Hello everyone! This is my very first fan fiction, and I'm a little nervous about it. This story will be decently long, I have a huge idea in my head and it's a giant mess waiting to be written down into words.

Warnings: Drug abuse, hardcore yaoi, language, abuse, semi non-con.

Chapter 1 is meant to make you question everything. I want to confuse people and make them want more.

Anyway, I'm super excited about this story. I've thought about it for awhile now, and I'm glad I'm finally getting to it. I will be updating whenever I feel like it, it could be everyday, weekly, whatever. I'll NEVER be later than 1 week.

Review and let me know if it's worth continuing!

PS: The smut will get more detailed with Alois. I wanted these to be kind of quick because ugh. Sorry. :) Enjoy.


"Alright, Phantomhive, you know the drill. I got places to be, so make it quick."

Ciel Phantomhive is an 18 year old living in New York. Currently on his knees ready to suck cock for an 8 ball. He still doesn't understand what brought him to this point, but even so, he's still an obedient fucking puppy ready for cock when it presents itself.

Ciel opens his mouth wide and plunges the cock down his throat, forcing his eyes to stay open and stare up at the owner of the cock with half lidded eyes, digging his nails into his thighs hard and begins bobbing his head, keeping a fast pace, while sloppily dragging his tongue along the think length.

"Nnngh, fuck, you're a fucking pro." The man groans out, tilting his head back. He runs his hand down and tangles his fingers into the black hair below him, roughly tugging on it and forcing the head to move even faster and hard, not even worrying about the health of the man on his cock.

Ciel snaps his eyes shut and whimpers as the cock slams down his throat roughly, starting to shake while trying his hardest not to gag each time the man makes him take every inch. With a loud groan he feels the thick liquid slide down his throat and he swallows it all up, opening his eyes and looking up at the man while he sucks and licks every drip up.

The man slides his cock out of the mouth, tucking it back into his pants and throws the coke at the young man and walks out the room without a word, leaving ciel a shaking mess, feeling slightly ashamed with himself. But Ciel has no time to worry about such an emotion and gets up off his knees and sits on the edge of his bed, staring at the coke.

With a sigh Ciel lines some of the coke onto his finger and snorts slowly, closing his eyes and relishes in the feeling that overcomes him soon after. Slowly he starts laying back, breathing short, shallow breaths. He jerks up quickly when his phone goes off, caller I.D revealing it's the man who was here not even 10 minutes ago.

"Yes, Sebastian?" Ciel says in a soft sultry tone, frowning a little because he's always uncomfortable speaking to his ex. It's even worse when he's forced to see him in order to get the drugs he requests.

"We're going to the club tonight, I need you to... Entertain.. Our guests. Some of my top buyers will be there, and I will give you a nice reward for helping me out tonight." He said in a tone that made it seem like there's no room to even decline.

Ciel perked up at the invitation, a huge grin forming onto his face. "Alright, no problem, Bash." He snickerd a little at the nickname, knowing all too well how irritated it made Sebastian when he said it.

"What the fuck ever, Ciel. Tonight, 8pm at Pirates Cove. Don't even be a minute late, or you'll made me pissed." Sebastian said, the next sentence coming out with a growl, and low, threatening, "And you know how I get when I'm pissed. Just look at your shoulder if you need a reminder." He hung up the phone, not giving Ciel anytime to reply, not that he could anyway. He just cringed at his words, letting out a shaky sigh and recomposed himself, standing up and going to the closet to pick out his outfit for tonight.


Finny entered Ciel's apartment with a loud slam of the front door, calling for Ciel extremely loud as usual.

"Ciel, baby, get your dirty asshole out here. I missed the fuck out of you today and you haven't texted me. Not even once. How dare you do this to me, I am a mess."

Ciel poked his head out from his bedroom and sighed at Finny, seeing him holding bags from clothing stores, a huge grin on his face as he spotted Ciel.

"Hey Finny, sorry. Sebastian was... over and he needs me to do him a favor in an hour, and I was having trouble finding a good outfit. All my shit's fucking not good enough for this. I need to look slutty, but a classy slutty, you feel me? Please feel me."

