Lily threw herself onto the double bed. No, she was not going to cry over him again; she wouldn't let herself. She grabbed a pillow and buried her face in it. She had done it this time, she really had. She didn't mean it when she said that she didn't love him. She didn't mean it when she told him that she wished she had never met him; God knows what life would be like if she hadn't.

He deserved it Lily. Remember what they did?

Lily rolled over onto her side only for her eyes to meet with his, the hazel sparkling as they danced across the frame, their inky doubles so happy...so in love...

Lily groaned and buried her face in the pillow once more. How could she get him out of her head when he was everywhere? He was in the bed that they had slept in. He was on the sofa where they had held each other by the fire many a night. He was in every photo she had ever kept. All his friends were her friends. It was impossible! Lily sat up as soon as she felt her eyes sting with tears and swiftly left the bedroom; it held too many memories. The cat screeched as she stepped on its tail and ran at full speed under the table.

"Great, now even the cat gets hurt and runs away from me..." She sighed.

You're the one who got hurt Lily, not him...why don't you get that?

Lily grabbed a butterbeer off of the kitchen counter and sat on the sofa, staring into the fireplace, wondering if the coal had ever had the chance to witness the love that she had once shared with James Potter. If it had ever heard him whisper those three words in her ear, if it had ever watched him hold her like she was the only thing keeping him alive, if it had ever seen him brush his lips against her skin, his fingers in her hair...

Stop it! Why can't you think of something else for a change?

How could she when he was everywhere. In every thing, in every person, in her...

Lily took a long swig of the butterbeer, her eyes never leaving the fireplace. How could he do it to her? How could she do it to her? She was her best friend! How could she when she already had someone of her own, someone who loved her like Lily had loved James? Lily continued to stare at the coal with a heavy heart. The only way she was ever going to get over James Potter was if she left it all behind. With tears in her eyes she stood and pulled on her coat. She was going to do it; she was going to leave it all behind forever.

***

James stood slumped against the back wall of Sirius' Living room, watching silently as time ticked by. He had lost her, lost her for good; the love of his life, his Lily was gone. James groaned and pinched the bridge of his nose. It was just one big misunderstanding and she wouldn't even let him explain. Sirius wandered over with a glass of firewhisky and shoved it into his hand.

"Mate, can you not even pretend to be having a good time at this party?" Sirius said sympathetically.

"Sirius she won't even talk to me!" James almost screeched, "Even if she does turn up she wont come anywhere near me!"

"She'll come round..."
"No she won't! It's Lily Evans!"

"That's what we used to think before she finally gave in and became your girlfriend."

"This is completely different! She thinks I want Alice Prewett! She saw me with her!"

"Well maybe you should be more careful about who and where you practice these things with," Sirius shrugged, taking a swig of his own firewhisky.
"Sirius this isn't funny, I mean, surely she'd know that that's not what happened?"

"Well to be fair mate you and Alice did go sneaking around a lot. She was bound to get suspicious."
"Yea but-"

"And you snogged last weekend."
"It was my New Year kiss! It's traditional to get one off of someone you don't go out with."
"Ahh but it was always Lily's kiss wasn't it, before you went out?"
"Yea but-"
"And it lasted longer than everyone else's...with tongues..."
"It was a joke!"
"Ahh but you know how Lily is...and Frank didn't look too impressed."
"I thought Frank found it funny."
"Mate, no bloke finds his girlfriend kissing other guys funny. I mean, would you find it funny if I started snogging the face off of Lily?"

"Lily's not my girlfriend anymore though is she?" James said sulkily.

"True but I still doubt you'd find it funny," Sirius grinned. Suddenly James' eyes caught a fiery red mass amongst the crowd and his heart skipped a beat.

She came...

Without saying a word to Sirius he darted across the room, his heart pounding in his chest. Lily turned and her eyes widened...her beautiful green eyes...

"Lily!" He called, but in a flash she was gone, hiding amongst the crowds of people. James pushed through the crowds, his eyes darting across the room in a desperate attempt to find her but he just couldn't see her anywhere.

"Remus!" He said, grabbing his mousy haired friends arm, "Have you seen Lily?"

"Yea, she just said she was going to get a drink," He shrugged and James made a dash for the buffet table in the corner. He had to talk to her, he just had to. No sooner had he pushed his way through the crowd, had he seen her fiery red hair again, soft and silky, cascading in long waves onto her milky white shoulders, vibrant against her short black dress. James' favourite dress, the dress that revealed the shape of her fragile body, that had made him run his fingertips along her curves, the dress that revealed her pale and delicate shoulders. Beautiful.

James shuddered as he remembered pressing his lips to those shoulders, telling her just how much he loved her...

Snapping out of it, James walked hastily over to the buffet table.

"Lily..." He breathed, suddenly so full of love and remorse and she turned slowly.

"Potter," She nodded.

