A/N: Don't own anything. If I did Dair would get married ASAP!
Dan allowed Blair to step into the elevator first. To say the air in there was awkward would be an understatement. After what was probably the most nerve racking and unsatisfying sex of both their young lives that occurred not thirty minutes before, they weren't meeting each other's eyes. 'I am going to kill Nate for suggesting we go to a hotel…it just added more pressure to an already frazzling situation…' Dan thought bitterly. Finally fed up with the awkward silence Dan reached out and hit the emergency stop button.
Blair's eye shot up in question when she felt the elevator jolt to a halt. Dan turned towards her, willing her to say something, but she was avoiding his probing gaze, so he broke the silence, "Blair we need to talk about it…I am the first one to say that it isn't going to be a pleasant conversation, especially for me…but we still need to talk about this before it turns into a bigger problem than it has to be."
Blair's eyes finally fell upon Dan's when he reached out and grabbed her hands, which she was ringing unknowingly. He stroked them a bit and waited patiently for her reply. Blair exhaled loudly and began, "I just don't know how to start this type of conversation…I have never been in this type of situation before."
Dan smile despite the situation and replied, "Well, you can start by just being honest…I promise I won't take anything you say to heart…besides –you have never been afraid to hurt my feelings before. No need to mind them now." Dan tried to joke but he noticed it was a mistake when he saw Blair tense up and remove her hands from his, beginning to pace.
Dan took a step towards the wall and leaned sideways on it, running his hands down his face. He heard Blair exhale and take a step towards him. He took a sideways glance towards her and noticed she was opening and closing her mouth lamely, as if trying to find the right word to begin with but failing to produce one. After what seemed like an eternity to him Blair said, "Well, when I said 'Wow' afterwards I didn't mean 'Wow' in the amazing sense…I meant 'wow that was terrible…'"
"Jeez…I know I said don't spare my feelings but really? You couldn't find a softer word with a negative connotation other than 'terrible?'" Dan said feeling his ego deflating more and more by the minute. Even if he already knew she how she was feeling, because he agreed with the 'terribleness' of the sexual encounter…it still hurt.
"Dan…I just want to be honest with you. I don't know how to say it without hurting your feelings. I mean…I don't know what I was expecting. But I thought it would have been better than what just happened. But then we have to take into account that it has been a long time for you…so I guess I understand how your performance would have been jilted. SO…"
"OH, so you are blaming this all on me, huh? Well I have to tell you Waldorf…you weren't really at your best as well. It takes two to tango well…and you missed a couple pretty important steps yourself." Dan bit off, scoffing.
"I…umm…you're kidding right? I mean, it's been what a year? I find it hard to believe any sex that you would have wouldn't be amazing after a dry spell that long." Blair responded harshly but quickly amended, "But I understand."
"Blair! Are you kidding me? Think about this. You came by today practically naked and pretty much snapped your fingers demanding sex. I mean you added20 times more pressure on me that I was already putting on myself to perform well…not to mention the hotel room…I mean c'mon. It was so forced. I need more. I truly think sex should come naturally out of a certain moment. Not demanded…well at least not demanded until later on after our sex life has had a healthy shelf life." Dan said trying to explain his feelings.
"Seriously Humphrey? I was trying to turn you on and give myself to you…and you are yelling at me for it? Well, how pray tell would you suggest we go about sex from now on Dan? With candles, strawberries, and Coldplay in the background? Please." Blair bit back.
Dan looked at her eyes sincerely and Blair softened a little. "Blair I am sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you for that. I honestly did enjoy the fact that you showed up at my doorstep like that. Let's just say it was a dream come true…because I have had that type of dream about you." Blair lowered her face hiding a self-satisfied smirk. Dan continued, "But honestly, I can't tell you how I envisioned our first time going. I do know that it wouldn't have been in a hotel room…in the middle of the day. It probably would have been after a dinner date…or after curling up on my couch after a movie. It would have happened where we looked into each other's eyes and just knew that this is the moment. And we would have taken it slow…would it have been perfect no…but it would have been beautiful and meaningful. Because honestly Blair…that is what this relationship is too me. It is about so much more than just sex. "Dan lifted her chin so she would meet his eyes and saw she was tearing up a little. "You mean so much more to me. I don't want to just have sex with you Blair. I want to make love to you…I want everything with you."