Finny raised an eyebrow and frown a little, knowing full well what a visit from Sebastian meant. His friend has had this problem for a year now, and everytime his name got mentioned, he fumed. He's learned to control his anger, but he imagined in his head killing Sebastian in the most graphic manner ever to exist.

"It's alright, babe. I got you, I just bought something that might exactly fit what you're looking for. I also picked you up a little something, because it practically screamed your name when I looked at it."

Finny pulled out a royal blue eye patch, 100% silk, with a silver laced border. It matched his eye color perfectly. Ciel smiled hugely at his bestfriend, slipping off his current eye patch, taking a deep breath to ease his anxiety from taking it off in front of someone, even if it is Finny, he's never quite comfortable with someone knowing what lays underneath. Especially when he's supposed to ooze sex appeal, even when he's fucking sleeping.

Finny smiled back and gently put it on Ciel, tying it tightly and took a good look at his friend's face. It was beautiful. It matched his eye color perfectly, and his pale smooth skin was highlighted from the splash of blue.

"Perfect! Now! Outfit time! It matches what you described that you needed perfectly."

He reached into the bag and pulled out a black long sleeve v neck shirt with a grayed out skull in the middle of it, gray skinny jeans that had rips in front and a little bit below the ass, to help highlight the feature. He threw them at Ciel and giggled a little.

"Go put these on and come out so I can fix it up a little bit, to show off more of your skin, my cute little booboo."

Ciel rolled his eye and went into his room, slipping on the clothes quickly and came out of the room slowly, a smirk on his face as he swayed his hips a little, giggling as he watched Finny grin and bust out laughing at his attempt to look sexy.

"Come here, dork." Finny grabbed Ciel's hand and pulled him to him, looking him over, rubbing his chin as he thought. He slowly rolled up Ciel's sleeves half way, letting them rest right above his elbow, pulling the shirt up a little more, revealing more of Ciel's hips. He smiled and looked into Ciel's eye.

"Look at yourself, you look sexy as fuck. I would fuck you if I didn't know you." He laughed as Ciel shot him a deathly glare.

"I have to get going. I can't be late. He... Doesn't like that. I love you, Finny. I'll call you when I get home, alright? You're welcome to stay here if you want." Ciel grabbed his sweater and went for the door, but stopped when a hand wrapped firmly around his wrist. He was pulled to Finny and felt arms tightly wrap around his waist, his friend burying his face into his neck.

"Ciel, please be careful tonight. You know I don't like him, it makes me worry. I'm constantly in fear. What if he hurts you again? I don't want you hurt, I wish you'd listen to me and stay away from this.. You're my bestfriend, Ciel. I can't lose you."

Finny sighed softly, kissing the neck so gentle that Ciel barely felt it, and looked into his eye with a pleading look.

"Finny I'll be fine. So let me go, yeah? I'll always come back to you, you know that."

Ciel wiggled out of the embrace and exited the house, shutting the door firmly behind him, leaving a frowning and worried Finny behind.


Ciel stared at the club entrance, sighing softly as he prepared himself and made himself look confident, smile on his face, and entered the club like he fucking owned the place, his hands in his pockets as he looked around for Sebastian.

He spotted the extremely tall figure in a booth, surrounded by what looked like underage boys. Ciel scoffed and walked up to him, putting all of his sass into his walk.

"Every time I see you, the boys around you keep getting younger and younger. Babysitting now? Pretty fucking disgusting."

Sebastian shot Ciel a look that sent shivers down Ciel's spine, but despite that, he smirked and kept himself from looking slightly frightened.

"The buyers will be here soon. Take your jacket off and sit down. I brought some shit, also drinks are on me. Get prepared, yeah? You're better when you're fucked up." He smirked, knowing that was a blow to Ciel's sexual confidence.

"Fuck you, Bash. I'm good sober or not. I work dick like a fucking magician. I never see your ass fucking complain whenever you decide to relive your fucking memories, dumb fuck. You're lucky you have a big dick or I wouldn't even let you near my ass or mouth."

Sebastian waved him off and stood up, walking up to greet the 3 men walking towards the booth where they sat. Ciel eyed them, cringing at their looks. 'Looks like I'll be pretending to feel good. These guys look fucking disgusting.' Ciel thought as he heard one of them laugh and shot Ciel a look that looked like he was going to ravage him. He wore glasses, had black hair tucked behind his ears, very tall, was wearing semi formal clothes, and had piercing gold eyes.

