A/N: ok so I have decided to try a Sons Of Anarchy Tara/Jax fan fic. Let me know what you think!
Rating: M
Warnings: Violence, Sex, Swearing.
Time Line: Able has just been taken and Jax is going to Belfast to find him. He has no idea about the thing Tara is hiding,
Disclaimer: If I owned Jax he would be chained to my bed and giving me some love every night. So I own nothing.
Dr. Tara Knowles sat in her old bedroom. She hadn't been in the house in weeks. But that was before everything happened. Before Cameron killed half sack and took Able from the house. She knew Jax had blamed her for what had happened but she was trying to save lives. If he had known what she was hiding from him maybe it wouldn't have been so bad. But he didn't know and she wasn't sure if he would ever know. She closed her eyes remembering what he told her. ": Your mother thinks this is about protecting me" She said as she was helping him pack for Belfast. He turned looking her in the eyes "I am." She stopped folding the shirt to look at him "From what?" he sighed "Donna, Abel, and Sack. Take your pick." She knew where he was coming from but she didn't understand why he was doing this. "I want to go with you." He shook his head "No. You are going back to work." "He's mine too. I want to be with my family" She yelled at him. She watched as he tensed up "HE IS NOT YOUR FAMILY!"
That hurt more then she would ever admit. She had been there for Abel since day one and she felt like she was his mother. "You shoulda gone back to Chicago. The shitt that happened with Kohn, that shoulda been the end." He whispered. She looked at him "You're not making any sense." He pinched the bridge of his nose "This has to be the end. You gotta get out, from charming...Away from me. It's simple. You don't belong here." Saying that he grabbed his bag and walked out the door to stay at the club house for the last night he was in town.
The next morning Tara drove over to try and fix things with Jax. She didn't want to fight with him before he left for god knows how long. Walking into the club house she was stopped by Opie. "He's not here." He said quickly. Tara could tell something was up as she passed by and opened his door to see Jax in bed under the covers. He looked up at her a weird look on his face. Just as Tara went to say something Ima the porn bitch walked out in a SAMCRO t shirt and nothing else. She didn't even give him time to explain as she stormed out.
So here she was in her old house staring at the wall. She was pale but that was because as soon as she walked into the door she got sick. One of the perks about being two months pregnant was the morning sickness. Gemma was the only one who knows about the baby. She wanted Tara to tell Jax but she couldn't do it. Not after everything that had happened. She heard her phone ringing, the screen flashed Jax's picture. She thought about not picking it up but she did. "What?" She asked shakily, suddenly feeling sick. Jax took a deep breath; he had to be like this to protect her. Even though everything he was doing was killing him inside. He just wanted Tara to have a life she deserved. "You can stay at the house. I will be in Belfast tonight so." He just wanted to know she was safe. Tara almost laughed at what he was saying "I'm fine in my dad's house. Thanks for your concern." She replied coldly. What was she supposed to say? "Thanks for fucking me over? Hey by the way I'm pregnant with you kid?" So she stayed quiet.
He sighed leaning back on the bed in the dorm room, Ima long gone by now. "Tara please doesn't be like this. "He said quietly. He knew this was hurting her but she had to be safe. He couldn't bear if anything happened to her. Sure he was a big bad biker but Tara held his heart in her hands. If it meant that he had to break it himself to protect her then he would do whatever it took. Including sleeping with Ima. "Tara I am just trying to help you out." That made her laugh, she found it funny how he was saying how much he was trying to help her and protect her. When he was the one who was hurting her. "Just go find Abel. " She said almost saying I love you before hanging up.
Jax closed his phone before getting out of the bed. Walking out he saw Opie sitting at the bar "Sorry bro" he told him. Jax nodded" Not your fault. Would you do everything you could to keep Donna safe?" Jax asked as they walked out of the club house. Opie took a few moments before answering. "I did a lot to push her away. But she knew what I was doing and she stopped it. That what you were doing with this Porn bitch? Pushing Tara away?" Jax nodded "She deserves better than me." Opie shrugged" Isn't that for her to pick?" Jax got on his bike waiting for Clay so they could take off.
Once they got to the airfield they got onto the plane. Now Jax had nothing to do but wait until he got to Ireland to find Abel .His mind wandered to thoughts of Tara, What their life could have been like if things were different. How they would be if Abel had never gotten taken. He could see them happy at the house, them snuggling in the bed late at night after putting Abel to bed. The long nights he would be buried deep inside of her. Making her moan, feeling how much they both love each other. He knew he would never get that with anyone else but Tara. Wendy was just someone to fill the void in his life. Once Tara had come back he knew things could be different. But now he was busy trying to protect her, he knew he would be miserable without her. But if it meant she had a great life, then he was ok with being miserable.
A/N: Let me know what you think.
