Unbreakable Can Only Break Once
Chapter One
She looked at the Shrine House off in the distance with indifference. After what she had just experienced, she didn't have much emotion left to spend on such trivial things. Indeed the Bone Eater's Well was anything but trivial, but the emotion she used to put into going the Feudal Era, was; especially when she just lived through the death of her Grandfather. She sighed and felt a single tear roll down her cheek. She wiped it away and looked back at the Shrine.
"Kagome?" a timid tear filled voice squeaked from her bedroom's door. Kagome turned to see her brother Sota standing in the door way.
"Yeah, Sota?" Kagome answered with exhaustion clearly filling her voice. "What is it?" Sota's face was red and puffy, and he had tear marks clearly visible on his cheeks, even though his tears were long since cried and dried. But just as soon as she made the observation, Sota's eyes filled with fresh tears. Before Kagome could comfort him, Sota took a deep breath and wiped his eyes, riding himself of the thoughts of his own sadness for the moment to talk with his sister.
"Kagome, you have to go back," he said looking into her eyes. "You have been here over four weeks helping Grandpa when he was sick," he took a moment to get his sniffling under control," But when Grandpa passed, you stayed with Momma. I know she needed it then, but now she is back on her feet. We are fine and you need to get out of here for a while." Sota said not breaking eye contact with his older sister the whole time.
He was right. When Kagome came back with Inuyasha a month ago, they were greeted with the site of Kagome's Grandfather wandering around the back of the shrine. She called to him, but he took no notice. Then when Kagome finally ran up to him and hugged him.
His reaction was anything but expected. He was shocked at first but when she pulled away, he looked at her as if she was a stranger.
"Hello young lady," Grandpa said politely still staring at her. "You really shouldn't go around hugging strange old men. Especially when a young pretty thing like yourself, could get hurt."
"Grandpa... you don't remember me… do you?" Kagome asked warily. She knew of old people forgetting occasional little things like; where they put the car keys, why they were watching a show, or where they were going. But never had she thought forgetting their own grandchildren was normal. Not by a long shot.
He just looked at her with curiosity," Grandpa? Why would you call me that. And as for remembering you, I don't even remember how I got here," he said laughing. That's when Kagome knew something was terribly wrong…
Kagome called for her mother and they took Grandpa to the hospital where the doctors diagnosed him with Alzheimer's. They said that the disease was so far along that there was nothing they could do, and that he didn't have much time left.
They brought Grandpa home and Kagome cried the whole night in Inuyasha's arms. When dawn came, Kagome had long since cried her tears and was then sitting at the window just looking into space. Inuyasha was behind her, not sure what to do. When Kagome saw his reflection she spoke for the first time that night.
"Inuyasha, go home," she said unemotionally without turning around.
"Kagome-"Inuyasha started out softly but stopped not sure of what to say. He took a deep breath and hugged her from behind. "Kagome, I'll stay here with you. I will help you care for him. Don't worry, everything will be fi" he was cut off when Kagome turned around.
"No Inuyasha, it will not be fine! My Grandfather is dyeing because his brain is turning into mush! He can't even…" She yelled. Then as soon as she flared up, she died down silently crying. Inuyasha responded the only way her could; just by holding her tighter.
When she could talk again, she looked into his eyes: Amber meeting glistening bold brown. "He doesn't even know who I am anymore," she whispered holding back tears.
"I know, but I am here for you, Kagome. I told you, I will always protect you," Inuyasha whispered back. Then he saw her smirk.
"Even you can't protect me from this," Kagome said with a humorless chuckle. Inuyasha was about to say something but Kagome shook her head. "Go." It wasn't a suggestion or a demand. It was a request. She wanted to fight this battle alone and in this battle Inuyasha couldn't help and he knew it as well as she did.
Still he wanted to be there for her. But he had enough sense to see he would do no good here. And if he stayed he would just be torn apart by the sight of Kagome's misery, which was something Kagome didn't want to happen.
