How It All Began
Long, blonde hair surrounds me like a golden halo. Bright brown eyes full of sorrow looked back at me through the gleaming mirror, like beautiful chocolate orbs. An elegant white dress flowed freely around my slim body. This was the day of my reckoning after all. The day I wed a man who I no longer love. This was the day I married Gray Fullbuster. This was not how my life was supposed to turn out. Today, I should be standing with the man I love. Natsu Dragneel. All stories have a beginning, and this is mine.
It was a cool spring morning when I met him. After a long, sweet morning with my boyfriend Gray, I had gone for my morning jog. Usually Gray would join me, but today he decided to remain at home and make us breakfast. I didn't mind though. As I was passing through my favorite park, I had run into a chiseled chest. I had been so distracted by the parks scenery that I didn't notice the man jogging towards me. He had spiky pink hair (weird, I know), dark onyx eyes that bore right into my heart and soul, and a blinding smile. He had helped me stand up, and started an easy conversation with me. We sat on the parks dingy swings and talked for what felt like hours. We finally parted ways when Gray called me declaring breakfast was ready. Our jogging encounter haunted me for the rest of the week. Who was this strange man? Then, we met again on another jog. This soon became a daily encounter as we developed an easy friendship. This man was Natsu, the most charming, loyal, yet still childish man I had ever met. As our friendship grew, we would enjoy each others company outside of that simple park. We became best friends, inseparable. Gray hated that. And Natsu hated him. But I didn't care, they were both important to me. Somewhere in this friendship I fell in love with Natsu. He became the love of my life, but I wasn't the love of his. Natsu was engaged to a girl with eyes as blue as the ocean, and hair as white as fresh snow. The only work he could describe her with was beautiful. Due to this, I remained loyal to Gray. He loved me, he was sweet, kind, and handsome. But to me he would never be my Natsu.
Years later, Natsu and I were still best friends, but he was happily married. He would always make time for me, but it broke my heart to know he was happily married to another woman. So, I had begun to push him away. Instead of seeing him every day, we would talk once a week. He knew something was wrong with me, but never knew what. Don't get me wrong, I was happy with Gray. He kept me safe, made me feel protected, and treated me like a princess. He really loved me, but I still couldn't bring myself to love him. He had proposed to me under the stars, and I said yes. I honestly didn't want to. I wasn't ready. But, I knew that if I said no he would leave me. Then I would have been alone. At the time I had convinced myself that being with Gray was better than being alone. Months past, and we still couldn't agree on a wedding date. Gray tried, but I just couldn't decide. He wanted to be with me, so he waited and waited. But I was so afraid of marrying him. Afraid he would find out i didn't love him. Afraid he would try and take away my best friend. I needed Natsu in my life, but if Gray learned I loved him he would do whatever it took to eliminate Natsu. Somehow, things still managed to take a turn for the worse. Natsu and his wife began fighting. She accused him of cheating with me, something that was impossible. He loved her. But I was a fool. I invited Natsu to our park to talk. We once again had sat upon those stupid swings, and discussed life. He told me he was unsure if he still loved her, and I told him I had never loved Gray. The more we talked, the harder it was for me to contain my feelings. And as the night grew colder, I confessed. God, I was so stupid. Who knew a simple confession would take away the only man I loved. When I told him, I said I would leave Gray, I would run away with Natsu, I would do anything for him. But he was a fool as well. He kissed me. The kiss was filled with passion, and took my breath away. Sounds like the perfect love story right? Wrong. He was toying with my feelings. Giving me a taste of what a love with him held. Then, told me that he couldn't be with me. That maybe in another story we could be together. That I was to precious for him. We looked at each other for a long time after that. Dark clouds forming above us. Neither moved. Neither said anything. We just stared at each other. I knew that was the last time I would ever see those eyes I loved so much. I couldn't take it anymore. Without another word, I got up and walked away.
I cried that night for the first time in a long time. Something kept telling me to go back, to say sorry, to fix what had been broken. But that's the funny thing about glass. Once it shatters, no amount of glue could put it back together. And I had a heart of glass. Transparent, beautiful, and easily shattered. How could I ever face him again? How could I face myself? Those thoughts plagued me. Natsu tried calling me, visiting me, any way of contacting me. But I had ignored all of his calls, I never answered the door. Gray didn't seem to notice my broken smile. He was just so happy to see Natsu was out of my life. Then, we set the wedding date. I had thought the sooner I married Gray the sooner I could forget Natsu. The wedding was scheduled for a year later, On the day of the cherry blossom festival. We were to be wed under the grand cherry blossom tree. The one that bloomed with colors of the rainbow once a year. The one Natsu and I had seen just a few weeks sooner. Eventually Natsu stopped calling. He just vanished. But I couldn't forget him.
And now, here we are. back to in front of this mirror, alone. Broken. I still haven't seen Natsu. This is what I wanted right? But why do I feel alone. I dreamed today would be the day I married him. The day his beautiful smile was shining from his love for me. I feel like a princess. Not one from your average fairy tale though. One who loved the Dragon who protected her tower. One who had him ripped away and replaced with a prince. Not every princess wants the prince. And I sure as hell don't. Gray is so good to me. I can be happy with him. But i'll never love him. Not the way I love Natsu. As bells chime in the distance, I know it's time. As I begin to walk, I begin to let go of all these empty feelings. Every step is like one on burning coals, painful. I slowly begin to cry. The guest assume they are tears of happiness, but they are tears for Natsu. For him rejecting me. For him leaving me here. For him leaving me alone. I know its time to let him go, but I just cant. Every step, closer to fate. Closer to the end. I see Gray, his smile shining through all the darkness around me. I can pretend to be happy for him. This means more to him. He wants this shell of a bride. As I reach this unwanted groom I hear my name screamed through the trees. The rainbow petals flutter around me as I turn around. My heart beats rapidly as I see him. His hair a mess, his dark eyes, the essance of perfection.
"Natsu..." I whisper
"Lucy" He growls with a husky voice, no hint of his usual smile. " We both know you don't want this.. You want me. You love me. And I love you."
Tears stream from my eyes. My heart still not processing the situation I was in.
Natsu's intense gaze pierced me as he growled once more, louder this time, "Lucy... I love you".
That's it for this chapter!
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Sorry it sounds so sad! But this is a story of love after all ;)
