Author Notes: Each Chapter is told from either Alex's or Maggie's Point-of-View. There maybe some overlap on scenes since each character may experience the same thing, but it will be told from each different perspective. This story starts right before the " I love you" scene. Warning for mentions of a possible sexual assault(not a graphic description but it is mentioned) See end of chapter for additional notes.

Chapter One: Maggie's POV

Turning that corner and seeing her floating there, seemingly lifeless was something that I know will haunt me for a long time. It replays in my mind like a broken record, reminding me even hours later than we had come so close to losing her. She was so cold, and pale almost blue. We made it by seconds.

I shiver at the thought and stare harder out the med bay window, watching the other agents scurry around, trying to find an excuse to wander by the window, to take a look at how their field commander was doing without stopping their work. I always knew that my girlfriend was well loved and respected by her team both in her lab and out in the field, but seeing her new class of rookies standing guard outside of her room, making sure that nothing else happened to her, makes me want to cry again.

You are an amazing person, Alex Danvers. I wish you only knew how many lives you have saved and change, and how many people you've touched. What would they all do without you? What would I do without you? I feel the tears start to come again. Don't go there, Maggie. She's alive. She held on.

The room is quiet behind me, except for the sound of her raspy breathing and the beeps of the monitors as they keep track of her vitals. She has been asleep for a couple of hours now, and the doctors are letting her rest before they run more tests.

Alex's oxygen level is back within normal levels and seems stable for the moment so they've removed her mask just a few moments ago, but her temperature is still down. They've adjusted the temperature of the room to help, and they put a warming blanket on her to hopefully get her temperature back to normal, but no matter what it's going to be a long night.

They have a couple of tests to run, to make sure that she didn't suffer any brain damage or lose any function due to the several minutes she was without oxygen, they also want to make sure that she isn't going to have lung impairment because of this. Dr. Hamilton also warned me that they also have to conduct a sexual assault examination, because of her being kidnapped and the fact that Rick confessed to stalking her. I know it's proper procedure in cases like these, but it doesn't make it any better.

I'm going to kill him if he touched her, and I know no one here would stop me. J'onn informed me that he has sent a couple of agents including Winn to check out our apartments and Kara's for cameras and microphones. It makes me sick that the bastard has been watching us, watching her for over a year. That he might have seen things, private moments that Alex and me, not to mention Kara wouldn't have wanted anyone else to see.

Images flash in my mind of the important events that have in our relationship that happened in Alex's apartment. Our first kiss as a couple, which turned into our first make out session. The first time I made her dinner was there, and that turned into our first time making love. Then our first make up from our first big fight. Our valentine's date argument, and our after "prom" celebration. Her breaking down over her dad. Her finding out about Emily, and still wanting me anyway. The thoughts make me angrier, but at the same time, these memories remind me of how much I love her, and how much I'm looking forward to the rest of a lifetime of firsts with her.

"Hey you." Alex's voice is quiet and not quite back to normal, but it is the second most beautiful sound in the world at the moment. (With the first being the sound of her coughing when we found her, coughing meant breathing and breathing meant she was alive.) I can't help but smile as I turn around and go to her.

"Hey." I reply. She still looks pale and tired, but her eyes are bright and full of life.

"You ok?" She asks me seriously, her eyes checking me over. The question makes me love her more, because her first thought is always other people. When I first met her, I just thought that it was her training as an agent, as a soldier that made her that way, but then I realized that is just how she is. I feel tears start to come again, because I'm not ok, but I will them away. This isn't about you Maggie, she almost died.

"Am I ok? Are you kidding?" I tell her, moving in closer to sit next to her, to hold her hands (gently, they are a little bruised), where they are resting on her belly. She is still a little cold, and her fingers hold on to me with a little less strength than they normally do. The way she looks at me though makes my heart melt, as if I'm the only thing that matters in the whole world right now.

"That was really clever, with the whole Navy Seal thing with your pants. What was that?" I tease her, She laughs and it makes me laugh. It really was a badass move, topped only by the fact that she cut her tracker out using only a broken credit card. I will never again complain, when you have to go away for a weekend for your training. It kept you around long enough for us to find you.