That did it for Blair. A tear rolled down her cheek which Dan promptly wiped away, "Dan…I want that too. That would have been perfect. If only I wasn't so impetuous maybe we could have done it that way…its just sex is usually such a big deal to guys and I thought you would want it so bad with all the time…"
Dan silenced her with his lips. Blair kissed him back with fervor. They leaned their foreheads up against one another and took a couple breaths. "Who says that it still can't happen that way?" Dan said softy and kissing her sweetly again.
Blair pulled back and looked at Dan with her eyebrow raised, "And how could we do that when we have already done it, Dan?"
Dan smiled and said, "Well technically yes…we have slept together already. But I think we have the chance to wipe the slate clean here since it was less the stellar for both of us."
"I'm intrigued continue…"Blair said.
"Well, let's just say this time we just spent together was practice or a horrible nightmare that never happened." They both chuckled at this. "And let's just go with the flow. And let it happen naturally this time…I don't need any seduction techniques Blair, or over the top hotel rooms. I am so turned on by everything about you – nothing you can do can make me any more aroused by you. So let's just be ourselves and when the time comes…we will both know it. I am pretty certain it is going to be great."
Blair balked for a second… "But what if it isn't, what if we find out we are better off just being frie…"
Dan kissed her hard this time cutting her words off. Blair wrapped her arms around Dan's neck and he buried his in her hair. Dan ran his tongue across her lips which she granted entrance to immediately. After another moment of that heart stopping kiss Dan pulled back and Blair chaste her mouth cutely. "Do you kiss your friends like that?"
Blair opened her eyes and cleared her throat before responding huskily. "No…"
"And am I right to assume that kiss got your blood flowing to the right places as it did with me?" Dan said smiling.
Blair smirked back and said, "You are correct in your assumption."
"We aren't just friends Blair. And I know if we just let the physical stuff take a natural progression rather than a forced one…it will be earthshattering. I just know it…" Dan said bringing her back into his arms.
Blair leaned her head against his chest breathing in his typical scent and feeling automatically at ease. She pulled back and looked into his eyes and felt everything he saw in her. Beauty, love, and strength. It took her breath away. "Okay, Humphrey…let's leave it up to nature."
"Wow, Blair Waldorf agreeing with me…someone call 911." Dan joked smirking.
"Don't get used to it." Blair said slapping his shoulder lightly.
"Blair…" Dan said with a rough voice staring intensely into her eyes.
"Yes…" Blair replied feeling her heart race at the way he was looking at her.
"I am going to tell you something and I don't want you to think I am saying it because I expect anything in return. I just want to say it…" Dan started.
"Dan..."
"I know you probably already know but I need to tell you because it has been trying to pass my lips ever since that kiss in the loft when you said your heart was mine…" Dan said ignoring her protests of him continuing.
"Dan…"
"I love you." Dan said simply keeping his gaze locked on her eyes.
Blair pretty much already knew how he felt but hearing him say it to her in such a certain tone…and not expecting anything else made her respond in a whispered breath with an, "God, I love you too…"
Dan beamed and knew she was telling the truth. He brought her lips to his again and gave her a long, sensual, and sexy kiss, leaving her wanting more yet again. After another moment or so her pulled her into a hug and restarted the elevator and whispered into her ear, "I was always hoping you did."
Blair smiled into his chest. When they reached the ground floor she interlaced her fingers in his and they ventured out into the city together. He dropped her off at her place giving her a couple more long and slow kisses goodnight – kisses that promised something groundbreaking was coming. Kisses that made her see…that maybe waiting wouldn't be the worst thing in the world…maybe it would only make everything she wanted with Dan much more special. Maybe it would make it into making love…rather than having sex. And that was something she wanted with him. And yes, she was willing to wait for that.
