Chapter 1:

My thoughts came rushing at me in less than a millisecond as I met eyes with Sam Uley from across the street. I could see how my life will change in the next year. It was like my body was being enveloped in a new life, seeing myself as I changed as if a dream. But I knew this isn't a dream and I could see what was happening. I saw myself, but…mature. Right now I am 17, but in the vision or dream, I am much older, more filled out. I had gotten all of my woman curves and I was…well beautiful. My hair had been chopped to my chin and I had a sadness to me. I was barely wearing any clothing and I stood next to the man across from me, Sam Uley. Along with his two disciples Paul and Jarred. Sam looked at me with pride in the dream, and Paul watched me with love and adoration. What scared me was that I saw myself leaving my family and friends for these people across from me.

They were with him across the street, but I only saw Sam. I could see myself with them, as if I am going to join them. Around here they're known as the La Push cult. Their real sneaky and very creepy if you ask me, but yet I had always thought of them as graceful and sacrificial. My thoughts were racing at what I had seen and I felt Embry grab my hand and tug me to the car. Embry is my half brother. We share the same mom, but I was born before him and I was conceived when our mom came to La Push on a camping trip with her best friend. She found a cute guy and baboom I was created. I couldn't say anyone actually knew. The resemblance between Embry and I totally screamed that we were blood. But we both look like our mother. We have the same nose, lips, and hair color.

Embry doesn't exactly know we have different fathers, nor does anyone in this town except my mom and I. And we would like to keep it that way. It felt too private to tell anyone. Everyone in the Res thinks we have the same father, but we don't. I was born about two years before him. And my mom came to La Push when she was pregnant with him. We moved into a small house and we lived in La Push since then. Embry and I are real close, we are best friends. We both have two good friends Jacob and Quil. Embry is 15, as well as Quil and Jacob, and I am 17. I didn't really like being older. I didn't like being old period. I didn't like that I have a lot of responsibility. Although it came with a lot of perks. No curfew, I don't have to come home every night and I don't have to check in.. In a few short months I get my own place.

But even when I was young, I had to take care of Embry. Mom works a lot. And I was always older, so I had to make sure he was fed, showered, homework was done, stuff like that. Although I didn't really care since we were basically best friends. And now we are best friends, inseparable along with Jake and Quil. Sam and Paul starred at me from the other side of the street and I felt a weird stinging feel in my head. I could see Paul watching me intently and I felt Embry pull me to the car. I followed hesitantly and I jumped into the driver side of our old SUV and drove back to Jake's. We had to pick up so more sodas for the garage and I now we have to go back. I had offered to go alone, but now I am glad Embry made me let him come. I am sure I would have run across the street and confronted them.

"What was that back there! You were about to run across the street into traffic!" He yelled at me. I starred intently at the road and I kept my hands locked on the wheel. I kept replaying everything I saw, and I couldn't stop. I could hear Embry ranting about how stupid it was and how immature it was and how I need to act my age. I could feel my anger peeking and I hate this. I could feel a sudden heat in my body but I took deep breaths and centered myself. This really didn't seem like Em. He never acted like this, like such a…father. I could hear his voice only slightly as I thought of that kid Paul. I had only seen him once or twice around school before he just dropped. He didn't show up for a while, then he came back completely changed. He had short hair and he defiantly didn't seem himself since he completely buffed up.

"Embry please! I didn't even know I was doing it! Stop treating me like a little kid, I am the adult here. I am 17 you are 15, I can make my own choices!" I screamed as I looked over at him. I heard a loud beep as I looked up. Embry screamed my name and I looked up. A truck was coming right for us. I swerved and managed to manervuer out of the way alive. I pulled over and I took a deep breath, I could see Embry doing the same. I looked over at him with clenched teeth. "From now on, when I drive, you shush."

"You almost killed us! What has gotten into you." He yelled. I let my head fall back and I whimpered. I didn't know what was coming over me, but this isn't normal. I have never let anything affect me like this. Ever. I am always the cool and collected one. Never the irrational one. I felt Embry put a hand on my arm. I looked up and this time it was my brother, my best friend, not the missing father neither of us had. "Listen, Tal, maybe…we shouldn't tell anyone about this, until you figure out what really happened back there."