"Well, I knew I had to buy just a couple of seconds." Alex pauses to take a quick breath. "I knew you were coming." She says it with such assurance and her faith in me astounds me. It always has. I blush and drop my head, and when I look back up, her eyes meet mine once more.

She takes a deep breath, as she continues. "You didn't let me finish before, but I um…" she takes another breath and swallows audibly. I know that her throat is sore from swallowing all of that water, and from coughing.

"What?" I ask her, a part of me wanting to tell her to just be quiet and to just relax and another part of me feels like my world has finally come back together at the sound of her voice. I thought I would never hear it again.

"I just really have to say it now…" Suddenly I can feel her body move under me as she tries to sit up.

"Alex, Alex. Just be careful..." I whisper, gently trying to discourage her from moving. I'm scared it's going to hurt her more. I know that her muscles are stiff from swimming for hours in the cold water, and that her chest has to hurt like hell from almost drowning, but she sits up anyway.

"It's ok, It's ok." She assures me, even though I can see that she's in pain, as she grunts and breathes heavily for a moment. I lay a hand on her arm, supporting her as I shift to make more room. Her skin still has a chill, and I caress my fingers over her arm to warm her up.

"Okay." Alex says, and she looks so serious. "Those firsts that you talked about…"

"Yeah?" I nod encouraging her to continue. In my heart, I already know what she is going to say, but I need to hear it out loud, for it to be real and not just something that imagined or dreamed. She's crying now as she talks.

"I want to have them all with you, I never want to stop having firsts with you. I love you Maggie Sawyer." She lifts up her hand and moves my hair back so we can see each other, and she cups my cheek in her palm.

Despite our surroundings and our current circumstances, I have never felt happier. I've always wanted to hear those words and to know it my heart that it was real. That this thing between us it isn't just good friendship (although that's a big part of it) or lust (the sex is phenomenal by the way) but it's that she loves me for me, for my good moments and even somehow my past mistakes. And I feel the same way about her. There are tears in my eyes now.

"I love you, Alex Danvers." Her smile is so big and so bright, that I'm sure it could have re-charged one of her badass yellow sun grenades.

"Yeah?" She whispers, needed the reassurance that I am more than happy to give her.

"Yeah." I whisper back, and then she kisses me and it is the sweetest kiss I've ever had, because love makes everything better. I remember the first time we did this back in the bar, when she first came out. I was so scared of messing everything up, I didn't want to risk the heartache of being rejected again, of not being loved. Now as I feel her lips on mine, I know that I don't feel that way any more, and while it's too soon to say it to her, I can say it in my thoughts. I know that I have found more than love with you, Alex Danvers, I've found the future.

Alex pulls away first, and I know it's because she has to take a breath. But she doesn't move away, instead she rest her forehead on mine and looks into my eyes, and we hold each other for a long while, just enjoying the moment and each other's presence.

The sound of Dr. Hamilton clearing her throat, suddenly reminded me that we aren't the only people here, but I'm too happy to care that the Doctor and her techs were witnesses to our moment. I look up to see her smiling at us, mirth in her eyes, to see one of her favorite agents so happy. Then she blinks and the emotion is gone replaced by her concern and she turns to Alex.

"I'm glad you're awake, Agent Danvers. We've held off a couple of tests, so that you could have time to rest, but we need to get started with them." She turns to me though and winks. "I think we should be ok to skip the cognitive test, her motor skills seem to be working fine." I blush, and Alex's blushes. "But Detective Sawyer, I'm going to need you to step out, while we do this." She holds up a finger to stop Alex's protest. I had already anticipated this, and as much as I didn't want to be away from Alex so soon after almost losing her, I understood why the doctor didn't want me in here.

"It's ok, Alex. I'm should probably to go talk to Kara anyway." I lean over to kiss her, and then pull away. She grabs my hand, and I can feel her shaking. "It's ok, babe. I promise I'll be right back."

She nods and pulls herself together, and as I walk out of the med bay, Dr. Hamilton sends one of her techs with me.

"Detective?" He says, making me stop.

"What's up…" I pause and look at the name on his uniform. "Agent Martinez?"

"Dr. Hamilton wanted me to go with you. She's a bit concerned about you as well. I've been instructed to go find you some food. Anything in particular you would like?' He asks nervously.

