Ever Since
All those years ago from the very first time I met you
Ever since then not a moment went by when I didn't think of you
And wondered if you were thinking of me too
The many years we were apart it was knowing of you
Being safe and alive that kept me going through all the challenges and sacrifices
I endured during our time apart.
When I finally was about to see you again I can't
tell you how nervous I was at the idea.
You know now I was afraid of giving my
feelings for you away.
Little did I underestimate how stronger and more beautiful
you had become in my absence.
Other than that you were exactly the way I
remembered you in my dreams.
I'm sorry if the way I looked at you ever made
you feel uncomfortable.
You must forgive me; you were and remain my first and
last love.
Being around you became agony for me.
I could do nothing about it.
You were a very torment in my soul.
You were hard to read, trained in hiding your
emotions well.
But only when I realized you did feel something I found our
situation was hopeless.
You refused any way I offered out of our problem.
And yet
you still remained my friend
there for me through my grief at losing a loved one
and had my back in danger.
Through all we'd been through made you realize
every moment together was precious.
And together we'd make the best of it.
Ever since you've become my home and refuge
No longer my source of hopeless agony, but my source of endless joy
Ever since I fell in love with you.
