Yeah! A new story for all you good people out there! If anyone loves a good lemon it a story they probably won't be bothering to read this. I can't keep yal waiting so here it is! Enjoy!
Secrets left unsaid
Chapter 1:
Lucy POV:
I sat there at a table in the guild hall with Natsu, Erza, and Gray. Erza sat quietly eating a piece of strawberry short cake while Gray and Natsu watched two snails drag slowly across the table.
"Go! Go! Mine is defiantly going to make it first." Natsu cheered. They were betting on which snail could make it to the glass of water that I was drinking.
"No way, my snail is practically a speed demon!" Gray claimed. They both were watching closely at the jewel sized creatures.
"Could you please get those things of the table? There disgusting!" I grimaced.
"Hold on, my snails going to win!"
"We'll just see about that!" Both snails were a pencil away from the glass when Natsu blew fire at one sending it rolling to the glass.
"Hey! That's cheating!"
"Says who?"
"Says me! Lucy, you saw that didn't you?" Gray looked to me. I waved my hands dismissively.
"Don't drag me into this!"
"I win, now you have to hand feed e a sandwich!" Natsu said smugly crossing his arms over his chest and sticking his nose in the air with superiority.
"How about I feed you a fist?" Gray tackled Natsu. I sighed pinching the bridge of my nose. It's like those two fight non-stop! Why cant they be like normal friends and not try to kill each other all the time.
"Gray, I want to become best friends with you! No more fighting ok."
"That sounds like a swell idea! Your right, fighting has become really old!" (runs off into the sunset) "Friendship!"
Maybe that's a little too unrealistic. And kind of scary. "Oi, Lucy." Gray's voice broke off my train of thought. He was currently pulling Natsu's arms back. "I need to speak with you outside. It's important. Ow!" Natsu head butted him with the back of his head.
I wonder what Gray has to talk about. It reminds me of the time Natsu wanted to speak to me about something important.
"Lets go." Gray popped up next to me and pulled me towards the door.
"Hey! We're not done yet!" Natsu shouted with fire spewing from his mouth. Gray ignored him as we exited the hall. Once we were outside he turned to me.
"Can you come over my house real quick?" he asked smoothly. I felt myself blush. Why would he want me to come over his house?
"Why?" I voiced my suspicions. Gray rubbed the back of his head uncomfortably. His cheeks turned slightly pink.
"It's kind of embarrassing. I'll explain when we get there, I promise." He said honestly. The whole situation felt painfully familiar. I actually believed that Natsu was in love with me.
Come to think of it. I don't think I've ever been to Gray's house. When we got there he stopped at the door. The house looked similar to mine.
"Before we enter, I feel the need to tell you to brace yourself. It isn't pretty." He warned. When he opened the door, I gasped at the sight.
"Oh my gosh! Gray, have you been robbed?"
"Naw, this is how it always looks." He went inside and plopped down on the couch that was cover in clothes that I'm hoping is clean. He rested his feet on the table that was covered in pizza boxes, dishes and other food that is unidentifiable.
I stepped cautiously around trying not to touch anything. "How can you live like this? Why is this baseball cap full of yogurt?" I picked it up with my index finger and thumb as if it was littered with disease.
"Um…I think it use to be milk." Gray said casually.
"Eww…!" I dropped it. I looked over to Gray who suddenly didn't have any clothes on besides his underwear. "Gray, your clothes!"
He looked down. "Hmm, at least I'm in my own house. Speaking of which, I need your help to clean it." He said.
"Me? Why me? Couldn't you have asked Natsu or Erza?"
"Yeah right. Unless I want it messier than it already is." Gray laughed. What he said was very true. If he and Natsu tried to clean it, it would probably end up destroyed. Same with Erza. I guess I cant blame him for coming to me.
"What made you want to clean it all of a sudden?" I asked curiously.
"It's getting harder to find stuff. I mean, I'd put something down one place and find it a week later in a completely different location." He explained. I sighed, Gray is so lucky that I'm so nice.
"Fine, I'll help you." I agreed.
"Great, let's get started!"
3 hours later…
"Phew! Man, I don't think I've ever had to clean a place like this." I sighed wiping sweat off my brow. At least it was just about clean.
"If that's the case then you should see Natsu's house. I've been there so many times and it's like it gets messier every time." Gray said as he finished sweeping the floor. I grimaced. I hope he doesn't come to me for help. But I seriously doubt it.
I looked around Gray's room. Gray was currently in the living room dusting a few shelves. I guess I should pick up these magazines he has on his bed. I looked through them. At least none of them are porn magazines. There was a swimsuit edition magazine. I shook my head at his pervyness.
Plue, whom I summoned earlier jumped on the bed poked his carrot nose underneath Gray's pillow. "What is it Plue?" the carrot nosed dog dipped his whole head underneath and pulled something out. It was some kind of journal.