So Inuyasha let her go and opened the bedroom window. He turned back to her. "Kagome…stay as long as you need to…but please come back." She nodded and like that Inuyasha was gone.
After Inuyasha left, Kagome set to work taking care of her brother and grandfather along with her mother. Every day her grandfather got worse and worse. In the first month, he forgot how to talk. Two weeks after he couldn't remember to walk, let along eat. A week later his brain forgot how to work his heart and he died. They had the funeral a day later. Ever since then Kagome has stayed home to take care of their mother through her grief. Now that Momma was back Kagome wasn't needed.
And that's when grief took over her and ravaged her mind and body. Leaving her exhausted and gaunt every day. She thought if she could hold it back, it would give up and leave, but instead grief came hard and fast. She was just now able to stop crying and get out of bed. But still her thoughts were haunted by the death of her grandfather.
What she didn't know was that she was killing her little brother with her grieving. He wanted her to be happy again, to smile, to laugh, to live. The sight of her being broken was tearing at him. The exact thing she was trying to protect Inuyasha from, was happening to her brother. But Sota was going to do something about it.
"Please Kagome, go back. You're not yourself, and you won't ever be here," Sota begged rushing to her side. "Please Kagome, seeing you like this is so, so, so hard. You don't smile like you used to." At his words, Kagome's heart broke. She had no idea how she was effecting her brother.
"Oh Sota…I had no idea," she was interrupted by her brother.
"Kagome, don't apologies just go get better, okay? I don't ever want to see you like this again," Sota said on the verge of tears. Kagome nodded and gave her brother a tight hug, trying to make up for what this has done to him.
When they broke apart, Sota helped Kagome pack for her trip back. While they were packing, Sota noticed the darker colors of clothing Kagome picked out. There were a lot of browns, blacks, and dark blues in her wardrobe. When Kagome wasn't looking he sliped the colors he liked on her under the morning clothes she packed. When Kagome left the room, Sota when to her jewery boc and picked something out of the box, then ran to her desk to grab a pen and paper. He quickly wrote a message and stuck both items deep in her bag.
Sota walked out of her bedroom and met her in the bathroom. They said their bitter sweet goodbyes and he walked into his bedroom and laid on his bed. But when he heard the door shut downstairs, he ran to his window. She walked across the lawn and opened the Shrine door. Then he saw her pause and look back at the house. The look on her face was of pure agony. She was probably thinking about the last time she went through those doors. Sota saw a lone tear slide down her cheek and then she disappeared into the shrine.
The feeling of knowing that his sister was gone wasn't what he thought it would have been. The warm feeling of knowing his sister was up and doing something with herself was there but also something else. A feeling of…of dread and realization. Realization of what the sight of the house holds for her. And the feeling of dread of knowing that if it was him, he would never come back to the pain, these walls held. Then fear knotted his stomach. This could have very well been that last time he saw his sister. For he know she was strong, but maybe not strong enough to come back.
Sota noticed the warm wetness on his face that he had become familiar with over the past couple months. He knew he did the right thing but the feelings still overwhelmed him. He punched the wall making a dent in it. Then he turned around and slid down the wall.
'It was for Kagome. It was for Kagome. It was for Kagome." He thought to himself over and over again as he cried for another family member.
So I rewrote this chapter and added this new shnazy thing called a song so you guys know exactly what inspired me to write this really depressing chapter.
Well so first off I AM NOT A CRAZY TOKIO HOTEL FAN!! I like their music and enjoy their unique personality enough to write a few stories about them (ie. My Music and The Kaulitz Irish Lass) So the first song I was inspired to write this chapter actually whole story it none other then "Don't Jump/ Spring Nicht" by Tokio Hotel.
The next one is "My Immortal" by Evanescene.
And lastly so I wasn't going to slit my wrist a bit more upbeat song is "Too Old To Cry" by Voo Doo Blue.