"Oh please don't call me Potter..." James whispered, "I don't want to go through that again. Please don't pretend that what we had meant nothing to you."

"Well you should have thought of that before you went off with my best friend," Lily said bitterly.

"Lily I swear to you, I-"
"I saw you!" Lily yelled, "I saw you together! You had your arms around her! You kissed her!"

"You've got it all wrong-"
"What could I have got wrong Potter? What?" Lily shrieked, tears brimming her eyes, "I find you both in the house, alone, the fire on and then suddenly she throws her arms around you and you kiss her!"
"The kiss was a mistake. I-"
"Too bloody right it was!"
"No! That came out wrong-"

"Oh just save it Potter I've had enough of it all!" Lily said, pushing past him only for him to grab hold of her wrist.

"Lily I love you!" He said desperately, "I've always loved you and I always will! I don't want anyone else! I want you! I need you! I'll go insane without you!"

"Is this the same speech you're going to give to Alice later? When I leave you here? Is she your fallback?"
"What? No! Lily you have to believe me!" James groaned, pulling her closer, "It hurts so much-"

"Well then you better go buy some painkillers because I'm not hearing anymore of this!" She spat, pushing him away from her.

"Lily, please!" James called after her but she didn't seem to acknowledge him. James' heart sank as he saw Alice Prewett call out to Lily but no reply escaped from her lips. James just stood there, watching her until she disappeared once more. He didn't know what to do with himself; what could you do when it felt like your heart had been shattered into a million pieces? How could you go on without a heart? Alice bit her lip and looked in James' direction. James gave her half a smile and snatched another firewhisky off of the table before she suddenly appeared at his side.

"I'm guessing she still thinks that we...?" She said quietly.

"Yea..." James said, taking a swig, "If only she knew what-"
"I know," Alice said sadly, "Frank didn't even turn up."
"I'm sorry Alice," James sighed but Alice smiled a watery smile.

"I didn't think he would anyway," She said wiping away a tear, "They won't even let us explain!"
"I know, but you know what Lily's like..."
"I don't blame her," Alice said sadly, "I think I'd react the same if I saw her and Frank like that." James sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. Suddenly there was a loud tinkling and the room fell silent only for Sirius to pull Lily from the crowd into the centre of the room.

"Evans here would like to make an announcement," Sirius grinned in James' direction, "So shut up and pay attention." Lily blushed and played around with the wine glass in her hand as everyone focused their attention on her. Her heart beat faster and her skin burned knowing that his eyes were on her, begging for hers to meet his.

No, don't give in. He deserves this.

"Ok...well erm, as you know we've all known each other for a pretty long time so I thought that this would be the perfect opportunity to erm...tell you my little bit of news," She began and blushed a little when she noticed everyone turn their gaze towards James, "I...I'm leaving ." Gasps and cries erupted from the crowd of people and James' heat sank, exploded, shattered. The world began to slow down and all the colour in his life turned to black and white. The pain in his heart was overwhelming, unbearable; he just had to say something.

"Where?" He said suddenly and the room fell silent. Lily slowly turned her gaze towards him and her eyes met his for the first time in weeks.

"Where are you going?" He repeated, hearing his voice break. Lily stared at him, her brow creased, her body trembling when she heard the shock...or was it the hurt in his voice? Suddenly Lily's face became blank and her body filled with rage; he was standing with Alice Prewett.

"Australia," She said, almost robotically, "I have family there and I need a tan." James felt all the colour drain from his face, the reason for living escaping him.

Australia? His Lily would rather be on the other side of the world than be with him?

"Oh Lily..." He heard Alice say next to him, her voice breaking just like his had.

"Lily..." He whispered, the room now deadly silent, "If you'd just let me explain...I swear to you I-"

"I have packing to do," Lily said quietly before she made her way towards the door, "I promise I'll see you all before I leave...I'll show myself out Sirius." Lily exited the room in silence before James heard it, the most terrible sound he had ever heard, the sound of the door clicking shut, the sound of his Lily leaving him forever. Where will she go? What will she do? Who will she meet? Would she find someone new? Oh if only she knew, if only she'd let him explain.

No...

Tears escaped James' eyes as what seemed like millions of people stared straight at him. He wanted to disappear. No...he wanted his Lily. James pushed past the crowd of people and yanked open the front door, running down the street until he saw her tiny physique in the distance.

"Lily!" He screamed, his heart breaking, "Lily, please!" James ran and ran but suddenly she was gone, disappearing into the darkness, like the last piece of hope that he had left in him.

Author's note: Ok so this is going to be a short story which was originally supposed to be a one shot but there have been so many ideas popping into my head right now that I think I'll make it two chapters. This was just something to pull me out of the dark spot where all my creativity just disappeared due to exams, my little experiment. I hope it turned out ok. PLEASE REVIEW! xxxx