This is another Songfic done for Star-chan. It's written in her character, Star's, POV. Here's a disclaimer from me:
I DON'T OWN FMA, STAR-CHAN'S FIC, OR THIS SONG! SO YOU CANNOT SUE ME! MUAHAHA!
Love,
Sarah Vida
I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself.
I've been fighting so long. I still don't remember everything of my past, but I remember every thing she - I - have done. I believe that there are things that cannot be forgiven. I believe that she is the thing that was my punishment. I really believe that God...That He must hate us. I've tried to get away from her, I've tried to keep her down, but she keeps taking over again. I can't control her body, my body. I don't know what to do...Please...Help me.
Someone if you can see
The dark inside of me
Noone would ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe, it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal (This animal, This animal)
Somehow, It's hard to believe that he is the only one who really saw me inside...or he was the first one. I wanted to save him, and I don't remember who saved me. I just remember coming back, and I was her...or rather she was me. She and I are connected. She likes his other side, I like him. There is a rift between the four of us though. I don't know which of us is the real one. I wish someone could save me...I wish he was himself again.
I can't escape myself,
So many times I've lied,
But there's still rage inside,
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself.
I know that there must be some way to keep her lust for killing under control. I only wish I could. I have no control over her, she has all the control over me. I can only escape her when her concentration is weakest. I wish I could stay out and tell him all the things I want to say. Is there no way to escape? No way to save the ones I hold dear? God doesn't seem to want to help him and myself. I don't know if we'll ever truly be free from these two again...
Someone if you can see,
The dark inside of me
Noone would ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe, it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become.
Help me believe, it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal.
I want out! I'm getting sick of waking at the end of a bloodbath! I don't want to spend an eternity with the souls of countless innocents on my hands. No matter if it is her doing the killing, I still feel as if the blame falls upon me. I wish someone would hurry up and figure out a way to contain her. I feel like I'm going to go insane! I don't like it. Right now, no matter that the two of us are still alive, I can't help but wonder, what if I hadn't tried? What if I had just let him go to Heaven, and followed after him? But I feel horrible for even thinking that.
Somebody help me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.
Somebody wake me from this nightmare,
I can't escape this cell.
I'm afraid...and I know she's scared too. The things that are happening to us...it's unreal. We seem to be competing for the dominant mind all the time now. I don't know which of us will win. If one looses, will she still be there? Or will she wither and die? I don't want to think about it. As much as I hate to say it, It's almost as if we are a natural part of eachother now. What would happen if we separated. Every day she's free, though, is a nightmare for me. More blood, more death...I can't take it any more!
This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal
Someone if you can see the dark inside of me,
Noone would ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe, it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal.
I really am hoping that some day, maybe, we can both live our lives. She with him, and I with the one I love. Maybe, some day, that will become reality. But Wrath and I are still a part of eachother. I can't really explain it, but I feel like if we were separated, I would die. I know I need to be optimistic. Edward has told me so on countless occasions. My name? It's Star. Or rather...It was. Before I became this animal.
This animal I have become.
-Owari-