"That's a good idea." I sighed as I carefully pressed down on the gas pedal and the car went slowly forward. We drove in a comfortable silence to Jake's house. And when I pulled into the driveway I shut the car off and grabbed the bag full of cans and walked with Embry to the garage. I saw Quil and Jake sitting under the car trying to fix something. I left the sodas on the side and sat in one of the old metal chairs on the side. I could hear Billy inside talking to someone and I snuck out of the garage and walked through the front door. I saw Charlie, or Chief Swan, with Billy and Charlie's daughter Bella sitting in his cramped kitchen. They all looked up when I walked in and I smiled and waved. Charlie jumped up and gave me a big hug. I saw Bella staring at him like he had grown 3 heads. I walked over to Billy and hugged him gently.

"Hello, Charlie. It's nice to see you again." I said politely as I looked over at Bella and smiled brightly. I had always hung out with Bella when I real young, till I was about 14 when she stopped coming to Forks during the summer. I am about 3 months older than Bella. My birthday being June12th. We had defiantly been close, but when she stopped coming I depended more heavily on Embry because I didn't know many kids my own age. Bella had been like a sister I never had and I knew one day she would come back to Forks. I walked over and hugged her tightly and she smiled sincerely. I knew Bella is a junior this year along with me. Jake and Quil and Embry are sophomores.

"Hey, Tala, it's nice to see you again. How long has it been since we talked? Like 3 years?" She said as she hugged me tightly. This time it was Charlie looking at her weird. I had always known they had a hard time expressing their feelings but I had broken that barrier long ago. I was good with stuff like that. And ever since Bella left 3 summers ago I would go over to Charlie's about once a week to cook for him and make sure he was properly fed. But when Bella came back she took over my job and I didn't need to come anymore. Although I still dropped by when Bella is in school to say hi and see how he has been.

"Yea, just about." I sighed. I stepped back and leaned against the small counter across from the table. I could see Bella look uncomfortable as Charlie and Billy discussed Fishing and Harry Clearwater's fish fry. I just chuckled and pulled back over to the garage. She followed willingly but I pulled by her hand as I jogged over. She just laughed and followed behind. I threw open the door and everyone jumped and looked over. I saw Embry look over Bella and smirk. I gave him a disapproving look. I was surprised to say the least. Quil was always the more obvious one, always making passes. I could see that Jacob barely even looked at her as he starred at me, but I refused to meet his gaze.

"Guys, this is Bella Swan, she is Chief Swan's daughter." I said with a happy smile on my face. I could see Embry turn his head to me with the same look I gave him. I silently begged him to not to say anything about earlier before I figure it out myself. He sighed and shook Bella's hand, along with Quil and Jacob. Quil and Bella chatted on the side about random things as Embry pulled me aside to talk. Jacob was sitting in the driver side of the Rabbit as he cleaned the dust off. I could see him trying to strain to hear what we are talking about.

"Tala, What is going on with you? You could totally tell you were faking happy. Why is today eating at you so bad?" He asked as he kept a firm hand on my arm so I had to stay and answer. I sighed and I ran a shaky hand through my hair. I couldn't really say what is eating at me about it so bad. Is it Paul's creepy stare? The same stare he gives me at school? The freaky pull I felt for him? The need to be over with him, but having the weird pull to be here? The weird daydream I had about myself with Sam Uley, joining his cult? The weird warmth that thought gave me, of belonging? The real need to go with them so quickly that I was willing to leave my brother alone and forget my friends? I couldn't answer any of those questions, but I knew I couldn't tell him. Something about this felt way too private to tell even him. (Tala, like Nala from lion king, means wolf in Native American. Her full name is Tala Aiyana Call, which is Forever flowing; Eternal Blossom)

"Em, I can't even figure that out! I wish I could and I hate that this stupid little misshape is causing me to completely shut down! All I know is that this isn't something I am going to forget." I whisper/ yelled. I hated shutting Em out so quickly and so rudely and I could see he understood. That he had some stuff he didn't tell me, since all best friends do. He could see there was more to what I was saying, more to what I was admitting, but he took it, probably because he trusted me. I could see Jacob watching us now. He had a suspicious look on his face as he measured the hushed way we talked and angry expressions on our faces. Embry dropped his hand and just gave me a sad look as he gave me a sad hug and walked over to talk to Belle and Quil. Jacob motioned me over to sit with him. I sat quietly and leaned my head on his shoulder.

