Burden

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My whole life has been in darkness, waiting for relief.

I've never felt the exhilaration of life.

To feel joy or kindness is to hope for, not something easy.

I accept.

Is it strange to look in the mirror and cry? To burst into tears of pure and utter despair, to have no inner soul?

Should I find it odd that I never smile out of happiness for myself, but because I hope to die?

I feel numb. Darkness is my new name. I'm in a box, can't find my out, pushing through the boundaries, trying to help myself.

I soon realize that is my life.

Father bit at my soul and ate through the sunshine within. He devoured my needs and took away my rights.

Did I complain once?

No.

Mother is my forbidden, no way of escape. My future is ruined and my past is just a game. She feels my pain in a sense of panic; does she help me?

No. She threatens it.

Sisters are a burden no man nor woman can bear; perfect every way, sickens me. I look away at the praise.

Friends. Some excuse of people. They take away everything left, everything left, everything left. My heart will break.

No one can love me now. I am gone. The world is not my friend. I have nothing to gain. Please, someone, take my heart and stay.

Only he would, the reason I'm still living. He, unknowingly, took my heart away.

But he didn't stay.

The other friend was better; what more does he want? Am I really that bad, to toss away in the dump?

I am.

He will never love me, but I will always try. Living with this burden is always hard; will I sacrifice all, though it will never happen?

I will.

I will never give up. I will also never succeed.

I am Sam Puckett.

This is my first story, and if you didn't understand it, then I'm sorry. This is one of those read-between-the-lines stories, for people who want a bit of a challenge. This is a one-shot story. I came up with this idea pretty quickly and just wrote it down. Any criticism or praise is welcome. No flames please. Thanks for reading my story!