Insecure
Author: Shinigami-koi
Disclaimer: No ownership of any one, or place, or thing, in the Gundam Wing Universe is claimed. Though ownership of a couple of these guys sure would be nice...
Pairing: 2x1
Warnings: Shonen-ai
Night had fallen, casting the house in darkness. Everyone lay curled up in their beds for the night, fast asleep. Except for two young lovers, hidden in the black night.
Duo Maxwell and Heero Yuy lay entwined together content and relaxed, the soft sheets wrapped around the pair.
"Heero, maybe we should tell the others about us."
Duo said quietly, unsure of how Heero would react to the suggestion. He knew that Heero didn't wish to tell the others, since the last time he brought the topic up Heero had refused to say anything on the matter. He just shrugged it off and turned the conversation to something else. The hand that had been carding through Duo's long brown tresses, stilled.
Sighing Heero nestled closer to Duo, his head resting comfortably on his shoulder. "I'm not ready to tell them yet. Please... just give me some more time. I know it's been two months already, but…"
The insecurity in Heero's voice made Duo wish he could kill Dr. J. In fact, he would if he wasn't already dead. What he'd done to Heero was criminal. Because of the training Heero had received at the hands of that madman, his lover was completely ignorant about how to react around others. Especially concerning things that dealt with strong emotions. Duo began to run his hands soothingly along Heero's back.
"Heero, I have no problem waiting to tell everyone. What I don't understand is why you don't want to tell them in the first place. They are our friends and they deserve to know."
Easing his way out of Duo's warm embrace, Heero moved to sit on the edge of the bed.
"Tell me honestly Duo. Would they accept me as your lover? All they really know about me is that I was trained to be 'The Perfect Soldier'...A killer." Heero hastened to finish what he had to say when he noticed Duo open his mouth to interrupt him.
"They all accept you and will do anything to help you. Do you really think that they'd let me be near you? With my bloodstained hands?" Bitterness laced every word he spoke, finally voicing his fears to his lover.
Gently Duo turned Heero back around to face him, cupping Heero's face in his hands, Duo tried to reassure his obviously distressed lover, to tell him that his fears were unfounded.
"Tell me Heero, do you hold it against the others, and me, that we've killed innocent and criminal people alike during the war, weather we did it purposely or by accident, we have all killed, perhaps needlessly."
Locking eyes with Duo, Heero's voice was firm, holding no trace of doubt, when he answered. "No. You did what had to be done."
"Exactly Heero. That's my point. None of them are going to deny you being with me or me being with you. We're a team, a family. We have all done things we regret but we would never turn our backs on family, no matter what."
Sighing, Heero allowed himself to pulled back onto the bed, so that he was once again nestled next to Duo. Silence fell over the two of them as Heero contemplated what he was going to do. He wanted so badly to believe Duo, to trust him to be telling the truth. Hesitantly, Heero broke the silence that had settled over them not that long ago.
"I'll tell them."
Grinning Duo kissed his lover on his forehead, relieved.
"It'll be fine, you'll see."
Taking comfort from Duo, Heero drifted off to sleep, head once more nestled on Duo's shoulder.
TBC
