This is not my first fic, but my first in this web. Also, I want to try writing in English. I am not a native English-speaker, in fact, I am Spanish, but after spending a couple years as an exchange student in Canada, I think I can give it a try. Obviously, neither my grammar nor my spelling is perfect, so I'd love if someone might want to help with that. 3

Disclaimer All the characters and places belong to J. K. Rowling. I am using them without any commercial purposes.

ADVICE. It might contain spoilers from book 7, but they won't be obvious; just some references that won't have anything to deal with the main plot of the DH. However, it is up to you deciding if is worth reading my fic or not.

1. The last kiss.

Lily heard his voice from where she was sited, waiting for him. He was dealing with something related to his master. He was really mad and it was her fault. After all, she never showed up at their date. There was she was, waiting, just to say goodbye and nothing else. It was breaking her heart in a thousand pieces... She shook her head, trying to make those thoughts disappear. She didn't chose not to go, but someone else already decided for her. The two men of her life hated each other so much... She would have to tell him some lie, a little one. If he ever knew why she didn't go... no. She couldn't let that happen. Lily loved Severus, but she has had to go with James. The Order... what if they discovered she was dating a death eater? Or worst, that she was in love with one?

Someone interrupt her thoughts, appearing suddenly in the room.

"Sev!" she called him, "Sev, wait! I have to talk to you."
"Get away" he mumbled.
"Sev, please, listen..."
"Listen to what Lily? To another pathetic excuse, maybe? Or perhaps, will I have to listen why did you chose to share a wonderful evening with Potter?" he was being cynic as never was before. He knew. It didn't make sense hiding it anymore. "You're a bloody mudblood! Do you even know what they will do to me if they find out? Do you even care about it? About me? About... us?" He was questioning the only things she was sure about. "Lily," he continued holding her face, "do you even love anymore?

"I... I love you Sev. I've always loved you!"
"So why, why are Potter's fiancée?" There was fear reflected in his lover's eyes.

She didn't answer him. Instead, she kissed him. Passionately but gently, like their very first time hidden in one of Hogwarts´ corridors. Unlike that time, this was the end. They both knew it was their last night together.

Lily accepted James proposal, knowing that what she felt for him could never be even half of what she felt for Severus. James was what she was supposed to do. Severus was what she really wanted. Lily took off the ring that James gave her a couple days ago and threw it away. She'd never belong to James Potter.

"I want you. And I want you to know. Sev... I am ready" Lily whispered.
" I can wait."
" I've never been surer of anything in my life."

Severus knew that he was going to be her first time. Not Potter, him. They might not see each other anymore. The Dark Lord was being generous; he thought Lily was just a hobby. He knew nothing about Severus feelings for the muggleborn. If they ever find out... he didn't care what happen to him, but they'd kill Lily. Or maybe, they'd torture her and play with her until they got bored and finally put and end to her life. And then, there was The Order. Even with the bizarre obsession of the old Dumbledore with love, they would never understand them, even less approve them. Lily never loved Potter, but it was the only thing she could do to make Severus safe. It was a necessary sacrifice.

Lily tried not to look at his tattooed arm when he took off his t-shirt; instead, she tried to focus on his eyes. After a few seconds, she closed hers. She wanted it to be special, and it was. Her first time was with her first love. The only one she'd ever truly love

It was almost time to leave, but Severus was still sleeping. Lily smiled; he loved to sleep until late and find her with one of his t-shirts that were extremely big for her, in the kitchen with her usual smile. But there wasn't any smile this time. She left a letter for him, and after thinking it twice she picked up her favourite t-shirt of him. Without looking back, she apparated in Godric´s Hollow.

This is a short chapter, just two Word pages. I promise the next chapter will be more exciting and longer.

I tried not to be too graphic in the scene between Lily and Severus, and describe just her feelings (this is not an erotic fic people . ) Although I am so sorry if someone found it offensive.

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