I sigh, I'm not really hungry, but then again, I can't remember the last time I ate. "How about some pizza? That way everybody can have some not just me."

Agent Martinez nods and is about to leave, when I call him back. "Agent?'

"Ma'am?" He stands at attention in a way, that I've seen Alex do many times and it makes me smile.

"Do you think the Doctor would clear Alex to have some soup? I'm sure she's hungry, but I don't know if she's up to swallowing pizza just yet?'

He pauses for a moment, then presses a button behind his ear and speaks into it, quietly. A few seconds later he nods his head.

"Dr. Hamilton says it's ok, I'll bring some back… Anything in particular Agent Danvers would like?' He asks shyly. I pick up on the fact that young agent in front of me has a bit of a crush on my girlfriend, and I can't blame him one bit.

"Chicken noodle is her favorite, And thank you, I'll be sure to tell Agent Danvers that you were the one who got it for her." I say ,with a wink.

He blushes, then gives me the biggest smile I've ever seen, and disappears quickly around the corner.

I know that I should go find Kara and apologize to her for the things that I said, but I'm not really ready for that yet. Instead, I find myself wondering the DEO hallways, until I end up in Alex's lab. I enter, and the door closes behind me, and I take deep breath in.

Despite it's sterilization and spartan decor, the room is comforting. I can feel her presence in here, from the complex equations on the whiteboard in her handwriting, to the order of how things are set up in her supplies(her pantry is set up in a similar way, as is her sock drawer), I can see her everywhere. I move over to her desk chair, and pick up the lab coat she has strung along the back of it. I hold it to my nose, it smells like her, a mixture of gun oil, disinfectant,and a scent that is strictly her. She smells like home.

I can feel the tears start to come now, the tears of fear and sorrow, that I've held back for this long. I hug the lab coat to my chest, and sink down into her chair, and sob. I don't know how long I've been crying, but I about fall off the chair in startlement, when a hand touches my shoulder. I look up through watery eyes to see J'onn kneeling next to me.

"It's ok." He says quietly. I feel a bit embarrassed being found crying by Alex's boss, but then he gently reaches down a grabs my hand. "It's ok." He repeats. "She's alive and safe. You did good Maggie."

I take a deep breath, and laugh quietly. "I almost broke a prisoner out of prison. Isn't that like high on the not to do list?"

He laughs unexpectedly. "Alex broke Astra, Kara's aunt out of here, in order to save me one time, even though our policy is that we don't negotiate with terrorists. I think you fit in around here."

"Is that a job offer? Because once my captain finds out what I almost did, I'm screwed."

J'onn smiles. "You have a standing offer to join us whenever you want. Not just because you are a brilliant police officer, and you work well in high risk situations, but you are also the one person besides maybe Kara that can calm Alex down." I laugh because it's true. He continues. "But I know how much being a police officer in this community means to you, I've spoken with your Captain and told him you were under my orders when you were breaking Thompson out, in hopes that if news of the jailbreak spread, Rick would have to let Alex go. But luckily you didn't have to get him far, because Thompson was the one who told us where to find Alex. You do have to fill out a bunch of paperwork eventually for 'borrowing a few of our alien tech' but your job isn't not in trouble."

I let out a sigh of relief, and I looked up to meet his eyes. "Thank you." I said, making sure he knew how much I meant it.

"You're welcome. Just keep taking good care of your girl, and yourself ok?" I nod, feeling the tears want to start up again. "Speaking of your girl, Dr.Hamilton sent me to find you, there are done with the tests and She would like to speak with you." The semi-happy mood I was in, evaporates, as I suddenly remember what tests they had run. I'm not sure what I dread more, hearing that something might be physically or mentally wrong with her, or hearing that he touched her. J'onn squeezes my shoulder gently.

"It's going to be alright, Maggie." I look up at him.

"You know already don't you?" He looks away.

"I promised the Doctor I was would hold on off on saying anything until you were with her. She needs to be the one that you need to talk to for Alex's sake. She can explain everything better than I can."

I feel angry and worried, and I stand up quickly, only J'onn's Martian reflexes prevent him from falling over. I don't look back at him as I run from the room.

Author's Notes:

So I don't own these characters, CBS and the CW do. This is my FanFiction for this fandom, so let me know what you think. I don't have a beta so any mistakes are my own.