They don't look alike at all…', Hanzo thought to himself. Before he could handle, the boy ran into his brother's arms, going away with him. But he still turned around to Kyo, giving him a small, cheerful smile which said:
"You'll be fine!"
"I'm sure he doesn't remember me…" he said with a sad back tone in his voice. After he saw his smile in Marukawa, he remembered him immediately. He wanted to hug him so badly, but he had to keep it. After that meeting, he realized he fell for that boy – hard.
After getting ready, he stared at his hand – the hand which took the candy. Just thinking about the little boy made his entire body tremble – especially his hand. He just wants to hug him, kiss him and love him. The thought about Usami doing all this things instead just makes his veins burn in anger and his heart aching for indifference. With all those deep thoughts, he keeps staring on his hand.
Like being in a trance, Ijuuin didn't realize that his phone was ringing. He just heard a little beep after it rang. Slowly, he reaches for his phone, looking at the message of his editor, which made his heart beat rip breaking in his chest.
"Sensei, I'm sending Takahashi-kun into your apartment to give you the copies back. Maybe it'll help you a bit."
-Shinnosuke
After he read the message, he smiled. He smiled like a maniac. Like his real self.
All what you knew from ijuuin was fake. He was just a broken mask - A disguise to hide his longing for the small boy.
With a dark chuckle, looked at his hand again and clenched it to a fist. He won't give up. He never will.
With lightless dark eyes and a crazy mind, he only left one wish inside his sanity:
"ELimINAte usAMi"
