Pick up your bags you've got some leavin' to do
I don't care about you
care about yoooo-ou
Kagome stopped caring a while ago. Maybe months...maybe a year? What was the point of yearning for something or one, that you would never get? Yes, the young miko learned her lesson, the hard way. She couldn't continue to pine after a hanyou that only sees her as his past love. A short coming. Kagome was Kagome, not the reincarnation of Kikyo. No matter how much he or the older miko wants to believe it. She use to wonder why Inuyasha couldn't see it, see her. The real her. Maybe he does, to a certain extent? Maybe that was why he always insulted her. Trying to beat her down to fit the perfect Kikyo model? How many times had he gone to see the undead miko in the middle of the night, coming back to see his companion awake. As if waiting for him. He always looked away, guiltily. Technically, she was waiting. Waiting for him to come and admit and/or confide in her.
Word on the street you've got some growin' to do
I don't care about you
care about yoooo-ou
So no, it was not surprising to see Inuyasha and Kikyo together. Holding the other in a sweet, lovers embrace. It even made the younger miko smile softly. All she wanted was for Inuyasha to be happy...and then they started talking. More accurately, Inuyasha. Seriously, she could care less what Kikyo has to say about her but Inuyasha, her first crush and best friend-after Sango...his words crushed her. He spoke on how he did feel for Kagome but not romantically, like a big brother. He thought she was a burden and not just on him. The entire pack. She couldn't fight, useless really, unless there was a demon and even then her arrows only sometimes hit their mark. Her only, real purpose, was to detect shards. Kikyo could do that and more. She was the better miko.
It's funny how money can make hateful words from honey sweet talking men
I can't say I'll miss you but I'll miss the face you wore when you left
How could he talk like that? As if she was nothing more then a nuisance?
...was she? This entire time?
Her heart shattered more, as he begged Kikyo to join the Inu-Tachi. He'd make Kagome go home. She was only in the way. He would rile her up and after a big fight, perusal, she would go home and they can seal the well. Kikyo looked uneasy with what he was planning but finally agreed.
Kagome slinked away as they leaned into each other, to share a kiss. Making it back to camp, everyone was still asleep. She just crawled back into her sleeping back, letting the kit snuggle up to her. She didn't cry like she wanted, to exhausted and numb to do either. Just closed her eyes and let herself drift. Praying she had no dreams. She didn't want to relive the betrayal of the hanyou. Why had she even went to search him out, anyways?
The next morning, Inuyasha awoke them all nice and early. Announcing Kikyo was to join the group. To say everyone but Kagome was shocked and outraged, understatement of the century. She didn't give an opinion when asked, just shrugged and went about packing her things so they can get ready for the day. The entire time they walked, she could feel the hanyou's eyes on her. Staring, boring through her. As if waiting for her reaction. To sit him, to run home. Its what he wanted and some part of Kagome wanted to be vindictive and stick around. So she did. She wasn't her normal cheerful self, anyone with eyes could see. No, her walk was spent churning the conversation in her head. Inturn, considering every choice she has made and those she will make in the future. Something had to give, she decided.
Now didn't you ever learn not to break a heart you never earned
My mama said that every man is only worth his unbroken word
One of the nights Kikyo ventured out, Inuyasha with her as her guard dog, Kagome turned to her friends. Point blank asking them if she was a burden. They went to immediately deny the accusation but stopped at the look on their young friends face. She wanted...needed the truth. Each took a moment to think their answer over before speaking.
You can't fight, lest it's with a bow and only against a demon. Your powers, through strong, are waste to not be at your disposable. You're impulsive, stubborn, and rude...which tends to get you in trouble. She had asked for their honest answers but she still felt her chest consist, her heart hurt. Tears coming to her eyes.
You can't fight but you have the strongest will to live and protect innocent. You're impulsive and stubborn but have the biggest-warmest heart we've ever seen and demand we help all in need. You're rude and yet, painfully polite and respectful. Your powers aren't at your beckon and call but you fearlessly throw yourself in the line of fire, knowing your reiki will flare to at least protect you.
In conclusion, you are untrained but no burden.
