I walked into the empty living room.

The house was quiet and soulless without Kaoru.

My hand shook and balled into a fist.

"HAPPY FUCKEN VALENTINES DAY" I threw my fist at the wall.

I never understood love……I thought it was stupid.

I didn't want to need him……my god was I wrong……I need my Kaoru.

I walked up the steps and opened our bedroom door.

I rested my head on the pillow cased in white satin.

It smelled like strawberries ……like my gentle Kaoru.

I closed my eyes.

In the darkness of my mind I saw my lover.

He turned to me and smiled his warm loving smile.

I opened my eyes I was alone again.

He was gone taking the life of the house with him.

That's not all he took…….he left with my life to.

I turned over.

"Damn it" I hissed.

"Why the hell did I half to be so stubborn"

I can't go on without Kaoru.

The maid made her way over to my bed.

"Master Hikaru" she whispered softly.

I turned and shot her a look of hate.

Fear filled the girl's eyes.

"Fuck off" I hissed.

The girl fled the room.

I looked out the window.

It was a cold day, Snow on the ground and all.

Out the corner of my eye I saw Kaoru standing in the door way.

He looked so beautiful with the light from the hall shining on his pale skin.

He was wearing tight black pants and a dark blue coat that fit his torso nicely.

"Just here to get a few things" he explained.

I nodded.

He leaned over and picked up a picture I'd thrown on the floor.

"You sure you want me to leave" Kaoru whispered softly.

I looked up and his eyes met mine.

I wanted to say no. that I was being and idiot and need him like I need to breath.

But because I'm stubborn……my thoughts didn't make it out my mouth.

"Hell yeah, I don't need you" I turned my back to him and crossed my arms over my chest.

Out the corner of my eyes I saw him nod slowly.

"Very well then" came his soft voice.

I heard the door open and close.

I turned and he was gone I was alone again.

It's better for him any way.

Kaoru just needs someone who can love him back.

I love him with all my heart……I really do but I never made it a point to show my love how much I loved him.

I watched him leave from the window.

I knew he was the best thing in my life.

I'm so stupid……I let him walk away.

I had the power to stop him and I didn't.

I'm stupid.

My lover and angel my savoir just walked away from me.

And I let him.

My Kaoru is gone.

Kaoru's POV

I woke up that morning.

I don't understand.

Hikaru just jumped on me when I came home and now I'm alone in an apartment.

I love Hika.

I just……I thought he loved me.

After all……he kissed me.

Doesn't that mean he loves me?

I'm an idiot for thinking he loved me I guess.

He's so perfect……and…..I'm so clumsy.