30 Kisses theme #26: if only I could make you mine.


It's disgraceful of me, really. To watch you the way I do. To dream about you. To feel that flare of jealousy every time you smile so gently at her. To play upon, even manipulate, your protective nature just to keep you near me; scheming of ways to get you to take my arm or stand so close I can feel your body heat, as if though that proximity, I could make your feelings for me change.

I already have more than most people could ever wish for. And I accepted long ago what I would have to give up in exchange. So I have no right to want to keep you for myself. Or feel the warmth of your hand around mine, or the tenderness of your kiss, or the comfort of your sleeping body next to me.

There are precious few things in this world that money truly can't buy. Your devotion is one of them. And that, you gave to me freely. When I had given up all hope of friendship, you promised to stay by my side forever. So it would be shameful of me to ask for more. To wish that I could make you mine.

Because you already are.