A was for affection which overwhelmed Kyle every time he held Rod.
B was for badly played cards. Rod knowing he shouldn't have deserted Kyle.
C was for clock. Kyle waiting for Rod to return home every night.
D was for disaster. The disaster which was always in the back of Rods mind when he remembered the night when he decided to leave CHERUB. But most importantly; Leave Kyle.
E was for Ear. The ear that eagerly listened to every trickle of Rods words and absorbed them appreciatively.
F was for Fantasy. The many nights Rod would spend planning out his future with Kyle. Their first date, buying an apartment together, Their marriage and growing old together,
G was for generosity. Kyle devoted every spare minute to Rod and enjoyed relaxing in his arms. Being cradled. Cared for by the man he loved.
H was for honesty. Not once had they lied or kept secrets against each other as they both knew they could not bear the anguished look in the others eyes when the other would do so.
I was for intuition. At Kyles office party, Rod gladly told Kyles homophobic, Christian boss that 'No we are not business partners but infact lovers that God decided to place together.' Which granted him untold brownie points that night.
J was for Jumpers. Rods adoptive mother who gladly knitted Kyle and Rod woollen Jumpers every Christmas.
K was of course for Kyle. Kyle was the only one who made Rod feel like he'd accomplished something. Kyle was the evening sky which changed the water from blue to a glowing pink.
L was for the word in the three word sentence that Kyle uttered to Rod every night.
M was for Mattress. The double mattress Rod and Kyle purchased when they bought their apartment. Witch was christened minuets later.
N was for the night sky. Back on the college green where Kyle would lye in Rods lap. Starring up at the shimmering stars.
O was for Ollie. The man Kyle accused Rod of sleeping with.
P was for Protest. Rod did nothing but defend himself against the accusation.
Q was for questions. The Questions Kyle asked Rod to unlock and find the truth that Kyle was so sure lay within Rod.
R was for realisation. Realisation that Rod could never leave him. And neither could Kyle.
S was quite blankly for Sex. Sex was a large advantage of a boy boy relationship where both males lusted after it.
T was for Trouble. The financial trouble when Rods firm collapsed yet Kyle helped him through it and got him back on his feet.
U was for understanding. Understanding what needs to be done in Kyles crisis.
V was for velocity. The speed Rod rushed into Kyles arms when he announced that the adoption agency had found them a placement.
W was for Wendy. The baby that hopefully would grow up to love her fathers.
X was for xylose. One of the sweetest sugars on the earth which described Rods fathering instinct perfectly.
Z was for zero. The amount of days Kyle and Rod had together as Rod sat there. In the hospital. Watching the innocent face fade away. The two were departing and Rod and Wendy were holding Kyles hand as his heart monitor slowly slowed down into a thin green line.
