I walked into the empty living room.
The house was quiet and soulless without Kaoru.
My hand shook and balled into a fist.
"HAPPY FUCKEN VALENTINES DAY" I threw my fist at the wall.
I never understood love……I thought it was stupid.
I didn't want to need him……my god was I wrong……I need my Kaoru.
I walked up the steps and opened our bedroom door.
I rested my head on the pillow cased in white satin.
It smelled like strawberries ……like my gentle Kaoru.
I closed my eyes.
In the darkness of my mind I saw my lover.
He turned to me and smiled his warm loving smile.
I opened my eyes I was alone again.
He was gone taking the life of the house with him.
That's not all he took…….he left with my life to.
I turned over.
"Damn it" I hissed.
"Why the hell did I half to be so stubborn"
I can't go on without Kaoru.
The maid made her way over to my bed.
"Master Hikaru" she whispered softly.
I turned and shot her a look of hate.
Fear filled the girl's eyes.
"Fuck off" I hissed.
The girl fled the room.
I looked out the window.
It was a cold day, Snow on the ground and all.
Out the corner of my eye I saw Kaoru standing in the door way.
He looked so beautiful with the light from the hall shining on his pale skin.
He was wearing tight black pants and a dark blue coat that fit his torso nicely.
"Just here to get a few things" he explained.
I nodded.
He leaned over and picked up a picture I'd thrown on the floor.
"You sure you want me to leave" Kaoru whispered softly.
I looked up and his eyes met mine.
I wanted to say no. that I was being and idiot and need him like I need to breath.
But because I'm stubborn……my thoughts didn't make it out my mouth.
"Hell yeah, I don't need you" I turned my back to him and crossed my arms over my chest.
Out the corner of my eyes I saw him nod slowly.
"Very well then" came his soft voice.
I heard the door open and close.
I turned and he was gone I was alone again.
It's better for him any way.
Kaoru just needs someone who can love him back.
I love him with all my heart……I really do but I never made it a point to show my love how much I loved him.
I watched him leave from the window.
I knew he was the best thing in my life.
I'm so stupid……I let him walk away.
I had the power to stop him and I didn't.
I'm stupid.
My lover and angel my savoir just walked away from me.
And I let him.
My Kaoru is gone.
Kaoru's POV
I woke up that morning.
I don't understand.
Hikaru just jumped on me when I came home and now I'm alone in an apartment.
I love Hika.
I just……I thought he loved me.
After all……he kissed me.
Doesn't that mean he loves me?
I'm an idiot for thinking he loved me I guess.
He's so perfect……and…..I'm so clumsy.
