The Building and Blood

I was on the edge of the building looking down, I was sitting, I let the blood drip down my arms and wrists until it fell beneath me, it fell 150 stories below me, I wasn't scared, I saw the TV helicopter, it was flying above me, then Bill busted through the door, I didn't have to turn around to see if it was him, because I new it was him, I could hear him breath, as crazy as that sounds I could, I could feel every tear fall down and off of his cheeks, he asked me, "Why are you doing this?", in a very soft voice, I stood up and turned to face him, we looked each other in the eyes, I only saw him for a short moment, but there was Tom, Georg, and Gustav, there too there's one thing I knew for sure, is that what I was about to do was gonna hurt Bill more than ever, I knew he would never forget, so why was I gonna do this? I knew why, but I still asked why anyway, tears fell down my face, "Listen to me Bill", I said in a very soft, quiet, motionless voice, "I'll always keep you with me I'll never let you go", "What are you saying?", he said, "You know what I'm saying", "Please don't", he said in a whisper, he was crying more now, "I love you", (Bill's P.O.V) I busted through the door, Anna was sitting on the edge hotel, I saw the blood on the concrete , my heart sank, she stood up and turned around to face me, I saw her arms and wrists, they were all cut up and bloody, I was scared, she turned around, we looked each other in the eyes, I saw pain, I asked her, why she was doing this, she didn't give me an answer, then she told me that I would always be with her, I knew what she meant, but I asked why anyways, she told me I knew, I did, I didn't want it be true, all I could do was say, "Please, don't, don't jump", then she said, I love you, then she fell backwards, when she said I love you I ran towards her, but I was too late, my heart dropped, I couldn't think of a single thought, my mind was blank, then without thinking I turned and ran down the stairs as fast as I could, my heart was raising, I saw the caution tape, I saw everyone crowded in a circle, I ran through the crowd, I saw Anna on the ground, there was a lot of blood, I ran towards her, then out of no where 2 cops blocked me, "I'm sorry you can't cross the line", I was trying to push past them, "MOVE", "No I'm sorry but-", I was crying franticly, "She's my girlfriend', I ran passed them and through the caution tape, I bent down beside her I picked her head up and laid it in my lap, I held her, I was crying hysterically, I couldn't even breath I was crying so hard, "No, Anna, why baby why?", I just kept saying that over and over, I just pushed her hair back, I stared at her, I looked up at the sky, tears were pouring down my face, "NO", I screamed, "Why, why?", I whispered, I looked up at the people, they all stared at me, I was still crying but harder, I just held her, then Tom came over, he put his hand on my shoulder, he tried to pull me away, he was crying hard to, "Bill, come on, she's gone", he kept saying that, but as he tried to pull me away I screamed "NO SHE'S NOT GONE, SHE'S NOT", I stared at Tom, "Yes she is", then he hugged me, we were both crying so hard, I looked up and saw Georg and Gustav, they were crying too, I couldn't move, "Bill we need to go inside, you don't need to see this right now", I was still crying real hard, "Okay", I said between cries, we made it upstairs, I went in to my room,, I shut the door, I just started crying like I was before, were I couldn't breath, Then I just went crazy, I pushed everything that was on the dresser on to the floor, and a million things were running through my mind, then Tom busted into the room, "Bill, calm down", Tom said, he was still crying, "I can't believe she's gone", I just slid down the wall in to a corner next to the night stand, Tom bent down, "I know", he said in a whisper, I just sat there crying my eyes out," She can't be gone", I was sitting in the corner, I was leaned up against the night stand, my arms were around my knees, my hands were locked together, I just sat there tears running down my face, I couldn't believe it, Tom was still here, I just didn't want to see or talk to anyone, I finally just said, "Tom go away", I looked at him, then he said "What?", then I just yelled, "TOM GO AWAY", Tears were still running down my face, then he just walked out of the room and shut the door behind him. (Toms P.O.V) We all ran up the stairs and through the door, she was standing up, my heart was beating so fast, then it wasn't even a split second later that she fell back and Bill was looking down, my heart dropped, then Bill turned around and ran for the stairs, we took the elevator, me and Georg looked at each other, we didn't know what to think, then the doors opened, we ran out the side door of the hotel, I saw Bill, he was on the ground, Anna's head was in his lap, he was holding her, then he just screamed, he was crying hysterically, tears started to run down my face, I went over to him, I put my hand on his shoulder, "Bill come on", I said, I was crying harder now, he said no, I saw blood everywhere, it was all over Bill too, I looked up, everyone was starring at us, some were even crying, then I finally pulled him away, it was hard, he wouldn't move, until finally I got him up, he reached for Anna, he tried to push my arms from around his waste, he was trying like hell to push me away, then I finally just got him in to a hug, then he just wrapped his arms around me as tight as he could, we were both crying, he was crying so hard I don't even think he could breath, I stared at Anna on the ground, I couldn't look at her, it was too hard, so I looked away, I couldn't believe my eyes, I thought I was asleep, god knows I wanted to be, to