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Summary: He loved her. She hated him. However, what happens when an event causes him to change? Moreover, she notices and falls in love with him. Two problems occur: 1. He sinks into a depression and pushes everyone away. 2. He loses interest in her. Will Lily and his friends help him rise up from his depression? In addition, will Lily stop acting bitchy and listen to her heart? Read and Review!
"Hey Prongs!" Prongs turned around to see two boys run up to him. These three boys made up the group called the Marauders
James Potter was the leader of their group. He was 6'2 and was quite muscular, which came with years of playing quiddicth. He had messy black hair, which girls thought sexy. Moreover, his eyes were the strangest color; they were a dark hazel that seemed never ending, however, if you looked closely, you could see flecks of purple, which offset the darker color nicely.
Next came Sirius Black, co-leader and the ladies man. Sirius had shoulder length black hair and ocean blue eyes. He was an inch shorter than James was and was also quite muscular, which came from years of playing beater on the quidditch team.
Finally, there was Remus Lupin, the nice, quiet one. He had chocolate brown hair and amber eyes. He was the thoughtful, considerate one that all girls thought was cute. He was quite muscular as well, but he was also very pale. He was 6 feet and he was a werewolf.
All together, they were the Marauders. They had never kept secrets from each other…until now.
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"Hey Padfoot"James said, hoping beyond hope that his friends did not notice his changes. Unbeknownst to his friends, James had spent three weeks in St. Mungo's being treated for depression and attempted suicide. Luckily, he convinced his parents to send him back to Hogwarts and they had promised not to tell anyone about his condition. Today was his first day out since the whole ordeal began.
"How was your summer?" Remus asked
"Uh...it was great…I got to go." James said as he boarded the train, leaving his friends behind.
"What just happened?" Sirius asked, looking at the place where James once stood
"I don't know but something's wrong, he looked different." Remus said looking thoughtful.
"Yeah, well, why are we just standing here? Let's go find him," Sirius said before he boarded the train, closely followed by Remus
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"Potter! What are you doing here?" Lily Evans asked as she saw James enter the head compartment.
"I'm head boy." James answered monotonously, which took Lily by surprise.
"Pfft…. yeah right, now who's the real head boy?" Lily asked looking past James.
James eyes flashed with anger and he said rather coldly "I am, whether you like it or not"
Lily just narrowed her eyes and said "Fine."
After the meeting, James was the first to leave. He went to the bathroom and locked it with a locking charm. He took a deep breath and examined himself in the mirror. It was quite evident that he did not eat much since his face was slightly gaunt and all the emotional stress that happened over the summer made his hazel eyes seem dead. Luckily, nobody noticed the changes in James Potter and he hoped it stayed that way.
Sighing, James took out a razor blade, pulled up his sleeve, and examined the scars that were already present on his arm already.
"At least you inflicted this pain," a voice said in his head "Maybe it's better than the pain you receive from everyone else."
"No, just go away, why you can't just go away?" James thought desperately. This voice was the one that convinced James to start cutting himself. It convinced him that the pain he received from his friends and family was bad enough to bleed over, to die over. This ominous voice blew every tiny thing out of proportion and made him forget that most of the pains, if at all existent, were minor and easily forgotten.
"Because, James, I'm here to help you," the voice said, "I'm here to take the pain away, and by doing that you must push everyone away…isolate yourself from everyone."
"Who are you?" James asked before putting the blade on his arm
"You can call me Tom," the voice said as James slashed his arm, causing blood to flow immediately. He gasped at the pain, but almost instantly, the pain faded to be replaced by an icy numbness. He heard banging, notifying that someone wanted to use the bathroom, he did a simple cleaning spell, and he tore a piece of his robe and wrapped his wrist with it and made sure that his robes concealed his injuries. With that, he left the bathroom but before he got far someone got a hold of his injured wrist. James flinched and wrenched his wrist from the person grip.
Without turning, he said coldly "Don't touch me."
"Whoa, James, it's just us" he heard Sirius say.
"This is your first test." Tom said as James tensed as he remembered what Tom had said:
"They only want you for your popularity"
"They don't care about you"
"Not even Evans"
"Not even your parents"
"They all want to hurt you"
"At least you inflicted this pain, not them."
"Isolate yourself from them before they hurt you more."
"You don't have any friends"
"I'm the only you can trust"
"I know." James said coldly before leaving. He could imagine the looks of hurt on Sirius and Remus' face.
"It's for the best." Tom said
End of Chapter
A/n: what you think? Sorry for the short chapter. Moreover, I know you guys already know who tom is or do you? Read and review! In addition, I would like to thank my newly found beta reader for this story Tearlit! Thankx a bunch!
