Chapter 1.

It was the same thing everyday for Finn. He would wake up, eat breakfast, go to school, not pay attention in class, football, and glee. He just wasn't himself lately. He couldn't get past first base with Rachel. There was no excitement in his life anymore.

After he had gotten home from school and just collapsed on his bed, he hear a knock on the door, but didn't bother to get it.

"Hi, Rachel!" Carole said when she opened the door.

"Hi! Is Finn home yet? We need to practice a duet we're singing together for glee."

"Yes, he is upstairs." Carole replied. Rachel went upstairs excited to see her boyfriend, but what she saw was Finn lying facedown on his pillows, sleeping.

"Finn?" Rachel lightly tapped him on the shoulder. No response.

"Finn." She shook him slightly. He awoke after that.

"Oh hey," Finn said, a little bit groggily "what are you doing here?"

"You've forgotten." Rachel angrily said. Finn just looked at her, not replying.

"We have to sing a duet tomorrow for glee." Rachel was now annoyed.

"Right, what are we singing?" Finn asked, now sitting upright.

"Finn, we started practicing two days ago. Are you alright?" Rachel went from angry to worried.

"Yeah, I'm just a little tired." Finn assured her.

"You've been acting like this for a while now, what's wrong?"

"Nothing, I just haven't been getting much sleep lately."

"Why?"

"I don't know." Finn replied, but he did, in fact, know why. He had been up lately just thinking. He was up late every night thinking about one person in particular. It was Puck. Finn was pretty sure that he was in love, with Noah Puckerman. But he knew Puck would never love him. Puck could never love him. Puck was straight, Finn was not.

He was still dating Rachel, he loved her. But not the way she loved him. He loved her more as a sister. He had known he was in love with Puck for about two weeks now. It started at a party that Puck had…

Flashback (at the party)…

Everyone one from glee was playing spin the bottle. Somehow Rachel let Finn play, maybe because she was drunk, so she also played. It was Puck's turn, so he spun the bottle and it landed on, who other than Finn.

"Fuck no. I ain't kissin' no dude!" Puck yelled out. Finn just sat there giggling.

"You have to!" Santana yelled at him.

"No!" Puck was getting up to go when…

"Chicken!" Santana teased.

"Fuck no, The Puckster is NOT a chicken." Puck shot back. And he was right, he wasn't a chicken. He had never been afraid of anything. So he waled over to Finn and did it. He kissed Finn. Puck connected their lips and shot his tongue into Finn's mouth, he figured why not. Finn deepened the kiss, feeling something he was sure he wouldn't remember in the morning. But he felt something. It was a connection. Puck broke the kiss after about 30 seconds. Everyone was either staring or rolling over laughing. Puck was outraged and stormed away. Finn got up slowly and followed.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Finn asked slurring his words.

"Did you just missed what happened, you dumb fuck?"

"Hey, don't be mean." Finn said.

"What if people remember it?" Puck asked nervously.

"Remember what?"

"Wow. Hopefully everyone is as drunk as you." Puck said and then smirked.

End flashback.

No one did remember it, besides Finn, even though he was the drunkest one there. But Puck didn't remember it. That is what Finn hated. Puck didn't remember it, so they couldn't talk about it, so they had no chance.

"Finn? Are you there? I'm talking to you." Rachel interrupted Finn's thoughts.

"Yeah, I'm here."

"Then what did I just say?" Rachel asked, hoping Finn knew.

"Uhh…"

"Finn what is wrong with you? You never listen to me anymore! You don't care about me!" Rachel yelled.

"That's so not true. I do care about you."

"If you did you would listen to me. I don't think this is working anymore." Rachel looked down.

"Are you saying we need to break up?" Finn suddenly jumped fully awake now.

"Yes." Was all that Rachel said before leaving.

Finn fell back onto his bed and started to cry a little bit. How could he hurt her like that? He got the same amount of sleep that night as he had been getting lately.

The next day he did his usual routine. When he got to school he tried to find Rachel, but he couldn't. She wasn't in glee either. So he just decided that he would find her tomorrow and apologize. But now that he was single he didn't have to worry about anyone but himself right now. But of course if Puck wanted to be with him it would be okay, but that would never happen.

After he got home and did what he usually did, collapse on his bed, he decided that he was going to confront Puck about the kiss and his feelings for him. It was a huge risk. He and Puck most likely wouldn't be friends ever again after it. And Puck would probably tell people and Finn would probably be bullied for the rest of high school. But he had to give it a shot, right?

So the next day, at the end of the day Finn got the courage to do it. He walked up to Puck.

"Hey man, what's up?" Puck asked, not seeing what was coming next.

To be continued...