Ever Since

All those years ago from the very first time I met you

Ever since then not a moment went by when I didn't think of you

And wondered if you were thinking of me too

The many years we were apart it was knowing of you

Being safe and alive that kept me going through all the challenges and sacrifices

I endured during our time apart.

When I finally was about to see you again I can't

tell you how nervous I was at the idea.

You know now I was afraid of giving my

feelings for you away.

Little did I underestimate how stronger and more beautiful

you had become in my absence.

Other than that you were exactly the way I

remembered you in my dreams.

I'm sorry if the way I looked at you ever made

you feel uncomfortable.

You must forgive me; you were and remain my first and

last love.

Being around you became agony for me.

I could do nothing about it.

You were a very torment in my soul.

You were hard to read, trained in hiding your

emotions well.

But only when I realized you did feel something I found our

situation was hopeless.

You refused any way I offered out of our problem.

And yet

you still remained my friend

there for me through my grief at losing a loved one

and had my back in danger.

Through all we'd been through made you realize

every moment together was precious.

And together we'd make the best of it.

Ever since you've become my home and refuge

No longer my source of hopeless agony, but my source of endless joy

Ever since I fell in love with you.