2am; where do I begin,
Crying off my face again.
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed.
She slowly dragged herself to her bedroom, using the wall to support her frail body. Eyes closed, she could navigate to his room, that's how many times she was in there. Talking, laughing, kissing, hugging, just being in there was perfect. She knew every crevice, every corner, and every bump on his wall. But now he was gone, and there was no reason to go back in there and suffer the aching pain in her chest.
Everything reminded her of him.
I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.
Her family remembers her smile well; the way it reached her eyes, the way it slowly got bigger and bigger as her happiness soared. No one saw it coming, but she was hurt most. Her smile was rarely on her lips, and when it was, it was only a ghost of her real one. No one could make her smile the way he did, and now he was gone, leaving her heart in pieces scattered on the ground like trash.
Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
They were inseparable, he was her perfect other half, she was his. No one could ever replace the other one. But he was gone. If you asked her 'who can replace him?' Her definite answer would be no.
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.
"Go to sleep, close your eyes, and dream of broken butterflies, that tore their wings against a thorn. You know that pain that they've endured." The song she repeats, over and over. Dreaming of those onyx eyes of his, remembering the pain she felt when he left with no goodbye. "The moonlight shining off your tears, as you bleed out the worst of your fears. So tonight when you start to cry, whisper the painful lullaby."
Too afraid to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night.
Too many nights she's slept knowing her best friend, soul mate, and first love would never come home. He was gone forever.
But the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me till I fall asleep.
The pain, suffocating her, until she's had enough and frees herself with sleep filled with him. The tears that he'll, that they'll never see are inside, not out.
I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.
She used to be fierce, snarky, sarcastic, amazing but even those things fade over time. They all want her back, but she's too far out to be saved, only she can save herself. But she doesn't want to be saved, she wants to forget. But she doesn't forget, she wouldn't be herself if she forgot.
Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.
Every kiss made her fall deeper in, every laugh, every secret look; everything brought her closer to him. She was hooked from the first look.
Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me and the lonely.
He left her alone with nothing but broken pieces of what used to be. She can't trust, her heart was broken into little pieces, too small to fix her closed off heart.
Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
Can they? Anything to fill in the gaping hole in her chest. Anything to take away the pain. Morphine taking her into a deep, painless, sleep.
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
She's moved on (sort of). Not trusting anyone with her heart, the way she let him. She doesn't let anyone get close. No one.
To take my heart again.
Will you take my heart again? Will you even try, Fang?
