Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's anatomy and sadly I'm not Shonda rhimes

Chapter 1: I want you with me

- I love you! And I think that you love me too... Do you?

Everything that was going on around April seemed blurred at that moment. She couldn't feel or see anything apart from Jackson's eyes begging her to give him an answer. What was she supposed to say? How was she supposed to react? Of course she was angry, hurt and confused but that was nothing compared to what Matthew must be feeling right now... Oh my God Matthew! She realized that she has been so focused on her internal turmoil that she hasn't even looked at him once since Jackson's declaration. She turned her gaze to him silently praying for sign. But what did she expect? A blessing? When she looked at him all could see was hurt, anger and strangely enough acceptance. It appeared to her that her former husband-to-be knew her answer before she did. Who was she fooling anyway? Of course it was Jackson! It has always been Jackson and she now wondered how she could have fooled herself and so many people in the process for such a long time.

She took Matthew's hand in hers and whispered:

- I'm so sorry... I hope that one day you can forgive me for what I'm going to do. But he is my person and I sure hope you'll find yours. You deserve to be happy Matthew but I'm not the one for you.

She slowly kissed his cheek and turned her attention back to Jackson who seemed on the verge of falling apart and headed in his direction, releasing Matthew's hand in the process.

She decided to focus on Jackson only, fearing that her guests' reaction might weaken her determination.

When she finally reached the plastic surgeon, she looked deep in his eyes and saw that she was doing the right thing to do at the moment. She clung to his hand and he gave her a reassuring squeeze before telling her:

- I'm sorry it took me so long...

- Better late than never... Let's do this!

He nodded and they started heading for the doors, not even realizing the horrified looks on most of the guests' face. And what had started as a slow walk to the doors ended up in an amazingly good race to happiness...

To be continued...