Disclaimer: Obviously, I don't own any of the characters from the DCTV shows.
Also trigger warning for nearly drowning. Author's note at the end.
She's drowning.
Again.
The water is pulling her under and whirling her around until she looses her sense of up and down.
Sara isn't sure anymore if she is actually hitting rocks and broken pieces of the freighter or if it's the sheer strength of the sea tossing her around like a puppet that's bruising every inch of her body.
And the burning.
The burning of panic in her mind and salt water in her lungs when she can't stop herself from inhaling.
And yet her whole body feels frozen and stiff in the cold water.
Up, up, up.
She needs to go up and get air. But it's no use to fight it.
Her body doesn't listen to her commands anymore.
Sara is almost relieved when unconsciousness finally pulls her under.
At least it won't hurt anymore.
A/N This is super short, I know. The next chapters will be much longer. (Seriously, some will be muuuuuch longer)
I just wanted to use the chance to discuss a few points and tell you where I plan to take this story.
The story will be slow plot wise because I want to focuse on Sara's thoughts and emtions. I'll be digging into Sara's past. Really digging into the horros and the physical and psychological trauma she has experienced. I want to explore what exactly Sara had to go through to start considering herself a monster.
Of course I research to keep everything as realistic as possible but I haven't studied psychology, history, martial arts or whatever I might need for the story. If you know more about these subjects I'm always willing to learn :)
!Please note the rating!
I don't want to make this story too graphic or explict but I hope to make it realistic and I won't sugar coat anything which is why this story will probably involve pretty much every trigger imaginable. So please stay clear if that's not your thing or if you are triggered by certain things. Stay safe!
I'll list the triggers at the beginning of each chapter.
I'll try to stick to canon as much as possible but I'm not up to date with all the Arrowverse shows, so there might be some mistakes.
Nyssa and Sara's relationship will be important but it's not the main focus of the sotry. And it'll take quite a while to get there.
Also please remember that english isn't my first language. I proof read to my best abilities but sadly grammar isn't my strong suit (especially keeping tense consistency and punctuation). I'll try to get a beta reader. Until then feel free to contact me about if you notice any errors, so I can correct them.
I'll post the story on AO3 as well if you prefer that site. Same profil and story name.
Have fun reading :)