Something about this felt new to me. Although Jacob and I had always comforted each other. He pulled his arm around my waist and let me take deep breaths to relax. I could tell the others were completely oblivious to the little scene between us. Like we are in our own little bubble. Jacob had always had a schoolboy crush on me, and I had always felt flattered but I could never return it. And he had known that. But right now, I saw Jacob in a different light. Embry had always said he didn't want me with Jacob, which I had agreed. I didn't wanna seem like a cradle robber. Although I knew Embry would rather me with Jacob rather than Quil, who hadn't been subtle about his strange attraction for me. He made constant passes and constantly flirted, although I was the bigger person and had kindly told him he was too young.

Jacob was another story. He had always been shy, and never really tried to advance on me. He was easy, he understood I didn't want more than friendship. And he was still there and always let me just cry when I needed to. But right now. I saw Jacob different. He looked way more mature and he seemed too old for his age. I could see that he was content with letting me just sit next to him and relax after the constant questions Em put in my head. But it was all in the back of my head as I looked up at Jacob through my lashes. I could see the childlike sincere look on his face. I could subconsciously feel myself lean my head up and look down at his lips. I could see him look surprised. But I didn't pay attention. Even though I am 17 and he's 15, he's a good 4 inches taller than me.

I saw him lean down. We were only a second from touching when I heard Chief Swan's voice yell from the house calling for Bella. I looked down at my watch and gasped. It was already 6:30, we only have an hour before we need to be home. I jumped up and brushed the invisible dust off me. I saw Jake get a sour look as he glanced over in the direction of where he must think Chief Swan is in. I smiled sadly as I grabbed his hand and pulled him over to where Embry, Quil, and Bella were all talking animatedly. Bella gave us each a hug and walked out of the garage door to where Charlie was waiting on the steps. I gave him a small wave as he gave me a happy smile and pulled Bella to the cruiser.

Quil and Embry started working under the hood as I watched silently from behind. Jake had moved over to the car to work underneath. I sat in the chair quietly and thought over today. Mostly Sam and Paul. I knew the weird warm feeling in my gut was because over what I had saw. Paul had always shot me side-glances even before he started acting all mysterious and freaky. I wasn't anything special in school. I have the same dark tan skin, the same dark brown almost black eyes. I have straight white teeth, nothing very special. I have a normal hourglass figure. But even before, he stole silent glances. Although I tried to act like I didn't notice. But when he came back, he dropped all of his friends, and started hanging out Jared, only Jared at school. Jared had taken a liking to Kim, a girl who was in my history class that was basically the only kid my age I got along with, other than Bella.

Kim had always secretly had a liking to Jared, although I didn't see why. He was a total muscle head and had no sense of kindness in him. He was what a normal school would call a jock, although I had always called him a joke. He offered no evidence of being boyfriend material, maybe just an easy score if you ask me. I had tried to tell Kim that, but she ignored me. Now, though, they were together and happy. And I couldn't be happier to be wrong. I didn't really hang out with Kim anymore, since she was way too busy with Jared.

But why had seeing Paul, now, affected me so much? Maybe seeing him so close, so easy to get to, made me feel the strange pull I had always felt get worse. I had never really wanted to see him, if anything I tried to avoid him as much as possible. But today I wanted to be with him, to hug him and kiss him like Kim does to Jared. I wanted to see Paul and not avoid him. But I had never felt this so bad before. The weird tingling feel I had always felt when I saw him was worse today. Maybe because I didn't deny it? I didn't avoid it? Will I ever figure this out? Who knows?

Will I ever be able to let this stupid little event that only I conjured up slip from my worries and forget it? Can I ever be myself again without the fear of being the woman I saw in my dream? Will I ever accept that that could be me, even in another universe, it was me? Can I change it? Can I change the future and prevent anyone else from seeing what I had seen, from having to experience whatever I saw and will have to see?