She took a deep breath as her slender fingers tapped the side of the desk, how had she been so stupid? The ten minutes waiting was coming down slower than she had hoped. While she needed to wait a bit longer for the official confirmation in her head and her body she knew that she was pregnant.
Helen Magnus couldn't quite get her head around the fact at 159 she was going to be a Mum for the second time. While she was lost in her thoughts the completion beep of her computer went off, it took three more times before she finally realised. She took a deep breath and looked up, The green glowing positive filled her vision. She felt herself shudder as a set of silent tears rolled down her cheek. She couldn't be sure whether the tears were joy or sadness. The one thing for certain was the baby growing inside of her. She sat watching everyone walking past the window to her lab.
Helen sat and watched Will, he glanced through the window and winked at her, she managed to muster a semi normal smile. It had been the day after they had managed to bring Will back from becoming an abnormal, they had been sat in the living room talking…
Helen sat down next to him and put a cup of tea in front of each of them. "I think by next week all of the symptoms should be clear and the final bits of the virus will be out of your system." She looked towards him and smiled.
"It's just nice to be back…" He turned slightly towards her. "I don't ever want to feel that far away from you again."
Helen nodded. "I can't say it was the nicest experience to watch…I felt so hopeless Will…I didn't know what to do…" Before she could do anything about it there was a tear rolling down the side of her cheek.
Without thinking Will lent forward and wiped it away. "But you did…and I'm back." He cupped the side of her face. "I'm not going anywhere Helen…"
Her head lifted as she heard him whisper her first name. "I don't want to lose you…I'm not sure what I would have done…" Her voice became a whisper and the tears rolled faster. Before she could think about it she had lent forward and felt her lips meet his. The warmth of his lips against hers sent shivers through her body. She felt herself melt into his kiss. Suddenly she shivered as his lips pulled away and she wanted to cry at the loss of contact.
Will looked towards the woman in front of him, he knew that he had been falling further and further in love with. He needed to be sure, he couldn't imagine hurting her. "Is this what you…" His words were cut off as her lips crushed against his.
"For so long…this is everything I wanted…"
Helen couldn't help but smile as she thought back to it, she had meant every word, she thought about her life and it seemed wrong without Will being involved. She wanted nothing more than to be with Will and only Will, half of her could thinking of nothing more amazing than to be a family with Will and their baby, but she had been hurt so many times before, and she wasn't sure she could face burying another lover and child.
"You look upset." Will's voice echoed around her as he put his head around the door to her lab.
"I'm fine." She didn't know what else to say. Of course she wasn't ok, but how was she meant to tell him what it was about…she just hadn't counted on him picking up all of the signs.
Will had been watching her for the past days. He had seen the changed in the body he was getting to know, and her being sick every morning for the past week hadn't gone unnoticed. He had just been waiting for the right time to talk to her about it. He walked towards the woman he was quickly falling in love with and put his arms around her. "Please remember that I'm not going anywhere darling." As he felt her relax in his arms he carefully snaked his hand down and ran it over her stomach. The ever so slight curve to her normally flat stomach confirmed what he had originally thought. Instead of moving is hand he gently stroked the slight bump before looking at her. "I need you to know just how much I love you Helen."
Helen looked at him and felt the tear rolling down her cheek. "I can't lose another child Will…I can't do that again." She put one of her hands on top of his, looking up at him she could see the love within his eyes. "Can we really do this?"
Will smiled. "Me and you could take on the world my beautiful girl. I'm pretty sure we could manage having a baby." He paused. "They question is whether or not you want this." There was nothing Will wanted more than to be able to love Magnus and their child forever, but he didn't ever want to think that she had regretted it.
She looked at him. "I think it is, I just have to get used to the idea that having another child wont ever change how I feel about Ashley." Her voice cracked slightly at the sound of her daughters name, while the pain was becoming less there was no denying that it was still painfully there.
"You're never going to forget her Helen, she'll always be a part of you, and if we have this baby then we'll tell them about their sister…and how brave she was." He wrapped both of his arms back around her and kissed her forehead. "I love you." He didn't use the three words lightly, and they both knew that.
She looked at him with a layer of tears glistening in her eyes. "I can already feel it Will…I feel pregnant." She took his hand back down to the swell of her stomach. "We're having a baby Daddy." Helen knew that she couldn't ever get rid of a child. While they hadn't planned any of this, she knew deep down that they could do it…and for the first time in years she believed it when someone told her that they loved her.