I can't say I'll miss ya, but I'll miss the face you wore when you left
I promise I won't forget ya, forget the things you made me regret
Their words made her want to cry, to know how they really saw her...so she did. Gathering them to her and just hugging them and sobbing. They wondered why she started questioning herself now and so harshly but she didn't tell them. Instead, she used her free time to do more thinking. She needed to change, needed to be someone her friends, her second family could rely on, in more then just emotional support. With the resolve firmly in place, she began making mental plans. Return home but not allow Inuyasha and Kikyo to seal the well. Prehaps she can do it instead? Removing the seal when she is ready? Grandpa had to know how to seal stuff, even if his reiki was nothing to match hers.
Yea-yaaaa-aaah
(guitar solo)
Oooooooo-oooooh
Oooooooo-oooooh
Oooooooo-oooooh
Oooooooo-oooooh
The next night that both the hanyou and his dead love left, she approached Sango. She told the slayer and monk of her plans and thoughts. They understood her needing to go, to do this, though they didn't wish to see her leave. Borrowing Kirara, after packing her stuff, she promised to be back as soon as she could and flew off into the distance. She knew the two lovers wouldn't be back until early morning. Even running, it gave Kagome a day and a half to do what she needed.
I don't care about you
Care about, care about yoooo-ooou
Whooooa
I don't care about you
care about you, care about, care about yoooo-ou
Bypassing Edo, she went straight for the well and slid to the damp grass. She hugged the two tails neko around the neck and nuzzled her. Thanking the demon for bringing her and promising her a treat when she finally comes back. With a meow, she watched as the only other female human, besides Sango, that she cared for, jumped into the well. She was saddened to see the miko go, but like the others, understood. She needed to do this, to be stronger. To be the priestess she was meant too.
So, pick up your bags you've got some leavin' to do
I dont care about you, care about yoooo-ou
The song for this first chapter is Don't Care. By Daniela Andrade. I felt it reflected, pretty much, how I think Kagome would feel at that moment.
I've read some of these, Inuyasha says something stupid to Kagome or about her, to Kikyo.-stories. Hurting the miko deeply and causing her to run off. She always ends up finding all this power in a short amount of time and has aced it remarkably fast. This stories move so rapidly, it leaves you going 'Wait...what?'. Now, if that's what you like to read or how you write it, then by all means, please do not assume I am slamming your/these stories. I've seen a lot of potential in some of the stuff I've read, if the plot was slowed. To show a growth in character, mainly Kagome. I'm just stating my opinion.
This is my try at one of those and hopefully, it will go a slow but appropriate pace.
We all know, or at least assume, Kagome is a strong miko. Just untrained. I mean, she did shield the jewel in her. She's a smart girl, it's been proven through the series. Though she has her moments, who doesn't? At some point during the time she has been traveling with the group, I am sure she has picked up on how idiotic it is to just run off, alone. No weapon.
Second would be, the times Inuyasha has hurt her and she turns into a cold female-version of Sesshoumaru.
...really?
That's one of the things that draws people to her, that makes Kagome, Kagome. Her bright, cheery, and warm attitude. The stubbornness of never letting an innocent, be it human or demon, that is in trouble. She's a beacon of warmth, I guess you could say. She may dim for a bit but she would come back as bright as before. It may never be where it was before, between Inuyasha and herself, but she wouldn't hate him. Maybe their fights would be a bit more...heated? More like brother and sister, including but not limited to punching the others arm, headlocks, tripping the other up.
As for 'running' off hurt, this goes back around to her being smart. Analyze what Inuyasha and those of her closest friends say. Give her time to come up with a plan of motion.
Now that that is out of the way, on to the next thing. Coupling. There will be no Kagome and Inuyasha...and no Kagome and Sesshoumaru. No Kagome and Hojo. Definitely no Kagome and Naraku. Shiver-shiver. So, there's Kouga, one of the other wolf demons. That would turn out horribly for poor, poor, poor Ginta or Hakkaku.(we knew them well!). Or, I can create a new OMC for her love interest. Human-priest. Warrior/guard for lord or a Shogun. Hanyou of different breed. Full fledge demon? You can all pitch ideas, about what you want to see in a OMC.
Oh! Maybe a hanyou or 1/3 demon samurai?
We'll figure this out.
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