Ciel shivered as the man kept his eyes on him. Ciel decided to play it off and bit his lip, looking the man directly in his eyes as he lightly traced his inner thigh, smirking a little when the man looked away quickly, clenching his fists to his side.

"Ciel, these are the guys I was talking about. You'll be entertaining Claude tonight." He pointed at the man that was previously watching him. "Do be a good boy, yeah?"

Ciel stood and walked over to the man slowly, locking eyes with him as he swayed his hips a little, licking his lips and put on his most charming and seductive smile he could muster up.

"Hello, Claude. Let's get you entertained, yeah?" Ciel grabbed his hand and let the man to the back room, slipping into a corner and looked up at the tall man, running his hands slowly down his chest, and slipped his fingers into the man's belt loops, tugging him closer to him.

The man instantly attacked Ciel's neck, kissing and licking it, but careful not to leave marks, grunting when he heard Ciel moan under his breath, tilting his head to the side to give the man more access, while he unbuttoned the man's pants, shoving his pants and boxers down in one quick swoop.

Ciel felt warm breath against his ear, a husky whisper following it. "Turn around. I don't want to look at you when I fuck you."

Ciel closed his eyes and sighed quietly to himself and obeyed, turning around and placing his chest against the wall as the man quickly pulled his pants and boxers off.

Ciel yelped as he felt a hard slap to his ass, feeling a painful sting afterwords. 'God, is no one original anymore? Always an ass slapper or someone who digs tying me up.' Ciel thought, not even in the slightest turned on by this man.

Claude roughly tugged Ciel's ass cheeks apart, dragging his wet tip along the tight hole hard, slapping it, pushing the tip inside and back out before slamming his cock all the way inside the hole without preperation or warning, groaning at the tight heat that squeezed around his aching member, leaning his head back and closing his eyes tightly. Giving no time to adjust, he quickly started fucking Ciel, shoving all of his length inside with each thrust into the warm heat.

"Sh-SHIT. FUCK." Screamed Ciel in pain, closing his eyes tight as he desperately tried to calm his breathing. He always hated this shit. He liked rough sex, but bearing through this pain was the worst. He hasn't felt pleasure from sex in quite awhile. It didn't bother him, though. He was so used to be used that it felt natural. Like he assumed this was all sex was, rough and uncaring.

Claude tangled his fingers in the black hair and yanked it back hard, biting on the male's shoulder hard as he slammed his hips back and forth with so much force that Ciel was slamming into the wall hard like a rag doll, barely able to stand from the force.

Ciel faked moaned loudly and boringly as he was pounded into with the most force he's ever expierenced. Wincing a little as felt like he was being torn in two. He clenched his ass hard to hurry up the process so he can get this over with, and moaned Claude's name loudly to help the man get off. This was just feeling like a chore at this point.

Claude let out a loud growl as he thrusted violently two more times, cumming a fuck ton into the tight heat, digging his nails roughly into the male's ass as he did, breathing hard. He quickly slipped out and pulled his pants and boxers back on, giving a smirk at Ciel as he walked off, leaving the male behind.

Ciel sighed loudly and made himself presentable again. 'When was the last time I even cummed, holy fuck.' He was meant to be used. It was all he was good for, that's what he was raised to believe anyway. His parent's words constantly rang in his head, and it dictated his self worth. Not that he cared anymore, all he felt anymore was boredom and the slight fear from his menacing ex boyfriend.

"You're a piece of shit, that's all you are. You're meant to be used and stomped all over. You're nothing, absolutely nothing to us, or anyone for that matter. Why don't you just fucking disappear you fucking mistake?"

Ciel laughed at the old, old words as he walked back into the busy part of the club and looked around, stretching a little as he checked out the men dancing.

His heart stopped when he glanced over to a certain male. He had pale white skin, blonde hair down to his jawline, gorgeous blue eyes, and wore the hottest outfit he's ever seen. The blonde wore black boots that went up to just under his knees, short shorts, making it to where you can see milky pale thighs, and he wore a black ripped up shirt. He was basically oozing sex appeal, but also innocence.

'Holy fucking fuck. That is the sexiest boy I've ever seen.'