bad I wasn't, I kept telling myself to wake up, but I never did, that's when I couldn't breath either because I was crying so hard, then I told Bill we needed to go inside, that he didn't need to see this, but it was really me that didn't need to see it, but I knew if we stayed Bill would only get worse just looking at her, we made it to the room, Bill went in his, and I started to sit down but I heard a crash in Bills room, I ran in to his room he was goin crazy, everything that was on the dresser was on the floor, I told him to calm down, then he slid down the wall beside the night stand, he just was crying hysterically, he wrapped his arms around his knees, I stared at him, he just kept saying 'she cant be gone', I just said, "I know", I was crying too, I just stared at him, "Tom just go", he said very softly, "What?", I said kinda confused, then he screamed at me, "TOM JUST GO AWAY", I took a deep breath and got up and walked out of the room, I shut the door softly, I wasn't mad at him for telling me to go away, I mean his girlfriend just committed suicide, so in a way I could understand, kind of, I can't believe she's gone though, she use to be the most happiest person before all of that shit happened to her, before the rapes and everything, yeah I knew she was a druggie too, we tried to stop her so many times, but it never worked, the same went with her cutting problem it never stopped, we all wanted it to, but it didn't, I loved her like a sister, poor Bill, he's gonna hurt for a long time now, there's no way that he can go on with the tour and neither can anyone else, I need to talk to the guys and David, "Guys", they looked up, they were crying a little still, and still couldn't believe what just happened, they were sitting down on the couch, "Yeah", "We need to talk", "About what?", Georg asked, "The tour, Bill cant finish, and I don't think you guys can either, I know I cant and I know Bill cant, so I think we need to cancel it, for Bills sake", then David(our producer), came in quietly, "Hey guys, are you all okay?", we all stared at him, I think our looks answered his question, "All right, that was a stupid question, so how is Bill right now?", I looked at the floor then at him, "Well he's not doin to good, his heart is broken, and I think it will be that way for a really long time, or forever, if he ever does get better", "Yeah, you guys need to go home as soon as you can", "Yeah, that's what I was thinking about, it's not so much that we want to go home, I mean we do, but right now we just need to go home, for Bill, he'll never be the same", everyone looked at me then at the floor, "Well I can get you guys a flight back home tomorrow and you will be out of here as soon as possible", "That would be great, I know Bill cant stay here for another minute, that's just torture", "Yeah well I'll go make that call right now", "Ok, thanks", I said, and he walked out of the room, "Well I have to go tell Bill that we're goin home as soon as we can", I looked at Georg he was staring at the ground, then he said, "Did you see her face? She was just laying there", I looked at him, "We know, we saw her, I think you guys need some time alone, I'm gonna go and try to talk to Bill", I said, "Alright", they said, I stood up and I walked toward Bills room I put my ear to the door, I listened, all I heard was his cries and sobs, I wanted him to stop so that I wouldn't cry, before I walked in I took a deep breath and turned the knob slowly, and walked in he was still in the same spot and position, tears still running down his face and makeup too, "Bill?", I said softly, he looked up slowly, and wiped the tears from his eyes, he looked at me, "What do you want Tom?", he said very blankly with no emotion at all, "Umm, I wanted to tell you that we're goin home tomorrow", he looked at me, "And how are we suppose to get there?", "David said that he would call and get all of us the earliest flight home, in fact he's calling them right now", "Oh, and what about the tour, Huh, what s gonna happen now?", he stared at me, "Well, we decided that we are just going to cancel it and that that would be best for everyone", his expression changed, "What? You decided without me? I thought we made decisions together? I thought you were my brother? I guess I thought wrong", I stared at him, "Yeah we do make all of the decisions together, and I am your brother, that's the most important thing to me in the world, Bill I could never forget that, but we had to make this decision for everyone", then Bill stood up, "You could have asked me if I wanted to cancel too, and if I wanted to continue and-", I cut him off, "And what Bill? You cant honestly tell me that you can go on with the tour, and when I meant everyone, I meant you", he was quiet for a minute, " Your right, I cant go on with it, I couldn't want to even if I tried to", his eyes started to water and tears started to fall down his cheeks, "I'm sorry I'm acting this way, I just cant face the truth, I didn't realize this could be so hard loosing someone", he just cried, then I went up to him and hugged him, he needed one, but he needed a lot more too, "I know, we all feel this way but we know that you feel way different than we do, we need to go home, you need to go home, ok", "Okay", he said while his face was buried in my shirt, "Everything will be okay", I said that but I didn't know if it was true, but I'd say anything to Bill just to keep me from seeing him like this, I didn't like it, I just don't want him to do something stupid, "Well I'm gonna go to bed, or do you want me to stay up with you?", he looked at me and shook his head, "No, you go get your sleep, I'll try to get some too", "Okay, well goodnight then", "Okay, night", and I walked out of the rom.