"Puuun!" Sighed Plue.
I picked it up. The journal looked kind of old and the cover said: Gray's Notebook: don't touch. This is probably his personal diary or something. It must be if he doesn't want anyone to touch it. It could hold some dirt on him. Maybe a little blackmail is in order.
"Lucy?" Gray's voice sounded behind me. I jumped turning around with the journal hidden behind my back. "What are you doing?" he looked at me questioningly.
"Pun! Pun!" Plue yipped.
"I was just, uh…cleaning the magazines off your bed. Hehe." I said. I was the worst liar ever.
"Oh thanks." Gray exited the room once again. It's a good thing that I'm surrounded by idiots. I rushed to the bathroom with my newly found treasure and sat on the closed toilet. I was overly eager to open it since my devil conscience had no trouble in winning the argument. Aint I a stinker?
I slipped on the magic reading glasses that I borrowed from Levy. I skimmed the boring stuff and tried to look for something juicier. On journal entry caught my attention:
Today something weird happened. I caught myself thinking about how-ugh-cute Natsu looked. I never thought I'd actually use that in my vocabulary. Least not when I'm describing a male. Especially Natsu. I should hate his guts! I mean, he's not bad looking. Damn, what the hell am I writing about?
I moved onto the next entry that caught my attention as well:
Why cant I get that annoying flame headed idiot out of my mind! This is starting to piss me the hell off! I…I think I'm falling for him or something…Naw, it's probably nothing. My hormones are raging right now according to Mirajane. I guess I feel like fucking anything at this age, even if it's an idiot salamander.
This was starting to get interesting. I skimmed to another page mentioning the subject:
I can't believe how adorable Natsu can be sometimes. I don't want to admit it but I think I'm starting to fall head over heels for him. This is bullshit! Natsu has no idea of what kind of attraction I have for him. The guy gets me to fall in love with him without even trying. What the fuck is that? I can't believe this!
This is so cute! I never knew how much drama goes on with Gray. He seems the least open out of all of us. But I'm really surprised that he's into men, and Natsu of all people. That's something good to know.
I looked at the date of that last entry. I gasped when I realized that this was written almost two years ago. Way before even I joined the guild. So all this time Gray has had feelings for Natsu and I haven't even noticed.
I feel sorry for Gray. All this time he's been suppressing his emotions and Natsu has no idea. I closed the book and exited the bathroom. I found Gray kneeling on the floor of his bedroom peeking underneath the bed.
"Oh hey, Lucy. Have you seen a journal with my name on it anywhere? I'm sure it was on my bed or something." Gray said as he stood up.
"You mean this?" I guiltily held out his journal to him. Gray gasped an snatched it out of my hands.
"You didn't read t did you?" he asked despratly.
"I'm sorry." I looked down, focusing on my boots.
"All of it?"
I nodded, unable to look him in the face. Gray walked away from me combing his fingers through his hair sighing stressfully. After a few seconds he turned back to me. "So I'm guessing you know the truth. Now that you know…what will you do?"
"I wont tell anyone! I promise!" I now looked at him determined. "You know I'm not the kind of person that would break a promise. It's just…" I paused for a second. "I never thought that you'd have feelings for-"
"Don't." Gray looked away. He didn't look embarrassed. He had a look more of sadness and regret. "Not one day…not one day has passed without me thinking of what life would be like…if I'd confess." He looked at me now. I've never seen him look so lonely.
Gray smiled inwardly as if he was thinking back on something. "It's been two years since I realized my feelings for him. I'm still surprised I can even maintain it for so long. Everytime I think I've finally gotten away, I'm always lured right back like some lost puppy."
This broke my heart. I couldn't stand seeing him like this. "This isn't fair! You have to tell him how you feel. If you don't…you'll never be truly happy!"
"Are you listening to yourself?" he snapped. "This isn't some sappy love story where everything works out in the end. I cant just waltz up to him and tell him that I…that I love him." He sat down on the edge of his bed. "My biggest fear is losing his friendship. I'll never be able to get closer to him than I already am."
I stood there absorbing everything that he just told me. Gray had a huge point. It wasn't very likely that Natsu would return the feelings the lovesick ice mage has. There has to be something that I could do to help. Maybe I should gather information from Natsu. To see if he's interested in Gray, even just a little. It sounds impractical, but it's worth a shot.
I said goodbye to Gray and left his home thinking about what to do. The most important thing I should remember is to not say a word or mention about Gray liking Natsu. I'd blow his cover after two long years of keeping it a secret. Gray would be beyond devastated
It was a little late now; I guess I should head home. With Plue by my side I arrived at my house. I checked to see if anyone was in there. It's become a major habit of Natsu or other's invading my house without permission. I sighed with relief as the lights were off. No one should be here right now. I flicked on the lights.
The next is the final chapter. *Thumbs up*
