Yup... another angst... No I'm not angsty but super happy... It's just that the only fics I'm good at writing are angst stories... This story is from my inspiration Kesenai by NewS... great song it is...
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"I'm sorry Kanda, I just can't do it anymore… I-I already moved out… I'm sorry that I have to leave like this… Even if it ended like this… Thank you for everything…and…I'm… I'm glad that we met"

"There is no messages left"

Kanda pressed the button again to repeat the message. The last message Allen have left him. He didn't know how many days or maybe months he's listening to that message that remains on his answering phone.

He remembered all the nights that Allen waited for him at home while he go to the house of Lenalee to cheat on him. He remembered that every night he physically hurt him and emotionally abuse him. Allen have been patient, not leaving him whatever he did. It was frustrating. He knows that he loves Allen, his subconscious knows it but he was in denial, and he showed it is driving him away. He was confused with his feelings, for he never felt something like that before. He went to Lenalee's house thinking that Allen is replaceable, that he doesn't love him and he isn't anything. He isn't needed.

He remembered that night. The last straw before Allen left. He raped him. He, Kanda Yu, soiled the purity of Allen Walker. His cries will haunt him for the rest of his life. His life will be driven by regret and sorrow for what he did and yet…"… and… Thank you for everything…I'm… I'm glad that we met"

The words thank you echoed in his heart. He did those horrible things. Those unforgivable deeds but Allen… he still said I'm glad that we met"

For the first time in Kanda's life, tears fell from his eyes. And once again, he pressed the repeat button, to hear Allen's voice once more.

Even in his dreams, he couldn't see Allen. He was punished for doing those things by not seeing the only person that he have loved and the only thing that consoles him every night is the unerased message.

He wanted to reply to that last message. That now he had changed for the better, that he isn't trapped in the darkness anymore and now holding the light. He wanted to show him. And now that he understand that he is irreplaceable.

But whenever he listens to Allen's unerased voice message, he can't step forward. He became a coward. He couldn't even say to him thank you for bearing with me and I'm sorry for what I have done.

And one more time, the unerased voice message was played again, and he can hear his unerased beautiful voice.


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